How are you feeling?
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BlueDays
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^ I just wrote a lengthy reply to this and I accidently knocked my keyboard and it is gone, and I can't completely remember what I said! :crying: :kickingmyself:
um........If you can't help using the only way you were brought up with by your parents, then I don't believe it is your fault, Graeme.
The influence of the behaviours we absorbed from out parents should not be underestimated, and it is sometimes very difficult to go against this and change, in my opinion.
BlueDays
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^ I really like this.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
That's true... But ah want to change, though.
While keepin' quiet an internalising ma feelings isn't the best coping stategy, it's better than riskin' a verbal berating by my mum.
Me too. More so, because ah cun relate to it.
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
Back from almost a month in China.
I will never...EVER complain about my country again.
I will never...EVER complain about my country again.
BlueDays
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^ I hope you have started to feel not so doomed now - 12 hours since your post. If not........ I know E-hugs don't actually do much, but at least you know someone has "heard" your cry of despair.
((((((HUGS)))))
LoyalXenite
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This is beautiful
Nanita
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Aawww, thank you!
Really, thank you.
I cried before falling asleep.
Today I feel physically ill but maybe my mood is slightly better, yes I think it is. I found some good radio documentaries that I can listen to, instead of listening to my own depressed thoughts.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Just reflectin' oan how ma life hasn't exactly gone tha way ah'd hoped.
Dreadin' the comin' months, dinnae think everythin' will go as planned during ma surgeries next year. :sad: Plus, ah huv a incline that, either ma mum or ma oldest sister are gonnae resort to their usual emotional blackmail tactics, if ah stand ma ground an tell 'em that am daein this for me oan ma terms.
Since ma mum doesnae want me to move out after ah huv tha surgeries, despite me makin' it clear that that's ma endgame, so tae speak. An ma family don't like it when ah stand up for myself, they see me as a threat - whit with me being a big, baldy, bearded f**ker who looks like ah could set aboot ye.
Dreadin' the comin' months, dinnae think everythin' will go as planned during ma surgeries next year. :sad: Plus, ah huv a incline that, either ma mum or ma oldest sister are gonnae resort to their usual emotional blackmail tactics, if ah stand ma ground an tell 'em that am daein this for me oan ma terms.
Since ma mum doesnae want me to move out after ah huv tha surgeries, despite me makin' it clear that that's ma endgame, so tae speak. An ma family don't like it when ah stand up for myself, they see me as a threat - whit with me being a big, baldy, bearded f**ker who looks like ah could set aboot ye.
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anomicdeer
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OF course any other time shes upstair but when I need to use the house phone shes down here just to listen to me talk ugh
zharl
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Tell me about it! I've wanted to disappear for I'd say...carry the two...at least infinity years now. Yeah I think that's about right. Infinity years.
LoyalXenite
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I don't know whether to feel more angry or hurt. Im sick of giving people my everything and being hurt and abandoned in return. I wish i could just stop feeling.
SoScared
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I actually did disappear although it was only for a short time. I was chatting with the often inappropriate shop owner and was preparing to leave when a female entered the shop. At that moment I became totally invisible to him as he devoted all his attention to her. The odd thing is that I found myself in a beautiful place. It was an extraordinary sensation to in reality be visible but for all other purposes be invisible. The relaxation was total. I'm trying to replicate it.....bliss.
deleteduser50890
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Hormonal.