How are you feeling?

Crappy. I wish I could flush my feelings down the toilet.

Lurking_Kitten said: ↑

Crappy. I wish I could flush my feelings down the toilet.

But if you do that then your bad feelings will end up in the water supply and we will all get a little piece of them eventually 😛

Too spent to caree.

GraybeardGhost said: ↑

I haven't been out of the house in four weeks. I'll have to go pretty soon if I want to continue to eat. Got no more money for pizza, and even if I did, that toxic shit's killing me. Gotta get some human food. Gotta go to the stores. Gotta face the people. I'm scared. :sad:

Grocery shopping is best done at 3am. Anyone shopping at that time wants to be left alone as well.... So you get in and out quickly.

*hugs*

I'd share my pantry with you if you were near by and loved cold cereal.

S_Spartan said: ↑

But if you do that then your bad feelings will end up in the water supply and we will all get a little piece of them eventually 😛

touché 🤭

The town I live in scares me.

zombiefied and down.

I have this weird urge to gain knowledge.

Like I'm at the lowest point of my life.

thegunners21 said: ↑

Like I'm at the lowest point of my life.

You and me both. But that just means we'll soon be on the way back up.

Wonder if I will ever experience joy again? Doubt it.

S_Spartan said: ↑

Wonder if I will ever experience joy again? Doubt it.

Yeah you will. Probably for a very short period, though, as happiness is fleeting and nearly as flakey as some of my students. XD

thegunners21 said: ↑

Like I'm at the lowest point of my life.

Sorry to hear that gunners. :sad:
You are still young though.
Plenty of time for anything to happen and change the circumstances in your life in a positive way.

Sore throat as usual, dead tired as usual, it's noon and I think I should go back to bed cause quite frankly being awake is pointless right now.

I remember back when I was in High School, I was driving to a soccer practice, the speed limit of course, and a chipmunk darted in front of my car. I did all I felt I could to avoid it at the time, and hoped I had, until I looked out my rear view mirror to see his unmoving corpse lying belly up in the middle of the street. My stomach immediately dropped, and a great feeling of sadness flushed over me. I was upset by what happened, and wished desperately such a thing did not occur, and felt responsible. The ting of sadness returned for a while whenever I thought about it.

About a week ago I was driving to work, and was a bit late so was going fast and loose, and got to the point in my road I had back in High School on my way to soccer practice. A squirrel ran into the road, and was in motion. I slowed a little and swerved half-heartedly, but just assumed the stupid squirrel would dart back, like the other ten squirrels I had come across on my half mile drive so far. This squirrel was extra stupid though, and when I once again looked in my rear view, I saw a similar sight. My immediate reaction was anger at the squirrel, for not getting out of the way. I'm driving and shouldn't have to worry about this. My mind gets over it pretty quick, telling myself it's part of life and everyone goes at some point, stupid squirrels sooner than others. But physically I was still upset, my body felt something different than my mind was thinking. It seemed like one was a bit detached from the other.

And that's about how I've been feeling for the last year or so.

I feel like screaming.

Sweet Jeebus, what have I done?

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by work, but it's probably nothing I can't handle. I'm sorry everyone else seems to be having such a rotten time. :sad:

Sadness 🙁

GraybeardGhost said: ↑

I feel like screaming.

I actually recommend screaming. It can be therapeutic!

Sometimes when I know that I'm completely alone I will scream at the top of my lungs. The loudest I possibly can.

I find that afterwards I always feel more peaceful and grounded.

This modern world is so sterile and controlled(controlling) and, as I had posited on this forum before, we are basically just animals underneath.

When you let yourself loose sometimes and scream you connect to that animal side of you.

Saturday night...asking myself, "How shall I make the most of it alone?"