Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

[dottie]

I know that feeling all too well. Right now I'm avoiding leaving my bedroom because my mum called me, I went to the living room as she is talking to some uncles via skype I don't want to talk to, since she ignored me I fled back to my room and I'll wait until she calls me again, which is probably after talking to them.

oh gosh, that pressure to have awkward small talk.

right now my stepdad's daughter who is my age is over with her kids. she married some rich guy and lives ~*~the perfect life~*~ while she looks down on everyone else. i really don't feel like playing kiss-*** while she judges me. leave.

 

[Ithior]

oh gosh, that pressure to have awkward small talk.

right now my stepdad's daughter who is my age is over with her kids. she married some rich guy and lives ~*~the perfect life~*~ while she looks down on everyone else. i really don't feel like playing kiss-*** while she judges me. leave.

I graduated recently so everyone now asks what I'll be doing (master's degree or getting a job), when I tell them I'm going to wait until I come back from my vacations (in mid September) before sending my CV to companies they all try to convince me to send it now or regret it forever. It's so annoying.

 

[dottie]

I graduated recently so everyone now asks what I'll be doing (master's degree or getting a job), when I tell them I'm going to wait until I come back from my vacations (in mid September) before sending my CV to companies they all try to convince me to send it now or regret it forever. It's so annoying.

ridic!


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[dottie]

still waiting.

 

[jaim38]

So tired. I went out to 4-5 different places today with my cousin. I wore heels so my feet hurt halfway through walking in the mall. Now I see why people wear flats when going shopping, especially mall shopping. I bought some new clothes for my wardrobe. My anxiety was through the roof at food areas. I was very uncomfortable being around large numbers of people in 1 place. My cousin was edging us so I had no choice but to follow along. At 1 point, I had to go to the bathroom to wipe sweat because i was afraid sweat stains might show through.

Finally we went to Target where there isn't much foot traffic. I could finally breathe and relax. Next we went to Ross. While looking for clothes, someone farted so I thought it was my mom but she said no. If I had done that at a public place, I would be embarassed so I try hard not to. Anyways, it wasn't so bad until we had to line up. My anxiety was through the roof. There were so many people standing in line behind me. Then I had to go to the cash register, with my whole body facing the all those people in line! I was so afraid of looking up because I didn't want to end up staring at people so I looked down the whole time. The cashier was nice though.

Finally we went to a burger place. It wasn't so bad until I had to sit down next to a group of 3 people. Some guy was looking at my direction talking to a kid next to me and I feel extremely uncomfortable. My body froze right there. I shook a few times. He probably thinks i'm crazy.

I am proud of myself for going out today and initiating convo with my cousin, but i still have issues to work on.

 

[gazelle]

oh gosh, that pressure to have awkward small talk.

right now my stepdad's daughter who is my age is over with her kids. she married some rich guy and lives ~*~the perfect life~*~ while she looks down on everyone else. i really don't feel like playing kiss-*** while she judges me. leave.

OH! I can relate to that feeling too... that's exactly why I find family parties and seeing relatives so excruciating!... Everyone my age or younger is either married or either too busy doing something "too important" with their lives to get married... they always act like they feel sorry for me when they see me since I don't have a job atm, I'm not married or I'm not getting a PHD! And the truth is I'm doing what I want with my life and I don't feel sorry for myself. :idontknow:

 

[dottie]

OH! I can relate to that feeling too... that's exactly why I find family parties and seeing relatives so excruciating!... Everyone my age or younger is either married or either too busy doing something "too important" with their lives to get married... they always act like they feel sorry for me when they see me since I don't have a job atm, I'm not married or I'm not getting a PHD! And the truth is I'm doing what I want with my life and I don't feel sorry for myself. :idontknow:

ngl... i can honestly say i am jealous on some level. if i were secure in myself i'd be out there socializing, not caring what others think. oh well...

 

[Kiwong]

Gave a work presentation today in front of 30 people. A couple of people said I spoke well.

