How are you feeling?

[MollyBeGood]

What a crazzzy day!! Spent an hr in a meeting with a 40 yr Texas Oil tycoon trying to get a project funded. Wish I was prepared for that guy...nobody said HE'd be there!!!! Surreal. Must mention he was completely busting our balls the whole time and doing all sorts of weird tactics-total sociopath!

 

[Lavinialuna]

What a crazzzy day!! Spent an hr in a meeting with a 40 yr Texas Oil tycoon trying to get a project funded. Wish I was prepared for that guy...nobody said HE'd be there!!!! Surreal. Must mention he was completely busting our balls the whole time and doing all sorts of weird tactics-total sociopath!

Surprises like that are really tough!

 

[GraybeardGhost]

I can feel the darkness closing in, crushing me in its grip.

 

[FountainandFairfax]

I built a cabinet, I feel fulfilled.

 

[MikeyC]

What a crazzzy day!! Spent an hr in a meeting with a 40 yr Texas Oil tycoon trying to get a project funded. Wish I was prepared for that guy...nobody said HE'd be there!!!! Surreal. Must mention he was completely busting our balls the whole time and doing all sorts of weird tactics-total sociopath!

What were you doing?

 

[BlackPuma]

Turbulent, restless, afraid and numb.

I'm not sick, let's get that one straight. It's nothing like that. But I'm not sure what this phase I'm going through is exactly, and how long it'll take before I draw the inevitable life lesson out of it, but I continue to be perpetually afraid of dying and becoming non-existent.

But at the same time I am terrified of talking about it (in detail anyway) because the only thing worse than this feeling is the idea that I might pass the fear on to someone else. Unless I can actively discredit the fear, I don't want to talk about it too much.

I'm gong to have to figure this one out mostly solo. It's fine, but it sucks.

 

[Lavinialuna]

Turbulent, restless, afraid and numb.

I'm not sick, let's get that one straight. It's nothing like that. But I'm not sure what this phase I'm going through is exactly, and how long it'll take before I draw the inevitable life lesson out of it, but I continue to be perpetually afraid of dying and becoming non-existent.

But at the same time I am terrified of talking about it (in detail anyway) because the only thing worse than this feeling is the idea that I might pass the fear on to someone else. Unless I can actively discredit the fear, I don't want to talk about it too much.

I'm gong to have to figure this one out mostly solo. It's fine, but it sucks.

I've had similar bouts of the same type of crisis and all I can say for some reason it cycles out.
I think eventually it comes down to acceptance, acceptance and surrender.
I hope you feel more settled soon.

 

[BlackPuma]

I've had similar bouts of the same type of crisis and all I can say for some reason it cycles out.
I think eventually it comes down to acceptance, acceptance and surrender.
I hope you feel more settled soon.

Yeah, I agree. I think so too. It's too hurtful to ignore, and too complicated to just move past. Conquering the fear and learning to accept it seems like the only healthy way. It'll just take a while, but ultimately these experiences are for the better.

Thanks for the words of encouragement.

 

[WeirdyMcGee]

ughhh... intestinal pain... :crying:

 

[springk]

Hope it is over soon weirdy. Took any medicine?

Need some one to talk to ( ..so alone ..)

 

[Graeme1988]

No' daein' too well, tae honest. Awfy depressed - weary uh life. Y'know the crappy feelin's that come wi' being depressed n' anxious.

 

[Graeme1988]

Need some one to talk to ( ..so alone ..)

Aye, same here. Well, the needin' somebuddy tae talk tae, anyway. The alone part - no' so much coz ye git use tae bein' on yer ain, efter a while. :idontknow:

 

[jaim38]

There's so much going on in my life at this point. Family issues, job search, mental issues, more family issues, volunteer issues, etc. I feel very overwhelmed and stressed out. Today I was driving and have all this mental stuff going on in my head. It's dangerous. I'm multitasking so much that's it's not even funny. I don't drive a lot currently, because I don't have a job yet, but imagine after I get a job I'll have to drive almost everyday to/from work which means I absolutely CAN'T space out.

 

[WeirdyMcGee]

Hope it is over soon weirdy. Took any medicine?

Need some one to talk to ( ..so alone ..)

I don't have much I can take since I've stomach ulcers and nothing specifically for it but I took a couple tums and after a nap, it felt a little better.

You can always message me if you'd like? I might not be on at the same time but it's always nice to have a message waiting for you the next time you log in.

 

[Lavinialuna]

No' daein' too well, tae honest. Awfy depressed - weary uh life. Y'know the crappy feelin's that come wi' being depressed n' anxious.

So sorry to hear you have been down. I'm thinking of you! You have been such a blessing, you always have something nice to say to any one of us when we are down.... wishing I knew what to say to make you feel better. All I can say is that you're one fantastic guy, and I hope you feel better!

Need some one to talk to ( ..so alone ..)

I see it has been 13 hours since you posted this... hope you found someone to talk to, and know that I am always here if you need to talk.

There's so much going on in my life at this point. Family issues, job search, mental issues, more family issues, volunteer issues, etc. I feel very overwhelmed and stressed out. Today I was driving and have all this mental stuff going on in my head. It's dangerous. I'm multitasking so much that's it's not even funny. I don't drive a lot currently, because I don't have a job yet, but imagine after I get a job I'll have to drive almost everyday to/from work which means I absolutely CAN'T space out.

Try to climb out of your head often. I know it is hard because you sound just like me, and I am always way deeper in thought than is probably natural, but it's good to keep trying. I hope you feel better soon, praying you find a job that you absolutely love and that is really low stress

 

[Kiwong]

To be losing your mind and being intelligent, is like losing physical mobility, and being lucid enough to realise it.

 

[MikeyC]

Need some one to talk to ( ..so alone ..)

You're always welcome to PM me if you need to.

 

[springk]

Thanks guys
The world feels less lonely when I come here. Somehow, I do want some friends who can talk to me , making some friends is a priorty or else I can't imagine the lonliness ahead. It is a shame all the people I relate to live miles away!
There are acquaintances , let me not use the word friends whom I would have love to hang out with, but they don't care.
I try to be happy with myself, but it is never enough. This feeling doesn't goes away.

 

[Graeme1988]

So sorry to hear you have been down. I'm thinking of you! You have been such a blessing, you always have something nice to say to any one of us when we are down.... wishing I knew what to say to make you feel better. All I can say is that you're one fantastic guy, and I hope you feel better!

Awww, cheers. Well, eh, ah don't know whit tae say, really. :shyness: Ah mean, thanks fur yer very kind words, darlin'. :thumbup: But ah suppose ah jist try ma best tae youse feel a wee bit better or, at least, smile if nuthin' else.

Dinnae want tae ma somebuddy else feel mair depressed if they're already feelin' that way. Nae point in that, is there - bein' an insensitive numpty?

Och! Ah'll be awright - jist wait fur these depressive feelin's tae pass.

To be losing your mind and being intelligent, is like losing physical mobility, and being lucid enough to realise it.

Ah know latter of those twa things aw too well. But it's tae tryin' an' no' let it git ye doon.

 

[jaim38]

All these negative thoughts are making me feel like a bad person again. My mind tells me I'm a bad person for having them. Sometimes they're just recurring memories from the past, negative memories, but still my mind would tell me I'm a bad person. Why must I be perfect? I'm being held to such high standards and it sucks! I'm feeling pissed right now, before my interview!