How are you feeling?

....Freaked out. Mid anxiety attack. The yard that looked like a nice large space this afternoon seems to be closing in on me. What caused it? Pathetically it was caused by my 8 year old son having 2 friends over when it wasn't planned. One kept asking questions and one chased my chickens (even my dog is trained better than that, and I feel guilty saying it because who is mean to a kid? They are just kids...)
People who enter my home without me being mentally prepared for it is like having a giant sliver. Even after it's pulled out and gone it still throbs for awhile.

I can totally relate to that. I need several hours notice at a minimum before guests. I hate having to tall kids to not touch my new TV or not to kick the glass door on my gun cabinet in the living room.... with the parents watching them do it! But kids are kids and thus why they need taught right and wrong. I'm sure them other kids ain't seen chickens before up close.
 

Lavinialuna

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I can totally relate to that. I need several hours notice at a minimum before guests. I hate having to tall kids to not touch my new TV or not to kick the glass door on my gun cabinet in the living room.... with the parents watching them do it! But kids are kids and thus why they need taught right and wrong. I'm sure them other kids ain't seen chickens before up close.
Yeah, that is what I thought. I remember just accepting that grown ups tell you what to do. I just always try to be gentle when talking to other people's kids by saying "sweetie" when gently disciplining. That way they don't get scared of you.... still, it stresses me out!
 
ahh

Entirely overwhelmed. I cannot handle social interaction like a proper human being. I will never be comfortable. How can I live life this way? It's being constantly uncomfortable and on edge. I still get lonely too, so I can't just isolate myself off somewhere. People trying to talk to me overwhelms me sometimes, but I can't just ignore everyone. I feel like I am cursed sometimes, it's such a pain to deal with day after day after day. I am so exhausted.
 

ImNotMyIllness

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Re: ahh

Entirely overwhelmed. I cannot handle social interaction like a proper human being. I will never be comfortable. How can I live life this way? It's being constantly uncomfortable and on edge. I still get lonely too, so I can't just isolate myself off somewhere. People trying to talk to me overwhelms me sometimes, but I can't just ignore everyone. I feel like I am cursed sometimes, it's such a pain to deal with day after day after day. I am so exhausted.

Maybe you're also an empath. I am. Check out this link.

10 Ways to Thrive if You’re Highly Sensitive | Cultivating Contentment & Happiness
 

Odo

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Aggressively good.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Entirely overwhelmed. I cannot handle social interaction like a proper human being. I will never be comfortable. How can I live life this way? It's being constantly uncomfortable and on edge. I still get lonely too, so I can't just isolate myself off somewhere. People trying to talk to me overwhelms me sometimes, but I can't just ignore everyone. I feel like I am cursed sometimes, it's such a pain to deal with day after day after day. I am so exhausted.

Yeah, that's pretty much how ah feel aboot ma ain social interactions wi' folk, verbatim. Nonetheless, sorry tae hear yer also dealin' wi' these feels on a daily basis. :sad:
 

Lavinialuna

Well-known member
Re: ahh

Entirely overwhelmed. I cannot handle social interaction like a proper human being. I will never be comfortable. How can I live life this way? It's being constantly uncomfortable and on edge. I still get lonely too, so I can't just isolate myself off somewhere. People trying to talk to me overwhelms me sometimes, but I can't just ignore everyone. I feel like I am cursed sometimes, it's such a pain to deal with day after day after day. I am so exhausted.
I feel this way too. I can't even remember the last time I walked away from a social interaction feeling positive about it. I just hate that feeling. I avoid it at all costs.

Good article. I bought Judith Orloffs book but haven't had time to read it yet.

I think this definitely describes me. I will probably always be this way :/. I'm sure lots of people here can relate.
I know I am an empath by all accounts of the description. It's horrible! It's a torturous way to live.
Molly be good just started a thread about that topic. You should join in.
 

NathanielWingatePeaslee

Iä! Iä! Cthulhu fhtagn!
Staff member
I'm not ok, I don't know why, and I don't know what to do about it. I hardly know why I post this on a social anxiety website either, I know it's something with comorbidity of other things, but it hardly makes it directly relevant. Maybe I'm just a loser, a problem but not an illness or anything. I can barely go ten minutes with some sort of distraction. I won't let myself figure out what's wrong. I can't even make a proper post. I just want to slam on the keyboard for pages of gibberish. I'm just not okay and I can't get it out.
Comorbidity, yep. It's directly relevant to SPW because not only does SPW have a depression-specific forum, it's rare to see anxiety without depression.