 

[BlackPuma]

They're expecting me to double my work hours. I'm barely hanging on as it is..

Here we go again, I guess. You know that cycle I keep talking about? This is exactly what I mean. It's time to suck it up and see how long it takes before it devastates me this time.

 

[AGR]

I love the way japanese girls and native East Asian girls in general used to look like in the eighties and early nineties,today it's just a different look,too much hair painting,too much make up so many extravagant hairstyles.....

 

[Graeme1988]

Grateful ma cousin still care enough about me tae make me laugh when am feelin' doon 'n' upset.

Is it ever right tae tell people what ye really think o' them? Am talkin' all out, nae BS honest. Because am startin' tae realise ah keep a lot o' what ah think tae masel' mostly for fear o' how folk will react tae me. :idontknow:

 

[Ithior]

My grandma turned 87 today and we had dinner at an empty restaurant. We made our orders, everyone asked for cod (sorta like a traditional dish here), and since I'm really weird with food (I don't like most sauces, I'm allergic to some things and there are other things I don't like, including cod) I asked for something else to eat.

After that I was forced to stay in the waiting room to setup our gift to her, a tablet. Basically I had to put skype working there, but it took a long time because of some problems.

A little after I came back to the table the food arrived. Apparently my grandma changed her mind and decided to eat what I was eating, but for some reason they cooked the first request. Once again I was forced to eat the cod which I dislike instead of the food I actually liked and asked for.

And now that she has a tablet, I'll be on constant technical support duty (since she lives here).

Oh, and by the way, this is the grandma I already disliked before.

 

[bardock]

Depressed, lonely, whenever I feel like that I seem to come here idk why?

 

[anomicdeer]

Why do I keep trying.

I don't say anything. I'm hated.
I try to be social and get looked at like I'm stupid, or they just ignore me.
I try to smile. I just get eyes rolled at me.
I don't smile. I'm hated.

I dress one way and I'm looked at stupid.
I dress another and I get ignored.

Not that I'm doing it for others. I'm just trying to make myself feel better.
I hate my wardrobe but I try to buy what I like when I spend money on clothes.
I hate that I have to wear the same thing every week. So I try to see what people responses are with everything about me and this is what I think.

 

[Raichel]

Trying to figure out how to toggle on the smiley tab. I remember there used to be a clickable list next to the message box, but perhaps this has changed since I last visited.

 

[Phoenixx]

Gave a work presentation today in front of 30 people. A couple of people said I spoke well.

^ Great job! Presentations suck, but it sounds like you got through it pretty well! :thumbup:

 

[Opaline]

Where... where am I?

 

[jaim38]

I think I just had a revelation. I express my kindness/care indirectly rather than directly. A lot of girls/women express their care for others by kissing, hugging, caressing, holding hands, saying mushy words, etc. I don't do any of this; in fact, I don't like being all mushy and touchy feely with other people. But, what I do is listen to people's problems/needs and try to solve them. Or sometimes I do little things for people such as wishing them a happy holiday, sending them text message or ecard, etc. Often I feel like a rock because I don't act all girly or mushy like many girls/women do, but it doesn't mean I'm not nice. I am nice in my own way.

 

[letsridealone]

naps are awesome but pops are always stright

 

[Flanscho]

So, while a buddy and I were unemployed, we played some computer game often together, that requires a team of five. Sometimes we invited people he knew, sometimes we filled the group up with random people. Then he got a job, and had less time. My job starts in september. So I played on, with the people he invited, and since we used voice chat, we of course talked this and that.

Now, some of those people live in the same city as I, and this week they invited me for a barbecue, which they'll have tomorrow in a park. I said "ok". Now I'm getting a bit nervous, because... Well, I don't mind barbecues in parks, but normally I only do that with friends.

I know those guys, I like them, but... I don't really know them. I have no idea what they look like and... I just really don't know them. That makes me nervous. :|