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Phoenixx

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I've pretty much decided I'm not returning back to my workplace after this layoff and that I'll be pursuing a somewhat different career path and looking into working at a local pet store for the time being. Now I'm trying to write a notice (resignation?) letter to send. I think I'm expected to be back on the 18th, but I've received no official word. (I honestly haven't talked to my boss or the office manager in 2 months. Not since they called to tell me that it was a good idea to start collecting unemployment.) So writing a letter basically saying "I quit" after a 2-month layoff is a dick move right?
 
I've pretty much decided I'm not returning back to my workplace after this layoff and that I'll be pursuing a somewhat different career path and looking into working at a local pet store for the time being. Now I'm trying to write a notice (resignation?) letter to send. I think I'm expected to be back on the 18th, but I've received no official word. (I honestly haven't talked to my boss or the office manager in 2 months. Not since they called to tell me that it was a good idea to start collecting unemployment.) So writing a letter basically saying "I quit" after a 2-month layoff is a dick move right?
No it's not a dick move. You are letting them know officially not to bother calling you back and you're making choices based on what you want. Good for you :)
 
I've pretty much decided I'm not returning back to my workplace after this layoff and that I'll be pursuing a somewhat different career path and looking into working at a local pet store for the time being. Now I'm trying to write a notice (resignation?) letter to send. I think I'm expected to be back on the 18th, but I've received no official word. (I honestly haven't talked to my boss or the office manager in 2 months. Not since they called to tell me that it was a good idea to start collecting unemployment.) So writing a letter basically saying "I quit" after a 2-month layoff is a dick move right?
Even if it were, sometimes you gotta pull a dick move in life. They'll get over it.
 

theoutsider

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I've pretty much decided I'm not returning back to my workplace after this layoff and that I'll be pursuing a somewhat different career path and looking into working at a local pet store for the time being. Now I'm trying to write a notice (resignation?) letter to send. I think I'm expected to be back on the 18th, but I've received no official word. (I honestly haven't talked to my boss or the office manager in 2 months. Not since they called to tell me that it was a good idea to start collecting unemployment.) So writing a letter basically saying "I quit" after a 2-month layoff is a dick move right?
Nope. You're not obligated to come back just because there's been a two month layoff. You have a right to pursue the path that makes you happiest.
 
I really need to be negative and vent for a moment. Let me start by saying this: I am a lucky woman. I have a great apartment, a job (that I am starting to hate) that pays well above minimum wage and was NOT effected by COVID-19, a boyfriend who loves me, an amazing, supportive family, the ability to attend college with good grades and a scholarship and a great car. I should not be bitching because I have more than most, but damnit, I’m feeling like an ungrateful shit tonight.
In spite of all I have going for me, I cannot seem to be normal in social situations. I avoid people, I am awkward, I avoid eye contact, I get intimidated by higher ranking or more attractive people and become extra anxious/stupid/subservient around them. I feel like I don’t deserve other people being kind to me or going out of their way for me. In fact, I get embarrassed by it. I don’t know what I did wrong, if it’s just part of my hardwiring, but I feel like I did something bad. That I am a bad undeserving person. I also can’t say no - I’m a yes woman. Even if I really don’t want to do it and if I say no? I’m consumed by guilt and replaying it in my mind. If I want to be a medical professional and even a doctor someday, I need to change. I need a backbone and to get better socially. I am so afraid that my career will be ruined by this. That my low self-esteem/self-efficacy/social shortcomings will make people not like me as a provider and ruin me.
Aside from this, I am unhappy with my appearance. I feel ugly most of the time and am over it. I am sick of being fat, yo-yo dieting, emotional eating - I just want to be normal with a healthy relationship with food. I want to be a pretty girl. I am disappointed in myself because I am supposed to go to Disneyworld in July and I was supposed to lose weight. I didn’t. I have two months to get it together and I hope I do better. Ugh... I should be doing homework right now. Reading my music chapter or practicing molar solubility and acid/base titration calculations, but no. I’m feeling sorry for myself instead.
 
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