How are you feeling?

Have not felt this bad in years, got quite a depression. Seems as though i'm getting a lot of things wrong by jumping to assumptions that i believe to be true but turn out not to be the case.

Yeah, that can be an extremely hard habit to stop yourself from doing. Especially when your depressed mind is stuck in worrying mode. :confused:

There are many self-help books that help with stopping your mind from jumping to conclusions though.








You could find lots more online. :)
 
Ah don’t know if this is a compliment or no, but... Like, my oldest niece runs upstairs to my room, pencil n’ a piece o’ caird (sorry, card) in her hand. And she goes: “Graeme, can you draw me another butterfly? Then I’ll know how to draw butterflies” :DAnd this wus like 10 minutes before she was getting ready to leave today. :oops::eek: So, ah just said: “Aye”, but internally am going: Whit time is it...? Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Quick sketch, sod the details !

Thank buckin’ Christ I’d already drew a couple from memory ! And, my niece went: “I’ll do the details” when ah said ah did’nae huv time to do the details on the butterfly wings. :LOL:
 
Ah don’t know if this is a compliment or no, but... Like, my oldest niece runs upstairs to my room, pencil n’ a piece o’ caird (sorry, card) in her hand. And she goes: “Graeme, can you draw me another butterfly? Then I’ll know how to draw butterflies” :DAnd this wus like 10 minutes before she was getting ready to leave today. :oops::eek: So, ah just said: “Aye”, but internally am going: Whit time is it...? Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Quick sketch, sod the details !

Thank buckin’ Christ I’d already drew a couple from memory ! And, my niece went: “I’ll do the details” when ah said ah did’nae huv time to do the details on the butterfly wings. :LOL:
That's a good thing mate. Children are innocent in mind, it's good she feels she can come to Uncle Graeme openly 🤘
 
That's a good thing mate. Children are innocent in mind, it's good she feels she can come to Uncle Graeme openly 🤘
Oh, dinnae git me started... :rolleyes: Both o’ them - it’s not just the oldest - already come to me whenever they feel like it. They’ll just announce that they’re going to see me, regardless of being told otherwise. And the oldest, nearly every time without fail, marches upstairs to me to give me the abridged version of the argument she just had with her mother. “Graeme, Mummy shouted at me... and I don’t like when she does that!” :LOL:

Also, ah dinnae feckin’ screech, “No ! Don’t do that !”, whenever they go try to lift my dumbbell 💪 weights or pluck the strings of my guitars.Guess it’s good for me n’ not so good for my older sister - their mother. She’d probably notice that if she wus distracted by looking at her phone n’ going off on tangents about what someone wrote or posted on Facebook. :mad:

Though, me pointing oot how her kids prefer being around me when they come visit rather than spending time with her and their granny probably would’nae gan doon well. Since my nieces get aw excited to see me as soon as they spot me, or even just hear me, making my way downstairs. Cuz it’s no like she cun shout n’ swear back at me n’ say I’m lying.
 

Phoenixx

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I'm feeling a bit more "on track" today than the past few days.
Is is very underestimated how beneficial big belly laughs for a couple of hours, can just balance out your mood and give you a little bit of energy to face the next day.
I totally agree laughter is the best medicine. I have a video saved on my phone one of my best friends sent me over a year ago that I watch every time I'm feeling down. It makes me laugh every time I watch it and makes me feel like everything will be okay, even if I'm feeling bad.

I won't share the video due to privacy, but let's just say it involves a cat and some vodka. :LOL:
 
I sometimes tire thinking or talking about my feelings because the thoughts and feelings have become like a broken record that has been spinning for quite a while now.

I'll at times want to call it numbness, but that's not quite right as I'm not devoid of emotion or unable of feeling them. It's more like my feelings and emotions are configuration settings and some of them are turned down or off or the intensity is diminished or set to secondary or whatever. I wish I could turn up the "enjoyment" setting in context of fun, or the "excitement" setting up, or "considerate" or "Love". And I would turn down "angry" and "bitter" and "frustrated" and "impatient". It's not that I can't have fun or am always bitter, but when I am bitter those feelings are a hundred times stronger than enjoyment I feel when I am having fun. Enjoyment and fun feel muted, like faded colors on shirt, in comparison to the bright colors of anger and frustration.

When I reflect I can't ignore the possible psychological, or even biological, reason for setting my emotional configuration this way. If I don't passionately and wholeheartedly devote myself to any pure positive emotions, the terrible lows won't be as low. If I'm never head over heels again then I can never crash head first into the concrete again when the spring propelling my step is removed.

That doesn't really work though, as it just leaves me living in the past. I still remember, even as a memory, what it feels like to be intensely excited, to laugh large and undoubtedly, or to smile with undying and unconditional love. This is a silly analogy, but its like your favorite food being cheeseburgers and then having the doctor restrict your diet and tell you not to eat them anymore. You still wants them and remembers them, but know the risks and pain that could come from eating one so you don't. It's purgatory.

I always liken the mentality to the essence of this line from Dodgeball.



