How are you feeling?

[DarkPhoenix]

I feel like I'm going to explode ATM and I'm trying to hold it in so I don't take it out on my hubby and son I just want to freak out, shout and cry. I don't even know what I want to do, but I want to lash out. So I had this "friend" whom I was super close to for around 5 years, she even called me before her hubby to tell me she was pregnant. So lately we've been having some problems, just growing apart and she is one of those everything is roses type people, always positive, a social butterfly ect ect. So I brought it up to her a few weeks ago that I was feeling ignored and left out of her life, she kind of said sorry, and was better for a few days then nothing. Then I found out that she was using another FB account that I wasn't friends with her on so I confronted her about it and she asked if we could "take a break" for a few weeks and what choice did I have?? I said ok. She then added me on the other account, and I thought ok, everything is strange but ok. Then today I see that she unfriended me again. WTF?? Seriously I have done NOTHING but be a friend to this person and she shoots me down like I'm nothing. And right when I am in the middle of the worst mental health period of my life, and she knows it. I am in shock and so very ANGRY.

Wow that's a rotten thing for a friend to do, especially during a time of crisis in your life. I have had friends turn their back on me in my life, but I know friendships between women can be very close and intense. There is a possibility that she could be going through a crisis of her own that you are not aware of, or there is an element to your friendship that has been bothering her for a while but felt she could not discuss it with you, and felt it was easier to cut ties. Im merely speculating here, but whatever her reasons are, i think its fair to say she owes you an explanation.

 

[jc972]

Feeling a tinge of sadness tonight. I'm off somewhere in about an hour so maybe that'll take my mind off whatever's bothering me. And by "maybe," I mean "definitely," because I'll be too anxious to be sad!

Or maybe I should go get some chocolate. Yeah, chocolate heals all....

Chocolate is good at that

 

[spider04]

What a horrible day :kickingmyself:

 

[vickiekitties]

Monday mornings are the worst time of the week, lately I'm thinking about self injury all the time. It's gonna be a rough day.

 

[Nanita]

Feel tired or more like dying,, just biked from Denmark to Germany and back to Denmark today : P

Wow. Then you must live in sønderjylland or something, since you can bike to Germany?!

 

[jaim38]

Ahhhh, I feel so freakin embarassed! Just got back from a phone call with someone. I was totally awkward. I spoke in broken fragments and my sentences were badly phrased! I used the wrong speech for different words and I could tell the other person was chuckling. I totally made a fool out of myself! But I'm glad he was patient with me.

I don't know what the h*ll is wrong with me today. I didn't do as well as I did last time. Do my verbal skills really suck this much? Is there no cure? I sound like a total 10 years old. Sometimes I think I have autism. I feel bad for the guy, who was forced to discern and interpret my chaotic words.

But, at least I tried right? I could have hung up abruptly in the middle of the call, or refuse to talk to him. In this case, I faced fear head on, but the results weren't pretty. I came out feeling so embarassed. I'm sure everyone has days like this. Since the phone call my mind has been replaying the embarassing moments so I need to tell myself to move on.

 

[JNet]

Wow that's a rotten thing for a friend to do, especially during a time of crisis in your life. I have had friends turn their back on me in my life, but I know friendships between women can be very close and intense. There is a possibility that she could be going through a crisis of her own that you are not aware of, or there is an element to your friendship that has been bothering her for a while but felt she could not discuss it with you, and felt it was easier to cut ties. Im merely speculating here, but whatever her reasons are, i think its fair to say she owes you an explanation.

I tried to ask her for an explanation, but she is totally ignoring me I sent her a message twice and got nothing back. I don't want to be chasing her, begging her for anything either, it's humiliating. After thinking about it for a few days I'm kind of leaning towards this being a good thing, even if it hurts. Thanks for the validation that it was a crummy thing to do, sometimes I think maybe I'm not responding to things properly and it's nice to hear that maybe I actually AM acting normally

 

[Labyrinthine]

The last two days have been horrible.
I'm so frustrated. I don't know what's wrong with me. The shyness is something I feel I mainly have overcome. However, I just can't emotionally connect to anyone. It kind of makes me feel worse that I have overcome the shyness for the most part, since I blamed that for all my problems. Now it's not nearly as strong and I'm still so messed up. Something is wrong with me. No matter what I do, I just can't form real connections. It's like I'm stunted.

 

[Graeme1988]

The last two days have been horrible.
I'm so frustrated. I don't know what's wrong with me. The shyness is something I feel I mainly have overcome. However, I just can't emotionally connect to anyone. It kind of makes me feel worse that I have overcome the shyness for the most part, since I blamed that for all my problems. Now it's not nearly as strong and I'm still so messed up. Something is wrong with me. No matter what I do, I just can't form real connections. It's like I'm stunted.

