How are you feeling?

[Psychedelicious]

Love and Light

Life is so inexplicably cruel sometimes, I can’t even understand it. I am still feeling a bit sad right now. A friend of mine back in California passed away a couple of days ago. I first heard it was a suicide, but now I believe it was an accidental overdose. Still, it’s just as incredibly sad either way. We weren’t super close or anything, but I do still feel a deep sense of sadness that someone like this had to die so young. We used to eat lunch together in high school, his group of friends were the ones who invited me to sit with them when I had no friends there and was sitting all alone. He was also the first person other than my family to friend request me when I created a new facebook. I hadn’t seen the kid in years since high school, but we had reconnected more recently, and I’m really grateful for that. He had invited me to a couple of events, and I’m so glad that I forced myself to go to a few of them. I got to meet so many amazing people there and have wonderful new experiences. I still can’t even look at facebook right now, it’s just too damn depressing. That kid radiated such an incredible positive energy, and it was so genuine. I’ve never met anyone else quite like him. He was just an amazing person, one I really wish I could have gotten to know better. Rest in peace friend, you were so loved by everyone you knew, even by those who didn’t know you well. The world is definitely going to miss you.

 

[Graeme1988]

Re: Love and Light

Aye, life can be cruel.

Sorry tae hear about yer loss, Psychedelicious. Even though you didnae know him as well as you'd huv like tae, at least you knew him enough to consider him a friend - not super close but a friend nonetheless. Take some comfort & pride in that, darlin'.

From yer description, he seemed like a really cool guy, one of a kind. Like ye could count on him tae make ye laugh when yer feelin' kinda down. He must've had a lastin', positive impact upon yer life - seein' you write so highly and beautifully of him, in yer post there. As well as the fact him & his friend invited you to sit with them when eatin' lunch, at my high school people rarely did that.

Again, my condolences to you, yer friend & his family. And other folk who were fortunate to huv known him. :sad:

 

[BlackPuma]

Re: Love and Light

Life is so inexplicably cruel sometimes, I can’t even understand it. I am still feeling a bit sad right now. A friend of mine back in California passed away a couple of days ago. I first heard it was a suicide, but now I believe it was an accidental overdose. Still, it’s just as incredibly sad either way. We weren’t super close or anything, but I do still feel a deep sense of sadness that someone like this had to die so young. We used to eat lunch together in high school, his group of friends were the ones who invited me to sit with them when I had no friends there and was sitting all alone. He was also the first person other than my family to friend request me when I created a new facebook. I hadn’t seen the kid in years since high school, but we had reconnected more recently, and I’m really grateful for that. He had invited me to a couple of events, and I’m so glad that I forced myself to go to a few of them. I got to meet so many amazing people there and have wonderful new experiences. I still can’t even look at facebook right now, it’s just too damn depressing. That kid radiated such an incredible positive energy, and it was so genuine. I’ve never met anyone else quite like him. He was just an amazing person, one I really wish I could have gotten to know better. Rest in peace friend, you were so loved by everyone you knew, even by those who didn’t know you well. The world is definitely going to miss you.

I'm sorry for your loss, Psyche. It doesn't really matter how close you are now, it can still hit your like a tons of bricks. He sounds like he was a real champ of a guy.

 

[dottie]

depressed and bitchy.

 

[Graeme1988]

depressed and bitchy.

Yer time o' the month? Oops! Sorry, shouldnae huv said that. Kinda inappropriate, innit? Nae offense intended, darlin'.
Maybe am just puttin' two n' two together? :idontknow: Four! Just a wee jokey joke, there - mainly just fur me. :ironicsmile:
Anyway, mathematically related puns aside... Sorry yer feelin' that way, dottie. Ah genuinely mean that. Though, comedy might help wi' the depressive feelings - well, it's always helped me when ah feel depressed. Just a suggestion... Hope ye feel better soon. :thumbup:

 

[JuiceB]

Some days I feel like I'm growing weaker instead of stronger.

 

[MikeyC]

Re: Love and Light

Angry beyond reason.

I'm trying to turn my life around - and what I DON'T need is petty fighting when I'm mentally preparing myself to go to work. I NEED this moment in the day to go FLAWLESSLY. But of course there's ALWAYS something that goes on when I'm my most vulnerable.

This makes me so outrageously angry that I just want to scream.

Family problems?