It's funny because I recognize that that mentality is not ideal, and one of the big takeaways from the movie is to reject that line of thinking, but knowing that doesn't suddenly turn my willingness to have fun unconditionally up to 11. I hope it takes less than a spontaneous conversation with Lance Armstrong to get to the place Peter La Fleur is at the end of Dodgeball for me though. I think I need to settle on how I want to feel, and then act in accordance with them. Thoughts, feelings, and behavior have a give and take relationship. I...will keep rambling like a broken record if I go on.
 
So, I’m going to be getting an electronic drum kit and learning the drums. Not my choice, like. Ma oldest sister coerced intae it. :mad: No exactly chuffed tae bits at the prospect o’ learning another feckin’ musicial instrument, but ah might as well. Ah mean, I’m the yin who gets told often that ah just sit about no daein’ much. :LOL:
 
So, I’m going to be getting an electronic drum kit and learning the drums. Not my choice, like. Ma oldest sister coerced intae it. :mad: No exactly chuffed tae bits at the prospect o’ learning another feckin’ musicial instrument, but ah might as well. Ah mean, I’m the yin who gets told often that ah just sit about no daein’ much. :LOL:
You'll be playin the bones in no time. I had an electronic set, bought the Yamaha speakers to it and would hook my phone up to it. I mean the headphones were good, but you cant beat hearing the thud of the bass drum out loud..
I'd get on YouTube and look up 'drum-less tracks' and thats how I learned. It's also much more enjoyable playing to fav songs instead of just playing to a metronome.
 
You'll be playin the bones in no time. I had an electronic set, bought the Yamaha speakers to it and would hook my phone up to it.
Ye think so, eh...? Am no sure... as ah huv’nae played an electronic drum kit since I was 13, 14. As I wanted to learn the drums, originally, but switched to guitar after finding the drums a wee bit too difficult to teach myself how to play at the time. And ah wus’nae that good, to be honest.

That said, I made a fair bit of progress when I started out on guitar. Going from basic chords, to learning how to read tab and playing my fav songs within a matter of months. So, we’ll see... I supposed the drum software I’ve been using to create my drums tracks via samples has gave me better understanding of how to transition one drum part to the next.

Oddly enough, it’s a Yamaha electronic kit that I’m looking to get. :) I can connect it to my computer and assign it to the virtual instrument plugin I’ve been using to write my drum tracks. So, that’s handy...

Ah don’t know if I should just get the Yamaha KP65 kick drum pad which has room can accommodate a double bass pedal setup? :unsure: But ah don’t know if that me getting ahead o’ masel’. :LOL:

Cannae say I’m looking forward to my nieces seeing the electric drum kit. :rolleyes: It’s bad enough they prefer being around me cuz I’m not loud n’ aggressive, they don’t need another reason to stay upstairs in my room. :LOL: Ah mean, they even helped me take apart and pack up a computer desk ah recently sold on eBay. Helping me with the screws and get it into it’s box. Once they see the drum kit they’ll never be oot ma room, they’ll be upstairs everyday ! Ah just know that’s how it’ll be... “Graeme !! Can we play your drums? Yay, watch me, Graeme !! Graeme, can ye should me how to play this song”

I'd get on YouTube and look up 'drum-less tracks' and thats how I learned. It's also much more enjoyable playing to fav songs instead of just playing to a metronome.
Well, am no sure how I’m going to learn as such. Other than listening to and figuring out the drum parts to my fav songs. As I don’t think there’s anyone in my local area that does private drum tuition. The only thing I’ve found terms of online lessons, is this YouTube channel called Drumeo. I think it’s based in Canada. Just stumbled across ‘em one day looking for a music documentary to watch, and found a couple of drum documentaries done by them, which were quite interesting. Anyway, that channel has a mix of lessons and in-depth technique videos which should be useful.

Or, if ah could find a PDF file just breaking down how to read the sheet music notation for the drums in relation to the kit that would be a great start.
 
Ye think so, eh...? Am no sure... as ah huv’nae played an electronic drum kit since I was 13, 14. As I wanted to learn the drums, originally, but switched to guitar after finding the drums a wee bit too difficult to teach myself how to play at the time. And ah wus’nae that good, to be honest.

That said, I made a fair bit of progress when I started out on guitar. Going from basic chords, to learning how to read tab and playing my fav songs within a matter of months. So, we’ll see... I supposed the drum software I’ve been using to create my drums tracks via samples has gave me better understanding of how to transition one drum part to the next.

Oddly enough, it’s a Yamaha electronic kit that I’m looking to get. :) I can connect it to my computer and assign it to the virtual instrument plugin I’ve been using to write my drum tracks. So, that’s handy...

