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hoddesdon

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I would like to amend what I just posted - there are 109 viewers, but only one is a member. I do not know how many active members there are now, but only a fairly small number. So it is still a mystery how this website survives.
 

Phoenixx

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I think theres about 10 active members these days :confused:
If this site ever does call it quits, which I suspect will sooner than later due to such inactivity, I think we need a backup. Or at least I'd like to still talk to and keep in touch with a few of you anyways. I know there's a discord server, but it's not very active. Even I don't really talk on there. It's too open ended for me, I think. I like more one-on-one conversations. Only group convos if I know everyone in the convo. If anyone was ever willing to personally add me to FB or IG to keep in touch I would be happy to send you those links. I still keep in touch with a few older inactive members from here that way.
 

Phoenixx

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I just sent my resignation email to my boss. I'm so nervous, I feel sick. I don't understand why I feel like I do. I think I'm afraid of their response. And again, I don't know why. I wanted this. I hated it there, but somehow I feel wrong doing it. I shouldn't feel wrong. They're the ones that didn't take advantage of my skill set and treated me like a mere paper pusher.

Meanwhile I applied to two different jobs this morning. Hopefully I get one of them. It has literally nothing to do with my field of study, but really it's just a job to take for now to get money to start building my path.
 
I don't understand why I feel like I do.
Social anxiety, simply and sadly. I did what you're doing not too long ago myself. I slipped my letter of resignation under my boss' door near the end of a couple of months leave. I waited that long purely for insurance purposes. I felt anxiety at first too but it didn't take me long for that feeling to switch to gladness. Management had failed me one too many times and I can tell you I still feel no guilt whatsoever.

I'd be happy to add you on FB. I've already got VJ and Coyote and Knufflebunny and a few others on there. Fair warning--I'm not very active at all and rarely communicate.
 

Phoenixx

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Social anxiety, simply and sadly. I did what you're doing not too long ago myself. I slipped my letter of resignation under my boss' door near the end of a couple of months leave. I waited that long purely for insurance purposes. I felt anxiety at first too but it didn't take me long for that feeling to switch to gladness. Management had failed me one too many times and I can tell you I still feel no guilt whatsoever.
I was feeling glad *thinking* about doing it. I couldn't wait. But then upon doing it that overwhelming feeling of guilt just hit me. I just finished talking to a friend I haven't spoken to in a while and brought it up with her. It helped talk about it. I did what I had to do. Management failed me as well and I'm tired of being handed the short-end of the stick and not taken seriously.

I'd be happy to add you on FB. I've already got VJ and Coyote and Knufflebunny and a few others on there. Fair warning--I'm not very active at all and rarely communicate.
Ah, coyote! I forgot he was on FB. I'll have to drop a message sometime. I haven't talked to him in a while. I'll send you a PM. :)
 
I joined the SAS forum recently. They have a lot of activity there but somehow it just doesn't have the feel of this one. I wish more of the old timers were still here but maybe it's good for them that they aren't. If they no longer come here, it probably means they've gotten better.
Yea I've been on SAS a few times. I agree that it's a different feel. I didn't really like it. Felt more like a FB forum, lots of c r a p and quite a bit of bullying. It's one of the reasons I'm still here on SPW, while we few on here might not agree on everything, it still feels more like a small circle of friends.
 

LoyalXenite

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If this site ever does call it quits, which I suspect will sooner than later due to such inactivity, I think we need a backup. Or at least I'd like to still talk to and keep in touch with a few of you anyways. I know there's a discord server, but it's not very active. Even I don't really talk on there. It's too open ended for me, I think. I like more one-on-one conversations. Only group convos if I know everyone in the convo. If anyone was ever willing to personally add me to FB or IG to keep in touch I would be happy to send you those links. I still keep in touch with a few older inactive members from here that way.
Yeah I joined the discord but I dont like having just one big chatroom, I like discords that have sections based on topic or style of chat and smaller gatherings happen in them. It just feels nicer to have areas to move between.

Im open to adding on FB and IG, though my FB is pretty much just me reposting memes, and my insta is pretty much just photos of my dogs :LOL:
 

LoyalXenite

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I joined the SAS forum recently. They have a lot of activity there but somehow it just doesn't have the feel of this one. I wish more of the old timers were still here but maybe it's good for them that they aren't. If they no longer come here, it probably means they've gotten better.
Yea I've been on SAS a few times. I agree that it's a different feel. I didn't really like it. Felt more like a FB forum, lots of c r a p and quite a bit of bullying. It's one of the reasons I'm still here on SPW, while we few on here might not agree on everything, it still feels more like a small circle of friends.
I agree, I tried the SAS site and the vibe was just off. I didnt like it there, this old place may be holding together with duct tape and memories, but its home
 

Phoenixx

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Im open to adding on FB and IG, though my FB is pretty much just me reposting memes, and my insta is pretty much just photos of my dogs :LOL:
My FB is also full of wonderful memes, so you're not alone there. :LOL: But I also post more about my own life too, especially since I have a lot of family on there and it's easier to keep people up to date rather than talking to everyone individually.

My IG is photos of food I make, my pets, and nature. Not many selfies and I don't post stories. I really do not understand the point of stories honestly. :unsure:
 

theoutsider

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It's almost 10 years since I joined this site. I'm not 100% better but life has headed in a better direction.
Same here but I have my relapses at times. It's good to be able to come here especially when I've had a bad day and commiserate with people who understand and are civilized. It's a strange attraction in that I genuinely like it here but not the reasons that often drive me to be here.
 

Kiwong

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Same here but I have my relapses at times. It's good to be able to come here especially when I've had a bad day and commiserate with people who understand and are civilized. It's a strange attraction in that I genuinely like it here but not the reasons that often drive me to be here.
Yes , people still confuse and scare the hell out of me, and this forum is a good place to vent that confusion.
 

Phoenixx

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Had a really hard mental day yesterday. I'm still reeling from it. I honestly wish I had my therapist appt this week. Because at this point I feel like my therapist is the only one who actually cares about how I'm feeling. I know I have support, but for once in my life I'd love it if someone I knew would just freaking message me or call me saying "I'm sorry you're struggling" or something similar. Is it selfish or childish to want sympathy? I feel like not a single soul understands how I feel or what I go through.
 
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