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Steelsoul

Well-known member
I don't know if you still consider me your "best friend" anymore. We used to hang out together. You always call me to accompany you whenever you're alone. We always stick up with each other. But not anymore. You now have friends who share the same interest with you. They're all loud, out going people, comparing to me. You've become popular, unlike me, who can't make changes positve to his life. You're like at the top and i stuck in the bottom. I think i'm not capable of talking to you anymore. But i miss the time we were together. I guess i'm alone once more.
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
I don't really know who I am, or have become, or how to explain it at all. I try to sort out the thoughts in my head and I get confused, and frustrated. Frustrated more than anything. I hate not seeing the path I am suppose to take, or what the person I want to strive to be like, is like. I am not properly dealing with it, mostly because I am not sure what to deal with. Is my mindset right? If it's not, then what should it be, and how do I get it there? If it is right, where do I go from there? I could string off a hundred questions I need answering right now, and no one out there can answer them but myself. I am not finding any clear answers though, and that is the driving frustration I am feeling. It's what drives me to feel the way I do, and act in the ways I shouldn't. I have to get over it on my own though, find out a way to find my own peace. Talking it out isn't going to lead to anything productive, I don't want to. I'll be fine, and if I'm not I don't want anyone else to know. I don't want not fine to feel ok.
 
I have so much anger and intense hatred hidden inside of me, I am worried one day I will no longer be able to contain it. :sad:
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I have so much anger and intense hatred hidden inside of me, I am worried one day I will no longer be able to contain it. :sad:
F**k! Yer not alone, Blue. That sounds exactly like me, sadly... :sad:

Equally sorry tae hear that, pal.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
You say you love and care about me but yer action and words over the past 5 years say different. Just am related tae you doesnae mean you huv the right tae treat like yer own personal slave. :sad:
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
That stuff in my brain being muffled by a car-radio sounding buzzing whenever I attempt to think them. I must be on the wrong station.
 

LoyalXenite

Well-known member
I miss you, no matter what i say, im always going to be waiting for you. I know we can only be friends, and that will be a best case situation, but i'll always be hoping, always be waiting...
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
How come you dinnae talk tae me, eh? Just an indifferent "Ah don't know..." everytime - that's aw ah seem tae get fae you.

Dae ya no' like me or summit? Cos that's how ah feel. :sad: Or is there just summit wrong wi' me and yer no' wantin' tae say anything...?

Ah, personally - and ah might be wrong here? Since ah usually am! - think ma cousin's wrong in her assumption that we "... seem pretty close". Really...?! If that the case, how come we never talk much? Eh?!

Seriously, is there summit wrong wi' me...? Ah must give off a bad vibe or summit, no? :idontknow:
 

jaim38

Well-known member
S**t s*** s***! I hate this freakin lazy bum! He keeps on piling work on top of me! I am so sick and tired of this guy! He's manipulative I tell you. I want to quit, but the only reason why I'm even helping him is because I feel sorry for him! He's in a pretty emotionally volatile situation right now, but it's NO excuse to pile work on me! I hate doing this! He's a freakin liar too! He told me I didn't have to stand in for him but now he's saying I have to! I absolutely hate this! I need someone to replace me. I will probably still stay, as a troubleshooter/IT go-to-person/occasional web designer, but that's all I'm gonna do.

By the end of all this, he BETTER give me a good job reference, because I've been kissing his a** for so long. Like they say, fake it till you make it. That's what i've been doing, pretending I actually love doing this when I actually DON'T!!!

/end of rant
 
I have social anxiety and depression thats why I am like this.
I could not yet tell anybody about it, even my family, I love them but I barely talk with my parents.
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
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Marc7

Well-known member
Why did you lie to me?

Why is asking a lot question bothers you, that's how I communicate?

Why don't respond to me a lot?

These three questions are to different people
 

springk

Well-known member
TO DESTINY/GOD/THE POWER/ANYONE WHO HAS MADE ME(i don't know who)
so To whoever is concerned

Dear whoever
I am sorry i don't know who you are exactly but any how i believe that you are someone. I admit i don't have enough faith and well i feel bad about it but i can't help it.

Ok, so here it goes.
I am never happy. Why? Is there some fault in my brain.Is the happy button malfunctioning. And oh yeah, the regret button is always on. I wonder what is wrong.
You know i am tired of all this. There are others who are well happy,enjoying their life, doing great, or even if they are not doing great they are at least content or ignorant.
Ignorance is a bliss!
Well my case is different. I am not content, never will. I don't believe i deserve this. I know i deserve more, i know i can change things but you know TIME is a great game changer. Well i don't have that in my favor. Society ,yeah that sucks. Government and rules suck. Do you give second chance ,like second life or something. If yes please, give me a healthy brain and well possibly a different society.
Till then well, am i to live like a person with her head turned backwards? Or is there any thing good stored for me in future ? Am i to make things better if not totally the way i want it to be?
I believe you have the answer.
From,
A human
 
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