Ah don’t know if I should just get the Yamaha KP65 kick drum pad which has room can accommodate a double bass pedal setup? :unsure: But ah don’t know if that me getting ahead o’ masel’. :LOL:

Cannae say I’m looking forward to my nieces seeing the electric drum kit. :rolleyes: It’s bad enough they prefer being around me cuz I’m not loud n’ aggressive, they don’t need another reason to stay upstairs in my room. :LOL: Ah mean, they even helped me take apart and pack up a computer desk ah recently sold on eBay. Helping me with the screws and get it into it’s box. Once they see the drum kit they’ll never be oot ma room, they’ll be upstairs everyday ! Ah just know that’s how it’ll be... “Graeme !! Can we play your drums? Yay, watch me, Graeme !! Graeme, can ye should me how to play this song”



Well, am no sure how I’m going to learn as such. Other than listening to and figuring out the drum parts to my fav songs. As I don’t think there’s anyone in my local area that does private drum tuition. The only thing I’ve found terms of online lessons, is this YouTube channel called Drumeo. I think it’s based in Canada. Just stumbled across ‘em one day looking for a music documentary to watch, and found a couple of drum documentaries done by them, which were quite interesting. Anyway, that channel has a mix of lessons and in-depth technique videos which should be useful.

Or, if ah could find a PDF file just breaking down how to read the sheet music notation for the drums in relation to the kit that would be a great start.
Youtube is actually a great teacher. So many free lessons, and you don't feel stupid re-repeating the same lesson/s over and over if you need to.
You go at your own pace.
Once you get the basic back beat happening the world is your oyster - or snare.. :LOL:

Drumeo is good, but I'd not limit myself to just one style of teaching. I personally found some things worked from some lessons while others didnt. Yet other teachers/lessons taught me the same thing and I picked it up.

Another thing I learned was sometimes you need to just get into and FEEL the beat happening. Rocking out to a tune with a VISUAL aid is something that can really help, I used these vids a lot.
 
Youtube is actually a great teacher. So many free lessons, and you don't feel stupid re-repeating the same lesson/s over and over if you need to.
You go at your own pace.
Yeah, I’ve found that as well... I also came to find that stuff that I was never taught while getting those initial 2 years of guitar lessons isn’t nearly as difficult as it was made out to be.

Once you get the basic back beat happening the world is your oyster - or snare.. :LOL:
Ha ! :LOL:

Drumeo is good, but I'd not limit myself to just one style of teaching. I personally found some things worked from some lessons while others didnt. Yet other teachers/lessons taught me the same thing and I picked it up.

Another thing I learned was sometimes you need to just get into and FEEL the beat happening. Rocking out to a tune with a VISUAL aid is something that can really help, I used these vids a lot.
I get what yer saying about the lessons. I found that with my guitar lessons, like after I quit for a wee while and went back to lessons I got and mastered techniques that I was struggling with prior to quitting. As for getting into it and the whole feel of the song, I tend to do that with my guitar playing, anyway. So, that would be so difficult to transfer over to the drums. It’s just the whole hands and feet coordination and keeping in time that I’ll probably struggle with than anything else. Not that I want to limit myself to just video lessons, I’ll see what books are available as well for beginner level drummers. I’m just not sure what my starting point should be for getting back into playing the drums? :confused::unsure:

Thanks for the advice, nonetheless, Pug. I’ll keep all that in mind. ;)(y)
 
I’m just not sure what my starting point should be for getting back into playing the drums? :confused::unsure:
The electronic drum kit should come with a built in metronome function. To help with basic coordination, set the metronome to a slow speed and practice alternating the bass drum and snare beats. Once your brain starts to recognize the pattern it'll become easier.

Just a note on the metronome. If you set it to extremely slow, it can make it harder to alternate. So find a pace you can alternate comfortably.

Future footage of Graeme next week
 
The electronic drum kit should come with a built in metronome function. To help with basic coordination, set the metronome to a slow speed and practice alternating the bass drum and snare beats. Once your brain starts to recognize the pattern it'll become easier.

Just a note on the metronome. If you set it to extremely slow, it can make it harder to alternate. So find a pace you can alternate comfortably.

Cheers for that suggestion about the metronome, Pug. ;)(y) Slightly less hesitant about learning the drums now, just a wee bit. Am actually mair worried that my oldest sister is going to start encouraging my nieces to play once I get the electronic kit set up, as I said before. Mind you, ah will’nae exactly be stopping them in that regard. :LOL:

Ah hope their mother does’nae get to the point where she refuses to come n’ visit anymore cuz all the kids want to do is play the drums. I’m a bad enough influence on them as it is... that’s it got to the point where my oldest niece will question me if I don’t happen to have my guitar on my lap when she comes upstairs to see me. As well as my somewhat decent drawing abilities. :LOL:

Future footage of Graeme next week
:rolleyes::LOL:(y)


Me starting out on the drums...
 
Need to get stuff done, but cannae be arsed, cuz I’ve got a lot to do. :(

So, to take ma mind off that, ah restrung and changed the tuning pegs on my electric guitar, then decided to play for a wee while. Eventually ended up writing a guitar riff that ah actually liked enough, so decided to record it. :D

Oh, and ah ordered my electronic drum kit... this should be fun ! :rolleyes:
For me, at least, the neighbours might not be as chuffed once ah get the kit hooked up to speakers. :LOL:
 
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