I actually recommend screaming. It can be therapeutic!
Sometimes when I know that I'm completely alone I will scream at the top of my lungs. The loudest I possibly can.
I find that afterwards I always feel more peaceful and grounded.
This modern world is so sterile and controlled(controlling) and, as I had posited on this forum before, we are basically just animals underneath.
When you let yourself loose sometimes and scream you connect to that animal side of you.
^I was just reading about a woman who had to get a cancerous breast cut off BEFORE any type anesthesia was invented! Anyway the doctor who was to cut it off actually told her - before he started the surgery - to make sure she screams! So there must be some benefit to it.
@Graybebeard, whatever you have done, don't be too hard on yourself! Humans are not robots.
Scream your heart out, it seems as if it does have some benefit.
Lost. Been feeling that way all year. I was so happy last year -- and that isn't to say I haven't had happy moments this year because I have -- but that overall "staying" happiness, that internal comfort I knew I had, has pretty much disappeared, has for a while now. What happened, me? :sad: You were so excited to grab this bull by the horns and make the most of everything and here you are over a year later and all of that motivation is gone and you're stuck and there's seemingly no way out.
The more I'm here (in my living situation), the more I feel alienated. I know I feel this way because I don't have friends here or any sort of acquaintances or family. I know it's because every day for the past year I have been alone. Every time I do go to visit friends and family, that comfort comes back, only to be snatched away the next day when I have to leave.
I feel like I can't make a life here so far away. I feel like I've tried only to fail. I'm ready to move on to other things and yet I feel chained down. I know I won't be here forever, but it's been long enough to me. I'm done with being trapped. If I knew my career wouldn't suffer, I'd drop out of college in a heartbeat.
(I seem to always be coming back here even though I had posted my goodbyes months ago.)
I'm in a big decision right now, and I realized that I'm not happy; and I know that. But I believe that right now its best for me to go and find my happiness...I've been Isolated for 2 years but not all the time, I went to school and I also worked full-time. I've been living in my parents house and I believe its best to go back where I used to live. Where there's something I need to face...it seems we all got multiple difficulties that goes with us everyday. But we got to hold onto what we love most and we also got to appreciate what we are given. I don't know if any of you been in a situation kind of like me...but I thought I'd just share this.
Feeling like I'm being squeezed til there is no air left inside of me. I just need things to work out for once. I didn't realize asking for life to stop shitting on me for a little while was too much
Like I am being forced to climb Mt Everest with a backpack that weighs 60pounds - at gun point - and I am only one quarter of the way up.
All of the compulsory parts of my life are so exhausting, my engine is completely destroyed, my life support systems have failed. :sad:
I think I know how you feel, Blue: the constant fatigue, frustration, every day a Sysyphean ordeal. I doubt that I have as many compulsory parts to my life as you do to yours—there are one or two small advantages to being completely alone and unwanted—but those few I have leave me flattened, sometimes for days.
I wish I had some great advice for you, more than just the same tired, old platitudes. I wish I could tell you what it's all for, that there's some reason why the universe has chosen to trample us so. I don't have any answers. I don't think anyone does, though many claim to have it all neatly wrapped up with ribbons and bows. All I can tell you is that I understand what you're going through as much as another soul can from the other side of the world. I wish you peace and some measure of contentment, as I wish those things for myself and everyone here. Maybe we'll all feel better someday.
I think I know how you feel, Blue: the constant fatigue, frustration, every day a Sysyphean ordeal. I doubt that I have as many compulsory parts to my life as you do to yours—there are one or two small advantages to being completely alone and unwanted—but those few I have leave me flattened, sometimes for days.
I wish I had some great advice for you, more than just the same tired, old platitudes. I wish I could tell you what it's all for, that there's some reason why the universe has chosen to trample us so. I don't have any answers. I don't think anyone does, though many claim to have it all neatly wrapped up with ribbons and bows. All I can tell you is that I understand what you're going through as much as another soul can from the other side of the world. I wish you peace and some measure of contentment, as I wish those things for myself and everyone here. Maybe we'll all feel better someday.
^ Thank you, Graybeard.
Your reply just blew some oxygen into my soul. Much gratitude.
Parts of my life make me despair and feel I am hopeless beyond hope.
Parts of my life make me feel so lucky to be alive.
I am often to lost in anger and despair to see the wonderful things.
Parts of my make me despair and feel I am hopeless beyond hope.
Parts of my life make me feel so lucky to be alive.
I am often to lost in anger and despair to see the wonderful things.
Aye, ah know that feelin' aw too well. Story o' ma life for the last few years.
Ah wish ah hud a better means of coping, instead of this "Wheesht an get oan wae it" mentality. Cuz everything goin' wrong around me, and yet, ah dinnae feel aw that bothered by that. Is cold an cruel of me to treat ma dysfunctional family with the same emotional detachment as ma parents did me? :question:
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