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Phoenixx

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I'm getting my hair cut on Wednesday finally. The summer heat has wreaked havoc on my hair this year. :sad: Because of that I'm chopping it. The ends are so dry, no matter what I do I can't keep it soft at all. I cut it right at the beginning of summer, but still left 4 inches below the shoulders. Now I'm just planning to cut it right to the collarbone. I'm nervous though. I haven't had it cut that short in a couple years, but the last time I did it, my hair poofed more than I liked. My hair's changed a bit though, it's not as curly, but I'm still afraid of it poofing. I really need to get into the "oh well it's just hair it'll grow back" mentality.
 

MollyBeGood

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Anxiety is a weird thing, it comes and goes like the wind. I am cool and calm one minute and hot and bothered the next. All I know for sure is that nothing stays the same for long. Suffering never lasts and neither does happiness. Just know that nothing Nothing is permanent and you will find peace in THAT.
 
Man, I feel like death today. I'm just going to crawl back to bed and deal with the consequences later.. if I'm still alive at that point, of course.

#yolo
 
started to feel very confused when thinking back at how i have been treated in therapy

- told doctor about my SA and how it was affecting me
- group therapy, did nothing for me
- therapist one, educated me on anxiety and said i need to see someone else who can help me better
- therapist two, educated me on anxiety and said i need to see someone else who can help me better [why did this happen?]
- psychologist one, "i'm here to help with your eating disorder", WHAT? XD
- psychiatrist one, "i'm going to refer you back to the others, i think they can help you more than i can", oh gosh, what the hell ;____;

now i have a phone assesment on thursday [again], and i'm fearing that this cycle is just going to continue. it's been over three years [including waiting lists], and i haven't had someone that could help me with my SA issues yet.

Maybe search for one experienced with SA? Psychologists tend to specialise. This search tool might help Directory of Chartered Psychologists | BPS
 

Phoenixx

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I'm binging on episodes of Orange is the New Black.
^ That show has been plastered all over my Tumblr dash this week and I have no idea what it is exactly or what it's about. All I know is that Laura Prepon (I seriously didn't recognize her until I saw your post) can rock dark hair pretty good.


I'm dreading the thought of having to do more homework today. At least this is my last week of school for a while.
 

Ithior

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Today my mum keeps nagging me to go keep her company during dinner (she's eating dinner with my grandma) because I'm going to a birthday dinner in an hour and she didn't get to be with me today, and my dad is the one giving me a ride to the restaurant.

On one hand, it completely goes against what she once said, that she could perfectly live alone (it came up since my sister is studying abroad and I would like to move out too) without feeling lonely.

On the other hand, she doesn't realise that while she's already feeling lonely for not being able to talk to me much today, she has forbidden my dad from coming here since saturday, and since I don't leave the house much, I haven't seen him since then. So if she's feeling lonely or whatever it is, then my dad is probably feeling worst. But all she can think about is herself.


Having AvPD or at least some of the symptoms, I find it hard to go out when I have to tell someone where I'm going, why, with whom and what I'll be doing. My grandma needs to have someone to watch over her in case she passes out or something, and since I'm home most of the time, I was forced to do it. Now I can only leave in certain days (when the maid is here cleaning the house) and my mum always asks me those questions. If I want to do something that I'm not comfortable sharing (like going to buy a manga at a shopping centre), I end up avoiding going because I don't want to answer those questions and I also don't want to lie or answer "I'm not telling you".


I feel like I'm going to waste this gap year because of these things.
 
It really bothers me when people whom watch movies in the cinema assume everyone does, and therefore talk about critical plot spoilers in public spaces. Whenever there's a good movie you have to spend like three months dodging spoilers waiting for the DVD releases.. it's really frustrating
 
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