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Well... it's fuckin' happened again !! :oops::devilish: Within 24 hours, yet another of my metal riff ideas has made SoundCloud's Hot & New playlist ! :eek:o_O A continuation of the first metal riff idea, written within half an hour. At least I think that's how long it took me to write the 2nd riff ? :unsure: Cuz it was just after I got back from going a run with my oldest sister that I recorded it. Then, my older sister and her kids came upstairs to tell me my oldest niece is a fan of AC/DC. Not that my sister too happy aboot that, like... judging by her tone o' voice. :LOL:

Ah mean, both are great, dinnae get me wrong. But, am slightly worried that the final song, when I piece it together, is gonnae be shite, maybe? :confused: That's probably just me 2nd guessing, maself.
 
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Just keep channeling that frustration into your riffs, Graeme. :D
I’ll try... I’ve got 2 years of frustration to draw inspiration from, anyway. :LOL: 2016 - 2018 (those were trying times in muh life, man). :(

Must admit, though, am a wee worried that that 1st idea might negatively impact my metal riff writing overall. Especially as I’m considering making a full album. :unsure: And that riff kinda feel like a fluke, if I’m honest about it, Since it started out as an alternate picking / coordination exercise on the 6th string for my right hand. I never actually picked up the electric guitar last week intent on writing a riff. In fact, while I was writing the riff, I thought it sounded a bit too generic? :rolleyes:

Obviously, I’ve been proven wrong by the fact that riff is still trending at the top spot. :LOL: And the 2nd riff idea I wrote yesterday, after going back n’ forth discussing it with my oldest sister, is started trending in the metal playlist on SoundCloud’s Hot & New page.

In a way, ah feel I’ve got my own back on the guitar tutor who made me quit for 2 years, due to a my lack of progress. Because he never bother to teach me how to play guitar solos. But he’d constantly tell me how great a rhythm guitarist I was... and compliment my passion for playing the guitar :mad: The [email protected]$%@rd ! And, thinking to that period of ma life, I think he might’ve been intimidated by the fact that, every song I asked him to teach me I could pretty much play by the end of each group lesson. Not that I was some kinda music prodigy at 14, oh quite the opposite. But, his loss at the end of the day, really. I’ve learnt way more just teaching myself than he’d taught me in those 2 years, when I was playing the guitar to the point of obsession. :LOL:

Though I’d still argue that I’m not that great a guitarist, I’ve just got an ear for how things should sound, musically. I’m more if a producer than a musician, really.

By the way, you've got a new follower on soundcloud, and they left a comment on your riff. :D

PS - it's me.
Seriously ?! :D ;)(y) Thanks, man ! That’s much appreciated. What d’ye think of it, if ye don’t mind me asking ? :)
 
I’ll try... I’ve got 2 years of frustration to draw inspiration from, anyway. :LOL: 2016 - 2018 (those were trying times in muh life, man). :(

Must admit, though, am a wee worried that that 1st idea might negatively impact my metal riff writing overall. Especially as I’m considering making a full album. :unsure: And that riff kinda feel like a fluke, if I’m honest about it, Since it started out as an alternate picking / coordination exercise on the 6th string for my right hand. I never actually picked up the electric guitar last week intent on writing a riff. In fact, while I was writing the riff, I thought it sounded a bit too generic? :rolleyes:

Obviously, I’ve been proven wrong by the fact that riff is still trending at the top spot. :LOL: And the 2nd riff idea I wrote yesterday, after going back n’ forth discussing it with my oldest sister, is started trending in the metal playlist on SoundCloud’s Hot & New page.

In a way, ah feel I’ve got my own back on the guitar tutor who made me quit for 2 years, due to a my lack of progress. Because he never bother to teach me how to play guitar solos. But he’d constantly tell me how great a rhythm guitarist I was... and compliment my passion for playing the guitar :mad:The [email protected]$%@rd ! And, thinking to that period of ma life, I think he might’ve been intimidated by the fact that, every song I asked him to teach me I could pretty much play by the end of each group lesson. Not that I was some kinda music prodigy at 14, oh quite the opposite. But, his loss at the end of the day, really. I’ve learnt way more just teaching myself than he’d taught me in those 2 years, when I was playing the guitar to the point of obsession. :LOL:

Though I’d still argue that I’m not that great a guitarist, I’ve just got an ear for how things should sound, musically. I’m more if a producer than a musician, really.



Seriously ?! :D;)(y) Thanks, man ! That’s much appreciated. What d’ye think of it, if ye don’t mind me asking ? :)
I listened to your playlist while I was doing things on the computer. I had my headphones on, so it all really sounded great. I don't know how much weight my musical opinion carries, but it all sounds like a young professional to me. You seem to be steadily progressing, becoming more cohesive, like you're finding your own sound. Each track is good, and it sounds like you move between genres with ease.
 
