I don't really know who I am, or have become, or how to explain it at all. I try to sort out the thoughts in my head and I get confused, and frustrated. Frustrated more than anything. I hate not seeing the path I am suppose to take, or what the person I want to strive to be like, is like. I am not properly dealing with it, mostly because I am not sure what to deal with. Is my mindset right? If it's not, then what should it be, and how do I get it there? If it is right, where do I go from there? I could string off a hundred questions I need answering right now, and no one out there can answer them but myself. I am not finding any clear answers though, and that is the driving frustration I am feeling. It's what drives me to feel the way I do, and act in the ways I shouldn't. I have to get over it on my own though, find out a way to find my own peace. Talking it out isn't going to lead to anything productive, I don't want to. I'll be fine, and if I'm not I don't want anyone else to know. I don't want not fine to feel ok.