How are you feeling?

Mad about something that happened today but it will pass I guess.

kihira said: ↑

This again. Its hard enough to have your mental unhealthiness unacknowledged; then to be made to feel invisible...

I do wonder if I'd be better off alone

The times I get to spend in my own company are my most neutral feeling and sometimes even happy. I feel human and not so much a label. Sometimes on my own I am barely aware of lself.

Unlikeable... Aye, that about it.

Just tryin' ton figure oot whit it is aboot me that makes people huv such a hostile reaction towards me.

Would be a lot easier if ah just didnae give a f**k.

Things have been looking extra bad lately.
That feeling that I don't belong in this world is so strong.
My life continues to shrink.
I guess at times like these I have to focus on the things that I can do. The things I can change.
It's very hard when you have nobody but yourself to lean on.
Nobody that understands what you are going through.
I'm sure many here can relate to that.

S_Spartan said: ↑

Things have been looking extra bad lately.
That feeling that I don't belong in this world is so strong.
My life continues to shrink.
I guess at times like these I have to focus on the things that I can do. The things I can change.
It's very hard when you have nobody but yourself to lean on.
Nobody that understands what you are going through.
I'm sure many here can relate to that.

I mean I can't say anything else other than I get it. I really do. I keep my problems to myself because I know it will not end well if others found out so I am basically dying on the inside everyday alone. Hang in there the best you can.

I am broken on the inside. I'm talking shattered to a million pieces. I....I just don't know anymore. :crying:

defiance said: ↑

I mean I can't say anything else other than I get it. I really do. I keep my problems to myself because I know it will not end well if others found out so I am basically dying on the inside everyday alone. Hang in there the best you can.

Thanks man. You too. It's a tough spot to be in as you know.
But just knowing that someone else understands is a help.

S_Spartan said: ↑

Things have been looking extra bad lately.
That feeling that I don't belong in this world is so strong.
My life continues to shrink.
I guess at times like these I have to focus on the things that I can do. The things I can change.
It's very hard when you have nobody but yourself to lean on.
Nobody that understands what you are going through.
I'm sure many here can relate to that.

Aye, ah cun relate, there. Ma life pretty much gan tae shit as of late.

Emasculated... :sad: Every thought and opinion ah express is wrong. And every decision ah make is constantly undermined. :kickingmyself: Ah f**kin' hate ma life !

Taxed. :crying:

Graeme1988 said: ↑

Aye, ah cun relate, there. Ma life pretty much gan tae shit as of late.

Sorry to hear that. 2016 has not been too great thus far.

feeling rather giddy over my own drawing lol
also feeling positive about the future for once
i feel like things may be falling into place
and i'm starting to feel excited for the future and what may lie ahead

I'm excited because I got my passport in yesterday (I've never traveled abroad before). Can't wait for my trip this summer 😀

Ah've been better, lets just put it that way.... Hate not feelin' well. Didnae get much sleep ataw last night. Got a hospital appointment this morning as well, dinnae feel up tae going but guess ah should outta obligation.

Who give a f**k? Naebuddy listens tae me anyway, so why bother expressin' how ah feel?

Graeme1988 said: ↑

Ah've been better, lets just put it that way.... Hate not feelin' well. Didnae get much sleep ataw last night. Got a hospital appointment this morning as well, dinnae feel up tae going but guess ah should outta obligation.

I've been sleeping terribly lately too. It makes such a difference I find when you can get a few days of good nights sleep under your belt. Easier said than done though!

F**k it! I'm done, honestly. Ah hud enough o' this constant abuse.

Why am I always the bad yin when ah've done nuthin' wrong? Apparently, just asking for ma mum to get my electric beard timer and beard scissors for me, cuz am currently no mobile enough to walk up and down the stairs, is enough tae me a domineering c**t. Despite the fact ah said please...
:kickingmyself:

Everytime ah open ma mooth ah say summit wrong it seem. Dinnae think ah'll bother anymore. Just being dumb, mute, autistic c**t ma family assumes me tae be. Mibbe keepin' is for the best? Or killing myself? Got nowt left tae live for anyway. And ma family wouldnae exactly miss me much, either - since am scum of the f**kin' earth tae them.

Drove to the inner suburbs today - what I call 'the city' and to a large shopping mall to get some winter clothing because everything is too big for me now.

I hate going to these malls because they make me feel like nothing - like there are just so many people everywhere like a plague and the pollution and bad habits of people - gets me really down.
Felt so exposed with my face like I could literally feel it drooping and the issue where any mirrors anywhere were like dodge city - u did see myself in the cafeteria - my reflection in a far mirror and then in a shop and thought I looked nothing special and run down and droopy face etc. Just the face thing makes me so self concious because it's a change that is not welcome and is new.

Had so many issues with crying and feeling so exposed and crying again.

Envious of people who get to choice what people stay in their lives and which ones they can part ways with. Ah dinnae huv that same freedom of choice to remove all the toxic people from my life. :sad:

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