You aren't a loser. You have brain problems. If someone has liver or spleen problems that doesn't make them a loser, either.

The bolded part shows difficulty concentrating, which is a symptom of depression.
My logic was more along the lines that the problem, if you want to call it that, is that I am acting like a loser. I sit around doing nothing when I'm not at work, and don't enjoy anything, and no drive to do anything either. Every day just feels exactly the same, with nothing different up ahead.
Everything here sounds like a symptom of depression.

People like you. I'm one of them. We will be here and remain here if you need us.

Entirely overwhelmed. I cannot handle social interaction like a proper human being. I will never be comfortable. How can I live life this way? It's being constantly uncomfortable and on edge. I still get lonely too, so I can't just isolate myself off somewhere. People trying to talk to me overwhelms me sometimes, but I can't just ignore everyone. I feel like I am cursed sometimes, it's such a pain to deal with day after day after day. I am so exhausted.
At the risk of sounding condescending, I am super proud of you for your recent efforts at socializing. You've gone out of your comfort zone all over the place. That's not easy. You've done well. *hug*
 
I'm not ok, I don't know why, and I don't know what to do about it. I hardly know why I post this on a social anxiety website either, I know it's something with comorbidity of other things, but it hardly makes it directly relevant. Maybe I'm just a loser, a problem but not an illness or anything. I can barely go ten minutes with some sort of distraction. I won't let myself figure out what's wrong. I can't even make a proper post. I just want to slam on the keyboard for pages of gibberish. I'm just not okay and I can't get it out.

My logic was more along the lines that the problem, if you want to call it that, is that I am acting like a loser. I sit around doing nothing when I'm not at work, and don't enjoy anything, and no drive to do anything either. Every day just feels exactly the same, with nothing different up ahead.
^I did not know how to offer any help with what you were going through due to my own mind-numbness (yes i don't care if that is not a real word:giggle:) when I read your posts initially, but I agree with everything Nate has said! He has said what my mind could not get down into text for you.:) .........

Comorbidity, yep. It's directly relevant to SPW because not only does SPW have a depression-specific forum, it's rare to see anxiety without depression.

You aren't a loser. You have brain problems. If someone has liver or spleen problems that doesn't make them a loser, either.

The bolded part shows difficulty concentrating, which is a symptom of depression.

Everything here sounds like a symptom of depression.
^This.
 

MikeyC

Well-known member
Comorbidity, yep. It's directly relevant to SPW because not only does SPW have a depression-specific forum, it's rare to see anxiety without depression.

You aren't a loser. You have brain problems. If someone has liver or spleen problems that doesn't make them a loser, either.

The bolded part shows difficulty concentrating, which is a symptom of depression.

Everything here sounds like a symptom of depression.

People like you. I'm one of them. We will be here and remain here if you need us.
You hit the nail on the head. :thumbup:
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
Comorbidity, yep. It's directly relevant to SPW because not only does SPW have a depression-specific forum, it's rare to see anxiety without depression.

You aren't a loser. You have brain problems. If someone has liver or spleen problems that doesn't make them a loser, either.

The bolded part shows difficulty concentrating, which is a symptom of depression.

Everything here sounds like a symptom of depression.

People like you. I'm one of them. We will be here and remain here if you need us.

Thanks, to everybody. A part of me knew I was slipping into a depression, it's not exactly my first encounter with it. It's always come before any social issues, and is much deeper ingrained. I remember when I was younger, mid-elementary school age, I'd go up to my room in the summer and cover myself in warm blankets attempting to overheat myself to death. That pre-dated my social issues triggers by a good 5 years or so. By now I ought to know a way out of it when it hits, and not taking those steps is my fault.
 
I can't believe the day's almost gone. I'm just getting started! :(

Also, I want a drink. Not for any particular reason, a margarita or something just sounds good right now. I can't spend my money, though, and the person with a drinking problem is trying not to drink (plus she just doesn't have the money to buy alcohol right now anyway).
 
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