coyote
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if you want, i can write them a note
perhaps some sort of coital injury
you can pick up a sling at Walgreens
Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
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if you want, i can write them a note
perhaps some sort of coital injury
you can pick up a sling at Walgreens
Lamb
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So, I was very depressed and sunk into despair for the latter part of today. I cried for some time and then later on, it occurred to me that I let my emotions control me! I know I am not my emotions, as has been taught by many spiritual teachers such as Ekhart Tolle, but I just keep forgetting this and let my emotions overwhelm me to the point where I don't control myself anymore!
I have a confession to make. I have been touting the benefits of vipassana meditation but haven't been practicing it as often as I'd like. I do maybe 2-3 sessions of meditation each week, and each session lasts anywhere from 7-9 minutes. Yes, I look like a lazy slob. Over the last few days, I notice my thoughts have been quite intense. I let my thoughts and emotions run wild, and have been neglecting meditation.
Next time, when I find myself getting angry, sad, or whatever, I will make it a point to tell myself, "You are NOT your emotions. You are the observer of all thoughts and emotions." Sudden epiphany that I have: this IS the essence of acting. I often wonder what makes good actors/actresses good, and I think this is it. Good actors/actresses can change their roles to adapt to different situations, without getting caught up in their emotions.
Why does it have to be a coital injury?
Arm or leg injury works just as well.
I have a confession to make. I have been touting the benefits of vipassana meditation but haven't been practicing it as often as I'd like. I do maybe 2-3 sessions of meditation each week, and each session lasts anywhere from 7-9 minutes. Yes, I look like a lazy slob. Over the last few days, I notice my thoughts have been quite intense. I let my thoughts and emotions run wild, and have been neglecting meditation.
Next time, when I find myself getting angry, sad, or whatever, I will make it a point to tell myself, "You are NOT your emotions. You are the observer of all thoughts and emotions." Sudden epiphany that I have: this IS the essence of acting. I often wonder what makes good actors/actresses good, and I think this is it. Good actors/actresses can change their roles to adapt to different situations, without getting caught up in their emotions.
Why does it have to be a coital injury?
Arm or leg injury works just as well.I saw this a while ago on Youtube but partway through, I had to watch the video without the music because I was on the verge of tears. The music just makes it 10x more dramatic!
Flanscho
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So some weeks ago I thought "meh, I should get to know some more people in this city. It might make sense to not focus on only one circle of friends". So I signed up at a website which is for people searching other players for board games and stuff.
So some woman replied, wie compared the types of games we play, it fits pretty well. Tomorrow she and two friends of hers have planned to play some board games, and invited me to come over.
It'll be surely interesting. Though I also get nervous. A part of myself thinks that having the saturday just for myself would have been nice too. Or whether these people will be nice. Or maybe I won't understand a game they might want to play that I haven't played before.
But we'll see.
So some woman replied, wie compared the types of games we play, it fits pretty well. Tomorrow she and two friends of hers have planned to play some board games, and invited me to come over.
It'll be surely interesting. Though I also get nervous. A part of myself thinks that having the saturday just for myself would have been nice too. Or whether these people will be nice. Or maybe I won't understand a game they might want to play that I haven't played before.
But we'll see.
My sister gave birth yesterday, they had another daughter. She kept loosing blood (my sister), so she had to stay the night, but all's well now.
The baby's older sister (she's four now I think), kept trying to pick her up, because she looks a bit like the dolls she usually plays with, she doesn't quite understand that she's a bit fragile still. It was endearing to hear (I wasn't there my self unfortunately).
The baby's older sister (she's four now I think), kept trying to pick her up, because she looks a bit like the dolls she usually plays with, she doesn't quite understand that she's a bit fragile still. It was endearing to hear (I wasn't there my self unfortunately).
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Ithior
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I'm getting bored, I should find something to keep myself busy this year. I thought about getting a part-time job but I can only find stuff related to sales or call-centres.
Any suggestions on what I should do this year to keep myself busy? I don't really have the money or will to go travelling around.
