How are you feeling?

I feel like ah should just off masel'... :cry:

I'm getting fed up huvin to listen to the family drama, day in day oot. And I'm sick o' being telt that am wrong whenever my older sister asks me something computer related, like if something's no working right. Feels great being told that, so it is. Guess ah just wasted 2 years of my school life during secondary school studying computer studies in my 3rd and 4th year, eh? :mad:
 
I'm tired of anxiety ruining my enjoyment of family time whether it's being so anxious I completely oversee a simple fact or just completely (in my eyes anyway, others will say minor) fucking my car up due to my normal lack of concentration/assertiveness/trust in my ability. And I am gone. Back to my uncommunicative, moody, uncaring self and I just wish I could be taken off this earth as I'm far far away from the standards a father, and some might say, a man should be​
 

Phoenixx

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I'm feeling okay today. Better than yesterday. I've been incredibly stressed this week - but the stress has been building for the last 2 weeks - and I had a bit of a meltdown yesterday because of it. I recovered quickly, but I'm still ashamed of how I reacted. The dog peeing on the floor when I came home pretty much landed me in tears, I was so mad and lost it. It sounds so stupid, bawling because the dog peed on the floor, but it has been one thing after another this week, and yesterday was just a really bad day to an otherwise kind of crappy week.
 
I'm tired of anxiety ruining my enjoyment of family time whether it's being so anxious I completely oversee a simple fact or just completely (in my eyes anyway, others will say minor) fucking my car up due to my normal lack of concentration/assertiveness/trust in my ability. And I am gone. Back to my uncommunicative, moody, uncaring self and I just wish I could be taken off this earth as I'm far far away from the standards a father, and some might say, a man should be​
As a kid, I used to blow my fuse regularly. Now, and for a number of years, I've bottled it all up so I barely speak after an anxiety episode and I've had a few I think this week. And as usual, I mess up plans for other people closest to me.
 
Same ol’ $h!%*, different day. This year’s just been much the same as last year and the year before that — f__kin’ miserable. Me and my mother are still being told that we do f__k all for the middle child and her kids. :mad: Which is nice.

Nearly made homeless during the summer of 2017, but aye, we do absolutely nothing for them. Or we don’t do enough.

It’s amazing how folk who have an entitled, stuck up attitude are never happy, even when they get things their way. Though, I’m more amazed — and even a wee bit jealousy — that such people actually manage finds friends, yet they tend to treat their ain family like $h!%*.
 
I have another work get together in Oct, 2 days away with strangers.I feel different to last year when I saw it is a challenge to face. I am less enthusiastic about backing a year later to face the same challenge. Quitting while I am ahead is a, better strategy for me.
 
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