With my sister going to Holland today for a year to do her master's, I'll be staying at home with my mum and grandma.
My mum is a very stressed person and I also think she feels very lonely. As such, I feel that with my sister away I have to stay here with her. I decided not to do my master's this year because I wanted to figure out what I actually wanted to do, but now I feel tied down because of my mum. I feel like I won't be able to take the most out of this gap year, since unemployment is really high in this country (thus it'll be hard to find temporary jobs/paid internships) and I can't just change between many jobs until I find what I like. If I found something outside my city I wouldn't be able to take it since that would mean my mum would be alone most of the time.
I guess it's normal for the sons to take care of their parents when they're older, but while my mum only had to take care of my grandma at 50 (and so she has already had plenty of time to live her own life), I'm only 20, and with SA I haven't been able to live my own life yet. I don't want to spend the rest of my life not doing what I want because of SA and because I have to take care of my mum.
If I could choose, I'd live alone in some apartment. But it looks like I don't really have a choice.