Any suggestions on what I should do this year to keep myself busy? I don't really have the money or will to go travelling around.
dottie
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thanks, it worked! PARTY TODAY
Phoenixx
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I have things to do today. I'm not looking forward to it and I'm definitely not looking forward to tomorrow. There's a job fair tomorrow a half hour away I have to go to. I've never been to one so I don't even know what to expect or even what to do. I feel so underqualified for anything, what's the point of going? No one is going to want someone who looks like they're a child and has hardly any work experience.
I'm so sick of this self-pitying, depressing hole I've been stuck in. I guess I just need to suck it up and get on with life and pretend like everything's okay because I don't know what else to do anymore.
I'm so sick of this self-pitying, depressing hole I've been stuck in. I guess I just need to suck it up and get on with life and pretend like everything's okay because I don't know what else to do anymore.
dottie
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really, don't expect much from it. i don't know anyone who has been hired at a job fair. it seems more like another means of advertisement. there are a bunch of tables/booths with pamphlets, some raffles, that's about it. you would probably be better off using the same time and committing your day to bringing your resume directly to the manager of 10 shops. i bet you would get hired. but don't write off the job fair completely. you are inexperienced (according to you) so think of this as an experience you need under your belt, even if it feels like a waste of time. still go and talk to the people there. think of it more as an idea-generating/networking experience. bring your resume, dress business-casual...
everyone has to start somewhere. remember 80% of success is showing up.
Over the years I've had people tell each other "you'll do great things", "you'll go to places", "you'll go change the world", etc. Rarely were any of these comments directed at me though, but it got me thinking, do I want to do great things? go to places? change the world? The answer is no, I have no such aspirations for myself. Rather, I want to live normally like an average Joe. Is this ok? Is it alright to not be ambitious?
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Aye, sure, as long as yer happy, right? Ye shouldnae feel pressure tae live up tae somebody else's expectations.
dottie
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yeah, you are being true to yourself and not hurting anyone in the process. that is just great!
Phoenixx
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^ Thanks dottie. I managed to find more information online about what companies/employers that were going to be there and the list was all for mechanical engineers, electricians, registered nurses, and teacher's aides. Nothing of which I have any certifications or degrees for, so I won't be going tomorrow. Can't say I'm not relieved in a way.
MollyBeGood
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finished season 3 of GOT. I am so sad now it's over!!!
Interacting with people gives me pain. I don't just mean bullying. I mean a simply "hello" greeting could send me into tears - this actually happened several years ago. Some lady spoke to me out of the blue, asking about a harmless topic, and that sent me rushing to the bathroom and crying my eyes out. The cause was a mystery until now. No wonder I cannot force myself to love people - because people are a pain to me, like ant bites or needles. I even cried in class, being surrounded by so many people. People = pain.
Lamb
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While at a hospital appointment today I received a compliment from a female. She said I was beautiful and it made my day temporarily. It's rare I come across that type of sincerity from girls, so I immediately felt the urge to latch onto her with an offer of friendship. She had also read the book I was reading, and I thought she was gorgeous but I didn't want to say it back and have her think I was just saying it. :question: Shooting myself in the foot for not asking for her number. That could've been a potential friend. Of course, my anxiety overrode the desire. I might have been seen as a weirdo for asking! It goes to show how I feel about being validated. I immediately want to give my all towards that person because they're being nice to me. That's dangerous. *sigh*
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Lamb
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Bunnies can fly...proof - YouTube
Seriously..these videos... I can't. Was that the bunny screaming?? Omg, my rabbit. I'd be mortified. Thankfully I don't think a hawk could pick her up, lol.
Seriously..these videos... I can't. Was that the bunny screaming?? Omg, my rabbit. I'd be mortified. Thankfully I don't think a hawk could pick her up, lol.
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dottie
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i cannot believe all of the hours i have spent on this installation. today, alone, was at least 14 hours of nonstop working. the thing is... when i look at it... it looks so easy to make... but it's NOT. D:
tomorrow:
home depot
cut foam panels
suspend foam panels with wire
sweep/mop?
*install*
set up lighting
then go to work.
tomorrow:
home depot
cut foam panels
suspend foam panels with wire
sweep/mop?
*install*
set up lighting
then go to work.