I'm not ok, I don't know why, and I don't know what to do about it. I hardly know why I post this on a social anxiety website either, I know it's something with comorbidity of other things, but it hardly makes it directly relevant. Maybe I'm just a loser, a problem but not an illness or anything. I can barely go ten minutes with some sort of distraction. I won't let myself figure out what's wrong. I can't even make a proper post. I just want to slam on the keyboard for pages of gibberish. I'm just not okay and I can't get it out.
Comorbidity, yep. It's directly relevant to SPW because not only does SPW have a depression-specific forum, it's rare to see anxiety without depression.
You aren't a loser. You have brain problems. If someone has liver or spleen problems that doesn't make them a loser, either.
The bolded part shows difficulty concentrating, which is a symptom of depression.
My logic was more along the lines that the problem, if you want to call it that, is that I am acting like a loser. I sit around doing nothing when I'm not at work, and don't enjoy anything, and no drive to do anything either. Every day just feels exactly the same, with nothing different up ahead.
Everything here sounds like a symptom of depression.
People like you. I'm one of them. We will be here and remain here if you need us.
Entirely overwhelmed. I cannot handle social interaction like a proper human being. I will never be comfortable. How can I live life this way? It's being constantly uncomfortable and on edge. I still get lonely too, so I can't just isolate myself off somewhere. People trying to talk to me overwhelms me sometimes, but I can't just ignore everyone. I feel like I am cursed sometimes, it's such a pain to deal with day after day after day. I am so exhausted.
At the risk of sounding condescending, I am
super proud of you for your recent efforts at socializing. You've gone out of your comfort zone all over the place. That's not easy. You've done well. *hug*