How are you feeling?

I've been feeling a lot of anxiety, and some of my anxiety has increased with using the internet, even this forum. I don't know why as nothing negative has happened. I thought of staying off line for awhile, but I'm not convinced that avoidance is the best way to go about life. I mean, you can only avoid so much. Have any of you dealt with this and have you any jewels of wisdom to share?

Hiccups./,/,/,

Having a terrible day! I am capable of wasting so much time wow! With this attitude I am never coming out of my ..procrastination black hole.

I'm feeling great. It's finally the weekend and I'm drinking beer and eating pizza.

A neighbor made a complaint about me, which is a complete laugh riot, since I'm me, but whatever.

He's one of those retirees with too much time on his hands. I always see him trudging across the parking lot to make complaints about people. He has motion-sensing flood lights, "No Trespassing" signs, and even one of those big, decoy owls with lantern eyes on his back porch to scare away birds.

Anyway, he reported me for letting my 16-year old pug off her leash at the back of the lot when I was walking her yesterday morning. I saw him standing at his door, glowering, so I wasn't totally surprised when I got a visit from the manager, but still, what a loser.

I probably won't do it, but I'm so tempted to sneak over to that guy's place tonight with a rope and leash that plastic owl to his porch.

Tired and excited at the same moment. :question:

Lavinialuna said: ↑

I've been feeling a lot of anxiety, and some of my anxiety has increased with using the internet, even this forum. I don't know why as nothing negative has happened. I thought of staying off line for awhile, but I'm not convinced that avoidance is the best way to go about life. I mean, you can only avoid so much. Have any of you dealt with this and have you any jewels of wisdom to share?

Me too. I am more anxious when I am online all of the time. I have a bit of an internet addiction, I suppose doesn't everyone now-a-days? It saps the life out of me and sucks me right back in every time. It is always a good idea to reconnect with nature during these sort of times. Or art or reading. I just pick up a physical book and I feel better. Though I love to read online, and there's more info on line than I have in book form, which is part of the problem...

MollyBeGood said: ↑

Me too. I am more anxious when I am online all of the time. I have a bit of an internet addiction, I suppose doesn't everyone now-a-days? It saps the life out of me and sucks me right back in every time. It is always a good idea to reconnect with nature during these sort of times. Or art or reading. I just pick up a physical book and I feel better. Though I love to read online, and there's more info on line than I have in book form, which is part of the problem...

I think you are right. I need to get out of the confines of my fence and go into the woods for a little while. Maybe I just need to find a place where I can look at a lake for awhile.

I'm in a bad mood. My daydreaming has gotten way over the top. I've wasted so much time daydreaming that I've killed much of my productivity and time, and it's driving me nuts. I need a mental break, please. I've been imagining people punishing me for my negative thoughts, and it feels like inflicting torture on myself. Everytime I get a negative thought, I would imagine myself getting punished for it. Isn't this twisted, and why am I being so hard on myself? I'm just so tired, but glad I let out my feelings.

Tired but satisfied.

Last night I finally told my girlfriend about my struggles with depression, anxiety, confidence, and all the rest of it. She was very understanding and thanked me for telling her. I must admit I feel a lot better now that that's all off my chest. 🙂

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

A neighbor made a complaint about me, which is a complete laugh riot, since I'm me, but whatever.

He's one of those retirees with too much time on his hands. I always see him trudging across the parking lot to make complaints about people. He has motion-sensing flood lights, "No Trespassing" signs, and even one of those big, decoy owls with lantern eyes on his back porch to scare away birds.

Anyway, he reported me for letting my 16-year old pug off her leash at the back of the lot when I was walking her yesterday morning. I saw him standing at his door, glowering, so I wasn't totally surprised when I got a visit from the manager, but still, what a loser.

I probably won't do it, but I'm so tempted to sneak over to that guy's place tonight with a rope and leash that plastic owl to his porch.

Was your dog on his property or something?

MikeyC said: ↑

Last night I finally told my girlfriend about my struggles with depression, anxiety, confidence, and all the rest of it. She was very understanding and thanked me for telling her. I must admit I feel a lot better now that that's all off my chest. 🙂

Fantastic, MikeyC.