Aye... eh, that how ah've been feelin', lately. Like ah cannae connect wi' folk. It is frustratin', but ah can relate tae what yer sayin'. Though, ma shyness has been overwhelmin' me as o' late. :sad: Like, ah wish ah hud a bit mair confidence in ma voice n' speakin' in general. Ah know am introverted but even ah realise it's weird that ah dinnae talk much...

Buckin' - Aye, ye read that right - there an alternate tae the f-word. Ah know am sneaky... :sarcastic: - knackered the day. Nae energy ataw the day.

 

[planemo]

Sad. I went to the airport today. Airports always make me sad. Thinking about all the people who are going to or coming from different places and experiences, while I'm just stuck here in my own place. I then wish I could be good enough to take part in what they do so easily.

 

[Kiwong]

Sad. I went to the airport today. Airports always make me sad. Thinking about all the people who are going to or coming from different places and experiences, while I'm just stuck here in my own place. I then wish I could be good enough to take part in what they do so easily.

You couldn't save up for a plane trip/holiday somewhere? There's plenty of cheap flights at least where I live.

 

[Kiwong]

I associate airports with adventure and possibility. They are where I have commenced some of the biggest adventures of my life. I am always a bit sad that there is never anyone to greet me, or say farewell, as seems to be the case for many people. I don't enjoy the waiting in departure lounges, the crowds of people. I seem to have some of my most creative thoughts in that time of reflection up above the earth. It seems that flying puts a different perspective on my problems, they don't seem as great.

 

[S_Spartan]

Sad. I went to the airport today. Airports always make me sad. Thinking about all the people who are going to or coming from different places and experiences, while I'm just stuck here in my own place. I then wish I could be good enough to take part in what they do so easily.

I had a similar experience at an airport last week. I stood there and watched the business travelers as they walked by so tall and important-like and I got jealous. I thought to myself "it must be nice to be wanted and valued in this world, not to mentioned nurtured by it, and also to have the nerves to participate in it."

 

[vickiekitties]

This morning I cut myself for the first time in seven years, I know it's going to happen again. It's really hard to be at work and try to act normal when feeling this bad.

 

[dottie]

bad skin
bloating
disgusting
bitchassedness
:thumbdown:

 

[planemo]

You couldn't save up for a plane trip/holiday somewhere? There's plenty of cheap flights at least where I live.

I'm afraid trips or flights are quite expensive. But even if i could afford it my insecurities keep me from going anywhere.

^airports make me sad because they remind me of mortality, people leaving, journeying to the other side, final farewells, my own death. I am strange

I understand, and I don't think it's strange at all.

I had a similar experience at an airport last week. I stood there and watched the business travelers as they walked by so tall and important-like and I got jealous. I thought to myself "it must be nice to be wanted and valued in this world, not to mentioned nurtured by it, and also to have the nerves to participate in it."

So true. airports seem to make one realise how small your world is compared to those to take part in activities we don't even know exist. :sad:

 

[Graeme1988]

This morning I cut myself for the first time in seven years, I know it's going to happen again. It's really hard to be at work and try to act normal when feeling this bad.

Ah know it's hard tae resist that urge to cut yersel'... but try focusin' on summit positive just tae keep yer negative feelings or urge tae cut fae overwhelmin' ya, if nothin' else! Awright, darlin'? Ah know it's no' easy... Stay strong, vickie. :thumbup:

bad skin
bloating
disgusting
bitchassedness
:thumbdown:

Ach! No daein' to well, eh, dottie? That's no' great! Hope ye feel better soon, eh?

As fur masel'.... Ah've been feelin' weird lately. Huv'nae really been the same since seein' Russell Brand performin' live stand-up comedy in Glasgow a few days ago. Ah know he's one of those comedians that divide public opinion. Ye either get his sense of humour & find funny or ye don't.

Anyway, am actually feelin' a wee bit happier & content with maself as a person. Which is weird because am usually a dour, pessimistic, haverin', aggressive shite Scottish person. Am half expectin' somebody tae approach me n' say: "Eh, yer happy n' smilin'. Right! What's your game, eh? What the f**k's wrong wi' you?" :sarcastic:

Ah never really felt this cheerfully, upbeat after seein' a stand-up comedy show. Well no' fur this long anyway... Typically the comedown happens pretty quickly with me after seein' a stand-up comedy performance. Like the next day or 2 days after.

 

[GhoulsNightOut]

Sad. I had a job interview today and the manager said he's very hesitant on hiring me because I have such a short experience (3 months) for the food prep position.

This is nothing new and expected but it still makes me sad.

 

[Quietguy11]

Can't complain, but I have felt sharper than I do right now. My mind actually feels really dull and uncreative right now <.< Usually thoughts come into my head that allow me to express how I'm feeling and such online but that's not even happening tonight. I'm totally blank! Perhaps it would be best if I just watched anime. It will make me feel better. <.<

 

[Phoenixx]

Frustrated.