How are you feeling?
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black_mamba
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Honestly? Feeling so bad I can't express myself here in fear of dragging other people down with me.
But I'm sure its just another dip in the rollercoaster, and that in a few days things will be a tad better. Argh hurry up time!! :x
But I'm sure its just another dip in the rollercoaster, and that in a few days things will be a tad better. Argh hurry up time!! :x
Scottish_Player
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Right now i feel mixed up, confused and tired, i got about 5 hours broken sleep last night which dosent help. Sorry for the non-posotive post
Feeling alright today, knackered but alright...
Naomi x
Naomi x
not good right now, I keep having swings of anxiety/depression and SA ,its been going on the last few weeks, I'll be OK for a few days, then boom! it whacks me, little things seem to set it off and I'm very sensitive, mind you I've had alot of crap the past few months, its no wonder.
*hugs for everyone else feeling bad*
*hugs for everyone else feeling bad*
black_mamba
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grumblina said:
Sounds exciting! I love moving house, I'd love to help out except I'm on the other side of the planet.
Today I am feeling stressed because my motorbike training company are treating me unfairly (I am getting ill, wanted to change the date of my lessons and they won't let me without taking away my deposit money - all £150 of it!!) So as you can imagine, been tearing my hair out all day trying to sort this out. *sniffles*
maya
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My parents are on holidays for two weeks and my sister is also not home so I am alone and I feel totally lost and lonely. I now see what my life will be when I move on my own (I am 24 years old so that will have to happen sooner or later). My only girlfriend is also away right now so this week I have realised that without them I have nobody and I am not capable of doing anything by myself so I just sit around at my house and watch TV or something. When my family is at home I can socialize with them and pretend that I am not so wierd. I also depend on one and only girlfriend who I've known since highschool and if I go somewhere it is with her otherwise I don't go anywhere. Just last time she said to me that she feels like my mother not a friend because she has to drag me everywhere she goes and that other friends ask her what's up with me. It was so humiliating but I don't blame her because it is true. My social life depends on her. Until recently she invited me evrywhere she went but she stopped doing that cause she could't take it anymore. She encoureged me to call some firends myself and to invite them to do something as oppose to always wait for others to call me. She is right but she doesn't know about my social phobia. We were very good friends through highschool but it got worse every year since then because it became more and more obvious that something is wrong with me. I've never had a boyfriend and in highschool everybody thought that I was very shy or not yet interested in boys but when years gone by and I never even went on a single date it was clear that I am not normal. So me and her grew apart. What's the point in having a friend with no life. We had nothing to talk about cause nothing interesting ever happened to me, we couldn't discuss boyfriend issues like any normal girlfriends most offen do. And then she started to ask me directly why I don't have a boyfriend and I couldn't explain it to her so our relationship became very ackward and now we are very distant and I believe she feels sorry for me but she doesn't want to spend much time with me cause it is not going anywhere. I always act the same and deny that I have a problem. I've never told anybody that I have social phobia (self diagnosed). I think that my family and other people think I am normal except for the fact that I've never had a boyfriend which off course is a big thing. The older I get more problematic this is. When I was 18 I could pretend that everything is fine with me, because i wasn't the only 18 years old virgin, but now that I am 24 I feel like I am trapped. I feel so ashamed because I know that all my relatives and friends know that I've never had a boyfriend (though they don't say anything ). Soon it will be perfectly clear to everyone that I have some serious mental problems if I haven't had a relationship at my age. Now that I am home alone I only think about how pathetic my life is and that it will never get better. Actually it will only get worse. I know I am not capable of meeting a boy and dating him and so on, so my only two options are killing myself (which I would already do if it wouldn't hurt my family so bad) or liv in shame as a old virgin always alone with no husband and kids. Both options are devastating to me and that is why I feel trapped. Untill now it wasn't so terribly horible because I lived with my family which I love, I had a friend and I could petend before others that I am living somewhat normal life. And even though inside I was always unhappy I had hopes that next or the next or the next year I will change and I will forgot about what a hard time I had inpuberty. Now all hope is gone an I feel ashamed, lonely and desperate. I am tired of pretending to be happy or at least normal, I am tired of my life.
Kinda lonely
LittleMissScareAll
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horrible
black_mamba
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Aw maya, lilmissscareall, crazyfairy, toad, tirta =
I got a little bit of positive energy today that I don't really need for a while, you can have it.
I got a little bit of positive energy today that I don't really need for a while, you can have it.
jenz
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hi all.. im new here! first post! ...ive read some of your personal stories and I can soo relate to them... it is an everyday struggle and it's hard to make people understand that is not somthing you can make dissapear quickly ...i wish it could ....I can especially relate to Maya's post..in my case ..i have a sister (not even a friend) who helps me get out there and get some kind of a social life...its better than no one at all I guess...But i am afraid of what my life will be like if I don't change..because I don't know anybody other than my family... they make me feel normal but when Im out doing normal everyday things I feel like the world is judging me...school and work has always felt like a pain too.. it just feels so hard to relate to someone....I guess thats why Im here I need to talk to people who understand ...instead of keeping it to myself..Im an average 24 yrold but I don't feel that way. My shyness has affected every aspect of my life school work socializing,friendships, relationships etc. By the way are there any hispanics on here that can relate?(not discriminating)
talk to me people!!! I need someone to talk, to you need someone to talk to I am officially your friend lets ease some of our anxiousness!
talk to me people!!! I need someone to talk, to you need someone to talk to
I am officially your friend lets ease some of our anxiousness!
Yossarian
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I'm kind of feeling that nothing is worth the effort anymore. I'm tired of having to put so much energy into simple and mundane things. It's not that there isn't good stuff in life or that I can't find what I'm looking for. It's just I'm wondering if the results will justify the effort. Or if I have enough energy left to use. I don't really know lol.