How are you feeling?
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Kristina223
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Excited, because I don't have to go to school tomorrow. 
Barren empty grass land, endless. Save for one lonely tree. Deeply rooted it is. Deeply alone it is. Unable to move. Imprisoned by a force so natural: Life.
Kristina223
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Depressed. There's been a huge car accident near my town on a freeway. 38 cars crashed, many people are injured, 3 people died ... and all I am thinking is how I wish I were one of those 3 people, how I wish I were in one of those cars. Those 3 people had a life, had somebody who cared about them and who will miss them ... they had plans, wishes, ambitions ... I have nothing. If I were there, nobody would get hurt because of my death, but now, somebody lost a wife/mother/husband/son and will deeply miss her/him.
Danfalc
Banned
Just had a lady knock on my door,she's a nurse for the disabled lady next door.I think she was maybe new.But she was worried about the other nursing team not being there and thought I might know more.
The point In all this is,she seemed shy and tripped over her words a lot.It didn't seem to bother her though that I could tell.I hope I can be like that one day
Anyway it's bloody cold (-3 or 4 degrees!),and I think I've got a flu starting ::
The point In all this is,she seemed shy and tripped over her words a lot.It didn't seem to bother her though that I could tell.I hope I can be like that one day
Anyway it's bloody cold (-3 or 4 degrees!),and I think I've got a flu starting :
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Yeah, you have to stop stalking me
Danfalc
Banned
Did not realize it had got that low.Can't believe the government thought it was a good idea to scrap the fuel allowance payments, especially for elderly people.
Hastings & Main
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Minor panic-attack.
Friend & roommate just told me she's moving in with her parents (she's on disability with fibromyalgia, and slowly getting worse) way over on Vancouver Island, about a 2-3 hour distance with a ferry-ride. Asked if two months notice was okay and I quickly said sure; I throw up walls instantly when given news like this and try to end the conversation as quickly as possible, so I'll have to digest it a bit & then we'll talk about it.
We've lived together here for 7-8 years (been friends since '90), so it's going to be weird/stressful/lonely, and then there's the added rent I'll be paying ($1000/mo w/o her) along with all the bills etc.....
Kind of hyperventilated a bit when she left the room. There's been many times we've been a little at odds - she's here 24/7 so it can get a little nervy, plus she's OCD which is hard for another to live with - but nothing bad, and in those times I mentally yelled, "Damn! I wish I lived alone!", but now it's kind of got me all hollow feeling inside, like a sudden elevator-drop.
Part of me actually thought we'd be like this for years more, until I got my head right (as much as possible) and found a gf I could move in with. Selfish thinking on my part, damn. But the move will be very good for her, as this place is drafty and old, probably packed with mold behind the walls (it was built in 1912), and her parents' place is new and most likely healthier. And she won't have a mood-swinging guy around who she doesn't completely comprehend.
Geez, now I'm getting depressed. No other friends here, they've all moved, have to get used to watching movies & downloaded TV shows alone - it's a nightly ritual with us...
Sad to say, but I've taken her company far too much for granted.
Yeah, I've got to sort this out...::
Friend & roommate just told me she's moving in with her parents (she's on disability with fibromyalgia, and slowly getting worse) way over on Vancouver Island, about a 2-3 hour distance with a ferry-ride. Asked if two months notice was okay and I quickly said sure; I throw up walls instantly when given news like this and try to end the conversation as quickly as possible, so I'll have to digest it a bit & then we'll talk about it.
We've lived together here for 7-8 years (been friends since '90), so it's going to be weird/stressful/lonely, and then there's the added rent I'll be paying ($1000/mo w/o her) along with all the bills etc.....
Kind of hyperventilated a bit when she left the room. There's been many times we've been a little at odds - she's here 24/7 so it can get a little nervy, plus she's OCD which is hard for another to live with - but nothing bad, and in those times I mentally yelled, "Damn! I wish I lived alone!", but now it's kind of got me all hollow feeling inside, like a sudden elevator-drop.