Life is so inexplicably cruel sometimes, I can’t even understand it. I am still feeling a bit sad right now. A friend of mine back in California passed away a couple of days ago. I first heard it was a suicide, but now I believe it was an accidental overdose. Still, it’s just as incredibly sad either way. We weren’t super close or anything, but I do still feel a deep sense of sadness that someone like this had to die so young. We used to eat lunch together in high school, his group of friends were the ones who invited me to sit with them when I had no friends there and was sitting all alone. He was also the first person other than my family to friend request me when I created a new facebook. I hadn’t seen the kid in years since high school, but we had reconnected more recently, and I’m really grateful for that. He had invited me to a couple of events, and I’m so glad that I forced myself to go to a few of them. I got to meet so many amazing people there and have wonderful new experiences. I still can’t even look at facebook right now, it’s just too damn depressing. That kid radiated such an incredible positive energy, and it was so genuine. I’ve never met anyone else quite like him. He was just an amazing person, one I really wish I could have gotten to know better. Rest in peace friend, you were so loved by everyone you knew, even by those who didn’t know you well. The world is definitely going to miss you.

I'm sorry for your loss, Psyche. Life is unexpected. :sad:

 

[Kiwong]

^That's awesome Kiwong.
I feel awful. The bad things are kind of getting to me.

That's lousy, Srijita. What bad things are getting to you.

 

[Kiwong]

I'm feeling 40 today.

I wish I could feel forty again.

 

[Graeme1988]

Some days I feel like I'm growing weaker instead of stronger.

Aye! Ah can relate there, pal.

 

[Labyrinthine]

Hyper.
Normally caffeine doesn't affect me like this, but wow.

Proud of myself. I initiated five total conversations with strangers at my school on Wednesday. Me a year ago would have barely made it to one.

 

[Alana.JPEG]

F**kin' hell! That worryin' - you've no' been stabbed? Nae worries, am askin' that rhetorically - is that how ye spell that word? Sorry tae hear yer feelin' shite, Alana. Feel better soon darlin'. :thumbup: Aw, Christ! Ah hate goin' tae see a stand-up comedian ah love but huv'nae seen live before. Please be funny, please be funny... raying:

Thank you. My brother separated from his wife. Its been really messy. My brother has basically been tormented for being who he was before they even got together. I guess he is shy, not very expressive of his emotions, doesn't have allot of friends His family hate him for this, and they hate my family even though we have never had any hard feelings towards them, always polite, never "bitched about them," they have always basically ignored my family however we still never bitched and continued to make an effort. I think they basically would prefer that we had nothing to do with my brothers children. My family are really easy going, accepting and peaceful people, so it feels really strange that people could hate us and feel so aggressive towards us.

 

[Phoenixx]

Proud of myself. I initiated five total conversations with strangers at my school on Wednesday. Me a year ago would have barely made it to one.

^ Awesome job! :thumbup: Initiating conversations are extremely hard for me, even if it's friends and family.

 

[Graeme1988]

I feel as though I will never get it together in this lifetime because I just keep sliding backwards...

That's how ah kinda feel...

 

[planemo]

Quite terrible, actually. I hope I can keep myself from imploding.

 

[Nanita]

Have been doing all right. But not today.
I just found out my sister and her husband is going to a free concert tonight, at a cafe right around the corner from my home, litterally. They live in another town than me and I don´t see them very often, but we have fun when we do get together. It´s not about them wanting to be by themselves, because I know they will see other people they know there.
Anyway they have done this kind of stuff before and I guess I should just get used to it and never expect anything from them. It hurts though.

 

[JNet]

I feel like I'm going to explode ATM and I'm trying to hold it in so I don't take it out on my hubby and son I just want to freak out, shout and cry. I don't even know what I want to do, but I want to lash out. So I had this "friend" whom I was super close to for around 5 years, she even called me before her hubby to tell me she was pregnant. So lately we've been having some problems, just growing apart and she is one of those everything is roses type people, always positive, a social butterfly ect ect. So I brought it up to her a few weeks ago that I was feeling ignored and left out of her life, she kind of said sorry, and was better for a few days then nothing. Then I found out that she was using another FB account that I wasn't friends with her on so I confronted her about it and she asked if we could "take a break" for a few weeks and what choice did I have?? I said ok. She then added me on the other account, and I thought ok, everything is strange but ok. Then today I see that she unfriended me again. WTF?? Seriously I have done NOTHING but be a friend to this person and she shoots me down like I'm nothing. And right when I am in the middle of the worst mental health period of my life, and she knows it. I am in shock and so very ANGRY.

 

[reD3vil]

I'm doing OK...just having some worries about what if I accidentally left the water faucet on at work...and what if I accidentally hit someone driving home from work.

OCD is fun

 

[jonas89]

Im bored and lonely.

 

[jaim38]

I'm sort of proud of myself. I had a call with a classmate and didn't feel very anxious at all. I was kind of slow in answering questions and some sentences were awkwardly phrased, but it went ok overall. Contrast this to last summer - I was so scared when a teammate asked to talk to me over the phone. I spent a good 20 minutes worrying over nothing. I think I've gained more courage and improved slightly in socializing over the phone.