Feeling a little weird today. I went shopping today and saw this guy who helped me with a stuck shopping cart last time. At first, I thought he didn't recognize me, as I was walking to the market, but then when I came out the market, he was there too. He saw me and reminded me of the advice he gave me last time. I just gave him thumbs up and said sure. Walking back to the van, I was helping my mom put groceries in the van but then out of the blue, I started getting weird thoughts...thoughts about this guy! I don't know if I'm being self conscious or something, but my mind started imagining this guy talking about me to another guy, or maybe I heard him for real. I heard somebody say that's the girl, don't look at her, then someone said will you ask her out, then somebody else said no, and then somebody said ****. I thought it was my imagination going wild. I went to help my dad out, but it was a bit weird too. When I drove the van out, I saw him too but he looked away.

I'm not sure what's going on. Maybe I'm overthinking things and making them more complicated than usual. I've only talked to this guy 2 times and then I start thinking/imagining that he likes me? Or maybe I have a crush on him? I don't think so! I have nothing against him, and I think he's a nice guy, thank you for helping me out last time, but I don't have feelings for him. I just want to get this clarified. I hope I don't give off any promiscuous vibes. I'm gonna have to go shopping again next time, and my parents like this supermarket. It's gonna be a bit awkward, but again, it's probably all in my head. I'm probably overthinking things, like OCDing or something. I need a mental break.

jaim38 said: ↑

Feeling a little weird today. I went shopping today and saw this guy who helped me with a stuck shopping cart last time. At first, I thought he didn't recognize me, as I was walking to the market, but then when I came out the market, he was there too. He saw me and reminded me of the advice he gave me last time. I just gave him thumbs up and said sure. Walking back to the van, I was helping my mom put groceries in the van but then out of the blue, I started getting weird thoughts...thoughts about this guy! I don't know if I'm being self conscious or something, but my mind started imagining this guy talking about me to another guy, or maybe I heard him for real. I heard somebody say that's the girl, don't look at her, then someone said will you ask her out, then somebody else said no, and then somebody said ****. I thought it was my imagination going wild. I went to help my dad out, but it was a bit weird too. When I drove the van out, I saw him too but he looked away.

I'm not sure what's going on. Maybe I'm overthinking things and making them more complicated than usual. I've only talked to this guy 2 times and then I start thinking/imagining that he likes me? Or maybe I have a crush on him? I don't think so! I have nothing against him, and I think he's a nice guy, thank you for helping me out last time, but I don't have feelings for him. I just want to get this clarified. I hope I don't give off any promiscuous vibes. I'm gonna have to go shopping again next time, and my parents like this supermarket. It's gonna be a bit awkward, but again, it's probably all in my head. I'm probably overthinking things, like OCDing or something. I need a mental break.

Maybe he does like you. All you can do is go shopping again 😀
As for the rumination, it is a horrible beast. I do the same thing and can't stop thinking about things. Hope you can let it go for now and feel better.

Feeling really good today. Bought some new shoes on sale that are sexy-what girl doesn't love new sexy shoes?

terrified to go to bed,that's when i feel really,really lonely,at least i dream a lot lately that i'm with my crush:3

Just dumping off some misery, enjoy.

Today has been the most depressingly boring day in a long time. Sunny and fairly hot, we were all supposed to go to the beach as a family and get ice cream. Time was ticking away and I reminded my mother a few times, and she said okay, we'll go at 5, and then two hours later we didn't go and it was getting dark and she had to watch our dinner. And she said she forgot. Forgot!? I reminded her so many times 🙁

I was really looking forward to it because I've been trapped in the house for days, and so have my little brother and sister. My mom ALWAYS does this stuff; she rarely spends time with us as a family. I could have taken the car myself, I suppose, but it's not the same, and I don't know my way around really well...

On the positive side, sort of - more food stuff - we had pot roast for dinner. Seems food is all I have to look forward to lately. Which sounds really bad.

I'm feeling a mix of emotions, but today's definitely better than yesterday where all h*ll seem to break lose and I went berserk. I'm finally having peace of mind. Definitely getting enough sleep after losing so much yesterday.

Too lonely to sleep.