Part of me actually thought we'd be like this for years more, until I got my head right (as much as possible) and found a gf I could move in with. Selfish thinking on my part, damn. But the move will be very good for her, as this place is drafty and old, probably packed with mold behind the walls (it was built in 1912), and her parents' place is new and most likely healthier. And she won't have a mood-swinging guy around who she doesn't completely comprehend.
Geez, now I'm getting depressed. No other friends here, they've all moved, have to get used to watching movies & downloaded TV shows alone - it's a nightly ritual with us...
Sad to say, but I've taken her company far too much for granted.
Yeah, I've got to sort this out...:
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MollyBeGood
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Happy and baking a berry pie in the oven LoL
EscapeArtist
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^ Yay happiness!
I'm actually feeling very stable and not depressed, angry or anxious today. I'm actually taking interest in things! I found some hidden sources of gluten that I've been eating on a daily basis and took them out today. Hell, I didn't even know my hands have been swollen, until the swelling went down and I could make a fist again! (though, no reason to use it now )
I'm actually feeling very stable and not depressed, angry or anxious today. I'm actually taking interest in things! I found some hidden sources of gluten that I've been eating on a daily basis and took them out today. Hell, I didn't even know my hands have been swollen, until the swelling went down and I could make a fist again! (though, no reason to use it now
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EscapeArtist
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Lol.. an hour later.. It's amazing how easily a certain person can change my mood.
Swept and mopped the kitchen floor while my mom stared and frowned, even though I was doing it so that she would bring vegetables/fruit into the house, (I have to work for healthy food, because my mom only buys food that she wants to eat, and she does not like the healthy kind... Yet my sister gets take out almost every day which costs like 10 bucks a day..SIGH), I expected at least some gratitude but all I seem to receive is "You aren't going fast enough" or "Now fix the TV for me", Put back the chairs!!" and "You're as white as a ghost!" (in an angry/shouting tone) I don't understand this woman.
I have to learn to complain less and just expect this.. Hmmm *note to self, do not expect or complain anymore*
Swept and mopped the kitchen floor while my mom stared and frowned, even though I was doing it so that she would bring vegetables/fruit into the house, (I have to work for healthy food, because my mom only buys food that she wants to eat, and she does not like the healthy kind... Yet my sister gets take out almost every day which costs like 10 bucks a day..SIGH), I expected at least some gratitude but all I seem to receive is "You aren't going fast enough" or "Now fix the TV for me", Put back the chairs!!" and "You're as white as a ghost!" (in an angry/shouting tone) I don't understand this woman.
I have to learn to complain less and just expect this.. Hmmm *note to self, do not expect or complain anymore*
Dronee
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@square_eyes: You're one of the most talented people I know.
@EscapeArtist: I'm sorry to hear that. Sounds really unfair. It's good that you're eating healthy foods. Lately I've been trying some very basic Japanese sushi (not the raw kind). I also tried focaccia bread with olives, tomatoes, capsicum, butterhead lettuce and a bit of meat in. Prego sauce as a base to spread onto the bread. It's really nice even without the meat. You can try it sometime if you haven't!
@EscapeArtist: I'm sorry to hear that. Sounds really unfair. It's good that you're eating healthy foods. Lately I've been trying some very basic Japanese sushi (not the raw kind). I also tried focaccia bread with olives, tomatoes, capsicum, butterhead lettuce and a bit of meat in. Prego sauce as a base to spread onto the bread. It's really nice even without the meat. You can try it sometime if you haven't!
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I’ve been there DM. In fact, I’m still mostly there now. The only difference is my family was finally able to help me get my own place.
It’s really tough being a guy with SA at that age, you have all these expectations and pressures from other people to get out and succeed, like your friends and siblings, to "make something of yourself and have a life", but they don’t understand that you feel hopelessly stuck.
I felt like I was chained to a sinking ship watching everyone else swim to shore. I was the last person on earth who wanted it to be that way, but you just don’t know what the hell you can do. And they’re all standing there on the beach screaming “Swim! Swim!”
It’s terribly frustrating, and I really hope that things can turn up for you soon. If I find the hacksaw, I’ll pass it down.
