Yeah i that's why i keep trying tho constantly failing is not something pleasant, is it? lol. It's like i meet, let's say, 10 ppl and out of them only one turns out to be "worth it" while i lose the other 9. And that's something coz usually those 10 are shit. The problem now is not only people dissappinting me but the feeling that i must to start all over again, you know? like: Oh no, meeting new people AGAIN...meh.
Hahaha I'm soooo tired of everyone. We're humans after all and need to satisfy that "social need" so we keep trying but to others it seems so much easier...it's too tiresome and drains a lot. The worst part is that all those I meet ain't worth shit so it's like making a lot of effort for something that doesn't even deserve it :(