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Opaline

Opaline

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My third post in this thread today, oh well.

Had no idea Wentworth Miller is gay. I don't find him as swoon-inducing as many other ladies out there, but I used to watch him on Prison Break and he's definitely attractive. Tooooooooooooo bad. He'll make someone very happy (if he isn't already), it just won't be a woman! :p I can picture the women across the nation crying right now.

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Flanscho

Flanscho

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A year ago I moved out of the flat I shared with some friends, and moved into a flat for myself. Now my mother wants to visit me, to see how I live. Most of my family lives in quite a distance, so making it back and forth on one day doesn't work, so she will stay over night. The thing is that I have no couch or something. And I think it's strange to sleep in the same bed as my mother. So... There are following options:

- She offered to spend the night in a hotel, but I think that's weird too, to have someone visit me and then let that person stay in a hotel.
- Have her sleep in my bed and stay at a friend nearby over night.
- Sleep at my place and have her stay at a friend.
- Borrow an inflatable mattress from a friend and I sleep on that while she sleeps in the bed.

I'm not sure...
 
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gazelle

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Flanscho said:
A year ago I moved out of the flat I shared with some friends, and moved into a flat for myself. Now my mother wants to visit me, to see how I live. Most of my family lives in quite a distance, so making it back and forth on one day doesn't work, so she will stay over night. The thing is that I have no couch or something. And I think it's strange to sleep in the same bed as my mother. So... There are following options:

- She offered to spend the night in a hotel, but I think that's weird too, to have someone visit me and then let that person stay in a hotel.
- Have her sleep in my bed and stay at a friend nearby over night.
- Sleep at my place and have her stay at a friend.
- Borrow an inflatable mattress from a friend and I sleep on that while she sleeps in the bed.

I'm not sure...
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I think the last option sounds more viable... you can also get a sleeping bag.
 
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jaim38

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I just had a big realization: I feel more comfortable doing short-term interactions rather than long-term interactions with people. When I go check out at the cashier's or order fast food from a restaurant (short-term interactions), I feel less anxiety because I know that 1) these interactions will be over in a jiffy, 2) I will probably never see those people again. In fact I think I do better with short-term interactions.

But, long-term interactions are another beast to deal with. For example, having to go to class for 6 months and seeing the same people over and over again, at least for 6 months. Having bullies makes it 100X worse. The last time I took a traditional face to face course, I was dying to get out of there. I kept checking the calendar and counting off days. Long-term interactions can make or break you.

I'm very nervous. This semester I will be taking a class that requires physical attendance. I don't want history to repeat itself. I'm not kidding when I say I'm a bully magnet. I seem to attract all sorts of negative influences. I wish I had an invisibility cloak or soem spells to ward off bullies.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
See you...?! Aye, you! Ya Freddy Krueger lookin' f**kwit... you are really startin' tae get on ma tits so ye are! Am no here tae f**kin' please you, awright?! Even ye are family! Learn tae f**kin' appreciate me a bit better. D'ye hear me?!

^Sorry, mini-rant over!

Right ma random thought fur today: How do birds huv sex...? :thinking:
 
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jaim38

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Oops I did it again. Just several hours after posting about how social anxiety made me say stupid things, I did just that. I called a financial aid rep at my school to inquire about my financial aid status. I think I did well at the beginning. I spoke ok. But it sorta went downhill towards the end of the convo. Stupid mistake #1: I asked her a question I already knew the answer to. Silly me! The ending was just awkward, but that's not surprising since ending convos is one of my biggest weaknesses. There was an awkward pause before she asked if I had anything else to converse about and i said no. Then I quickly said 'thank you, bye bye' and hung up.

Actually, now that I think about it, some pauses are necessary in a convo, sometimes they come naturally. Before today, I always thought pauses and silences in convos must be eradicated as much as possible. But now I understand they are just as important as talking. It would be highly unnatural for people to talk constantly without pausing. Another thing that i noticed: I'm getting better at being myself and not being a crazy talkative person.
 
Ithior

Ithior

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I was considering learning sign language but apparently the signs are different from language to language. Basically there's portuguese sign language, english sign language, spanish sign language, etc.
I didn't know that, but I guess I'll start with portuguese sign language and then maybe try out english.
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

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Photography competition exhibition tonight, nervous about going, who will my anxiety annoy.

There is a Brown Honeyeater nesting in the Blechnum fern in my garden. A cup shaped nest, under the cover of a fern frond.
 
dottie

dottie

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loooooove!

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jaim38

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http://www.nytimes.com/2013/06/09/opinion/sunday/how-not-to-be-alone.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0

I've come across the situation with a stranger crying before. I saw a girl crying down the hallway of my dorm but didn't say anything to her. Then somehow I became the most hated person in my dorm, possibly because people think I made her cry. There are so many times that I tell myself, if I had the courage to talk to this girl and also the other girl who didn't like me, then maybe people wouldn't hate me and my reputation wouldn't be so bad. I had massive social anxiety at that time which prevented me from reaching out to people, whether for friendship, help, etc.

