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LoyalXenite

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I have a job interview lined up first thing Monday morning. It's for a temporary 2nd shift job in food production, but it's something. Full-time, no benefits, but it still pays decent. I don't really like 2nd shift jobs, but I'm kinda desperate to get back out working again. Shift runs from 2:30pm to anywhere between 10pm - 12am. As a morning person, I hope this shift doesn't try to kill me. It'll only be until August/September though.

Good Luck!
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
Has anyone ever gone through the disability process? I was looking at it and was curious. Especially anyone from the US who did it for anxiety or depression.
 

theoutsider

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Phoenixx

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I'm thinking this week is my last week of unemployed freedom before I go back to being a corporate slave. :LOL: Half kidding, but I'm eager to start the new job. I just hope people are somewhat decent and I like it even a little bit. All my pre-screening stuff will be done by tomorrow, so I'll probably find out tomorrow or Wednesday if I'm going to be starting next week.
 

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER

Although as someone who has always liked music from previous eras, I can say age is not always indicative of genuine music liking or knowledge. But sometimes it is :p

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LoyalXenite

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I think with the loss of a few more members (Pug and Blue off the top of my head) we're sliding back into a more inactive state again. For a while there we were picking back up

Speaking of, Im sure Blue is doing ok coz she does leave for some time and then come back. So Im guessing she is just in a gone phase atm. But has anyone heard from Pug at all? I've tried him on here, on another app and through text message but I havent heard back from him since mid May
 

Phoenixx

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It's really sad that extended family members of my in-laws seem to care more about myself and my mental well-being than my own immediate family. That being said, I need to remind myself to jot down some notes of these things that I NEED to talk about at my next therapy appointment. I've been avoiding it, partly because I was focusing on working through my feelings from my last job and what had happened, and also I didn't want to open too many cans of worms at once. But now I'm ready to dig deeper because I can't keep carrying around the baggage. Just when I think I'm over things, they come creeping back and feeding on my already fragile emotional and mental state. I seem to always mistake "gone" as "over it". I need to realize my feelings and results of past experiences won't ever disappear, and ignoring them after a while won't make it go away. Even when I was doing fairly well doesn't mean I was "over it." It was just a matter of ignorance and having good things in my life to cover up the bad.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I'm f__kin' done ! F__kin enough of having to listen to my mother being treated like $h!t£ by my older sisters. :mad: And ah keep telling her, stop putting up with it. But it just doesnae compute. Shouted at by her ain youngest daughter for showing concern for her. And my sister just berates her for it: "Mum, am a f__kin' adult!"

Wouldn't you be worried, even just a wee bit, if your daughter was going to meet someone she'd been talk to online, and she just showed up at your house, left her car there and f__ked off for most of day? Not answering or returning phone calls. No saying when she's coming back. Nuthin' ! :(

Ye want tae know how caring my mother is? This is a woman who, once she said bye to me as I was being wheeled down to the operating theatre for my orthopedic surgery, she never stopped phoning the hospital from the moment she got home, constantly asking if I was okay; while I'm still in the operating theatre. Even though I said I'll be fine. Then she had my oldest sister drive her back to the hospital as soon as she got word that I had the surgery done and was back on the main hospital ward.
 
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Phoenixx

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I received a text today from my former coworker wondering how I was doing. I have not talked to her since I got laid off in March. Why is she all of a sudden checking in now? Did I become the topic of conversation recently? Why does anyone care? Why am I caring so much about this?

I don't hate her. I never did and she was a good coworker. I hate that she works there though. She's too good for that place, for anyone else she works with. I just hate my former boss so much, I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive her. My therapist basically said even if you can't forgive, at least forget it and move on. Learn from it, but don't get hung up on it. I've been doing just that, but now this has brought back all those bitter feelings. And if I do reply, whatever I tell my coworker, I know will be told to others too. Again, why does anyone care? They (my boss and other coworker) certainly didn't care and lied to my face about their work environment when I was struggling so bad with my health at work, then that bitch of a boss continued to embarrass me in front of actual clients over small mistakes. How toxic of a human being are you to realize one of your employees is so sick, it's clearly showing in her work, then you STILL reprimand and embarrass her in front of other people over things that aren't necessarily her fault??? She's a disgusting manipulative person and I can't believe I wanted to work for her. For years I had a goal to work with her, and she straight up stepped all over me and kicked me around like garbage.

I think what hurts the most is that I can't even really prove to them (and why do I want to??) that I'm doing better, because I have no job to show for it. It's still just me. At home. Just like when I was laid off. I told them I was moving on to do culinary education, and well, it wasn't a lie, but now I feel like it is because I'm not even doing that. I'm not sure what I'm doing, but I'm trying to do a lot of little somethings and I think that's better than doing nothing.
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
I received a text today from my former coworker wondering how I was doing. I have not talked to her since I got laid off in March. Why is she all of a sudden checking in now? Did I become the topic of conversation recently? Why does anyone care? Why am I caring so much about this?

I don't hate her. I never did and she was a good coworker. I hate that she works there though. She's too good for that place, for anyone else she works with. I just hate my former boss so much, I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive her. My therapist basically said even if you can't forgive, at least forget it and move on. Learn from it, but don't get hung up on it. I've been doing just that, but now this has brought back all those bitter feelings. And if I do reply, whatever I tell my coworker, I know will be told to others too. Again, why does anyone care? They (my boss and other coworker) certainly didn't care and lied to my face about their work environment when I was struggling so bad with my health at work, then that bitch of a boss continued to embarrass me in front of actual clients over small mistakes. How toxic of a human being are you to realize one of your employees is so sick, it's clearly showing in her work, then you STILL reprimand and embarrass her in front of other people over things that aren't necessarily her fault??? She's a disgusting manipulative person and I can't believe I wanted to work for her. For years I had a goal to work with her, and she straight up stepped all over me and kicked me around like garbage.

I think what hurts the most is that I can't even really prove to them (and why do I want to??) that I'm doing better, because I have no job to show for it. It's still just me. At home. Just like when I was laid off. I told them I was moving on to do culinary education, and well, it wasn't a lie, but now I feel like it is because I'm not even doing that. I'm not sure what I'm doing, but I'm trying to do a lot of little somethings and I think that's better than doing nothing.


Unless you want to keep a relationship with this co-worker or anyone else there, I'd ignore the text message. I think work environments are their own little worlds, and by quitting you have left that world. In my case, it always took a little while after leaving to recognize that it's a world I'm not part of anymore, and that the going-ons within it don't matter to me at all anymore. I had a manager I didn't like at my last job, and I had to keep reminding myself for a long while after that he's not in my life anymore, and I'm bothering myself over a thing that is not part of my life anymore. I still have to remind myself not to do that, whether it's old coworkers or other things.

But my point is, I think unless you want to maintain a relationship or connection with any of these people, what they think, feel, or do doesn't matter anymore, especially in the workplace. And if you can't separate them from your last place of work which seems to bring nothing but negativity to you, it might be best to make as clean a cut as you can to allow you to move on.
 

NathanielWingatePeaslee

Iä! Iä! Cthulhu fhtagn!
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I agree with VJ. After I quit my last job I got 2 texts from people there asking me how I'm doing. The first person was a hideous 2-faced gossip monger and I didn't even consider replying. The second was someone I liked but on the whole I felt it was best I didn't try to maintain relations with her. It would have just meant more complications and hassle in my life in the long run.
 
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