I listened to your playlist while I was doing things on the computer. I had my headphones on, so it all really sounded great. I don't know how much weight my musical opinion carries, but it all sounds like a young professional to me. You seem to be steadily progressing, becoming more cohesive, like you're finding your own sound. Each track is good, and it sounds like you move between genres with ease.
Thanks, Fountain. ;)(y) Glad to know the moving between genres thing has worked out, and that it all sounds professionally. Wasn’t entirely sure at first if that would pan out. Cuz I’m very much winging it, and learning how mix and write the songs as I go. :D And I don’t listen to music much whilist I’m coming up with ideas, if I do it’s usually not the same genre as the track I’m writing, partly to avoid the temptation to rip-off another song outright. :LOL:
 
Sod it ! Ah think I'll completely scrap that metal riff and start over... I have a feeling it'll sound generic as fuck if I continue with it as is. And I don't know how to re-write it make it sound better. Someone commented on it, saying if I slowed it down it would sound Pantera-esque, but I don't really hear it. Unless I tune my guitar down to D standard? :cautious:
 

Phoenixx

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My emotions have been a rollercoaster this week. Last weekend was a great stepping stone in my life and the rest of this week has left me miserable.

I went back to work full-time and have been exhausted all week. My depression is back full force and I've been coming home angry the last 3 days.

I had a huge argument with my husband last night. I still haven't recovered fully. I feel bad for feeling bad. But a part of me isn't even sorry for being upset or even yelling at him. I know I could have handled things better, but I get so caught up in my anger all the time. It's been an issue for awhile now, like years, and I just don't know how to handle it. I still have issues bottling things up until I explode. I hate it. We don't have marital issues, not really, but there has been a priority issue in the forefront for the last couple years and it just makes me so angry that nothing has changed.

I can't change people, I have to remind myself that. I also need to admit to myself that I can be so good damn controlling when things in my life aren't going how I want....

Honestly maybe I just need to focus on myself for a while. I don't know....
 

SoScared

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Got a couple of things going on. I've been sharing my recent depression episodes with staff at a help centre that I attend. Turns out they have shared this with all the other staff which is kindof their job but its actually quite upsetting when you realize that this has been going on. Its a big issue because it reminds you that you can't actually share anything with anybody in the 'system' and think that whatever you have shared stays within the confines of the office.

I did not know that heightened guilt feelings where part of the depression experience. My anxiety levels have significantly increased in recent weeks. I've had to remind myself of some successful anxiety reduction techniques that I've used in years gone by.
 

F0AM

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Depressed, tired of people disappointing me. Tired of me for expecting too much (?) From others (like being honest, grateful, true to their words...weird stuff).

There are things I need to change, but it's taking its time.

Curious how some people forget about you like you meant nothing the moment they meet another person who (for whatever reason) is more interesting.
 
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Like crap... coming down with the flu. Blocked up, sore throat. But then I haven’t really been taking proper o’ masel’ in past couple o’ years. And I’m getting fed-up relying upon those around me, only to have them let me down.
Keepin’ yer word a bit too much tae ask, huh? :mad: And ye still wonder why ah don’t trust ya... take a wild guess.
 
Still sucks that every time I see an article about a person with cancer, I look at them with burning envy.
I've done this since my early 20's.
Saw an article about a 12 yr old girl who has brain a brain tumour yesterday. Instantly thought - she doesn't know how lucky she is, if only I could have got a terminal illness at 12 yrs of age!! :(

I would swap a very painful, drawn out death, with my life, any day.
At least at the end of a painful death by cancer, there is relief at the end - the suffering ends. There is no end whatsoever to the daily suffering of my life.
I'm getting worried that the thought of the sadness my few close relatives may feel with me checking out of life voluntarily, may no longer be enough to stop me. The mental anguish is getting to an unbearable stage.... yet again.
 
Wishing I had the money to emigrate and start a new life somewhere else... :(:mad:

Getting fed-up with having to listen to the petty, childish, "Woe is me !" bull$h!* family drama. Naebuddy seems to spare a thought for how ah feel in aw this. :cry: Or how depressed I am... Naw ! Cuz ah dinnae huv to listen to it... headphones, music, done ! Aye, sure ! Dinnae bother delving deep into why that is, no. Oh, and as for the whole guitar playing thing, ya might want to ask yersel' why rather than how. Cuz ah think - given the how things huv been the past few years - I'm not just playing outta a love of music
 
I constantly feel inferior around people with the last few days being particularly bad. Every time I have to talk in front of the class I can feel my face going red, I start to sweat.. I hate it. This feeling of inferiority is a major problem for me. I read today (because I'm so bloody over it I will do just about anything to make it go away) that this ties into feeling like you're being constantly judged by everyone around you. I think it's true for me.

It's so mentally tiring to go about my daily business feeling like everyone is looking at me and judging me. No wonder I like solitude.
Heh. Funny thing is, I know I get lonely with too much solitude.. and I hate that too.

I really feel that my problems are complex and have never truly been identified, more like they have been broadly identified and lumped in with more general stuff. But that leads to an almost misdiagnosis..

I do feel like I'm not good enough (for who I don't know), at times it's like almost.. shame, guilt.. I feel so damn inferior.. it's completely doing my head in.
 
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