But now that i think about it, I was beating myself up over something that wasn't even my fault to begin with. I was quiet all the time, where's the crime in that? i went to a party school, which is a nightmare for introverts with SA like me. I didnt even insult anybody, they were the ones who cussed and spread malicious rumors about me. If I could go back in time, I would tell my 18-19 years old self to move out of the dorm and get the f**k out of that school.
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Got to peeking through an old friend's facebook. Not sure why I did it, because it almost always leaves me in kind of a bad mood afterwards. I'm not feeling horrible though. I'm feeling a mix of contentment, acceptance, yet only a hint of disappointment. A part of me finally feels happy she's living this great life doing what she loves and has all these friends... but the other part of me is disappointed I am no longer one of those friends. That friendship died a while ago, but I always tried to hang onto it. It was obvious she didn't care or wasn't even interested in even contact with me anymore, but I just pretended and lied to myself for so long that she still did. I haven't talked to her in 2 years now. Guess I got too boring for her. Oh well. I've come to finally accept that now. It took a while.

But enough dwelling on the past and comparing my life to those around me. My life has been getting better recently, and I think I'm finally ready to start actually living my life now that I'm finally finding my happiness and peace of mind (literally). It's no one's fault, not even my own, that I'm a bit behind compared to most people, and that's okay. Then again, there is no set age, date, nothing on what to do and when to do them. I'll do the things I want to do whenever I feel ready to do so.

Mind me, I'm just feeling contemplative tonight.
 
BlueDays

BlueDays

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How do people do it? Cope with a crappy life?
I was never taught how to cope with a crappy life.
I am not one for burying my head in the sand and just pretending everything is just dandy.

I don't understand resilience.
Get up, to just be knocked down again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again again.....
I don't get it.:idontknow:

Yes there are people starving in parts of the world right now. That argument does not work, because I would not mind changing places with them right now. Death seems the only way to be free of the aching sadness.

"Things will pick up for you soon, wait and see"...
After 30 years, you think it would have picked up by now.:kickingmyself:

Maybe people like me were just not meant to keep living. I would be dead by now if I lived back in the primitive times of history during the pure era of survival of the fittest.

(Sorry for the rant, I just don't have anywhere else in my life to say this stuff.)
 
Flanscho

Flanscho

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A friend of mine couldn't be reached for quite a while. We tried to reach her by phone, by sms, by mail, nothing worked. We got somewhat worried. But now she finally resurfaced again, which is nice, and she is doing ok. Will go with her tomorrow to a swimming hall, so we can chat a bit.
 
Zackarydoo

Zackarydoo

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I feel like this....


....There, that about says it all. It's sometimes not easy to put it into words, and sometimes you just don't want to share it, yet you want to still say SOMEthing so you don't feel so alone with how you feel.
 
LoyalXenite

LoyalXenite

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Zackarydoo said:
I feel like this....


....There, that about says it all. It's sometimes not easy to put it into words, and sometimes you just don't want to share it, yet you want to still say SOMEthing so you don't feel so alone with how you feel.
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I know exactly what you mean
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
BlueDays said:
How do people do it? Cope with a crappy life?
I was never taught how to cope with a crappy life.
I am not one for burying my head in the sand and just pretending everything is just dandy.

I don't understand resilience.
Get up, to just be knocked down again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again again.....
I don't get it.:idontknow:

Yes there are people starving in parts of the world right now. That argument does not work, because I would not mind changing places with them right now. Death seems the only way to be free of the aching sadness.

"Things will pick up for you soon, wait and see"...
After 30 years, you think it would have picked up by now.:kickingmyself:

Maybe people like me were just not meant to keep living. I would be dead by now if I lived back in the primitive times of history during the pure era of survival of the fittest.

(Sorry for the rant, I just don't have anywhere else in my life to say this stuff.)
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Ah ask masel' that aw the time... ah guess ma resilience comes fae being with a physicial disability. Y'know, the typical "Ah don't give a f**k!" Scottish attitude. Oh, and a desperate almost additive need tae find humour in ma ain (own) misery. As twisted as that sounds... but then when yer fuct up yer sense o' humour tends tae come fae that standpoint - speakin' fur masel', of course. Ma mum always tells me that:
"...if ye dinnae (don't) laugh, you'd just be sittin' aboot greetin' - (crying) :crying: - aw the time" Which is true.
Ah know, am just talkin' shite noo...

Anyway... sorry, yer feelin' the way yer feelin', Blue. Yer not alone, though, ah can definitely relate.
 
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