My head hurts. I've been looking at college courses all morning/afternoon so far trying to figure out what I want and need to take this semester. I need to take an oral communications course sometime before I graduate. Most of them are senior seminars, which involve 20+ page papers and class presentations. The thought alone makes me want to throw up. I'd like to try to avoid those kinds of classes as much as possible. :sad:
I'm also debating on whether I want to take a drawing class. I miss the feeling I used to get when I would draw. I miss the inspiration. I so badly want to find a way to light a fire under myself to get into art again because I know I'm good at it. The inspiration has been mostly gone for years now though, only ever coming back once in a great while. The last time I took an art class in college though -- digital art a couple years ago -- I nearly had a panic attack with every critique day, and every time I walked in the room I was anxious the entire time. So much that I couldn't really focus on my work, all I could focus on was the time and count how many minutes left of misery before I could leave. My anxiety hinders my creativity A LOT and I never could figure out why or a way past it. :idontknow: I kind of want to push myself again, but I also don't want to fall flat on my face and fail a class that's supposed to be simple and fun.
