I did something I never did before - attend a job fair! I was so nervous, especially before and during the job fair. I feel like all jelly inside but I forced myself to get dressed and drove all the way to the fair. When I got there, I spent minutes in the car and bathroom before I entered. Walking around scared the h*ll out of me. There are so many vendors and I didn't know which one to approach. I did ask beforehand if they would give me a list of vendors but no replies. The flyer/ad didn't say anything about vendors. So, I came a bit unprepared, but had copies of my resume with me. I spoke to about 9 vendors overall but most of them didn't have positions that I was aiming for. I had conversations where it went nowhere, didn't benefit me at all and knew they don't have the position I was looking for, but hey it's good practice to develop my conversation skills. Sometimes my mind went blank though and I totally didn't know what else to say. Also, I was a bit unconscious while walking around approaching random people, and didn't think at times. I left after about 30 minutes or so, and drove home ASAP!
I might be exxagerating, but this is one of the scariest experiences in my life! It's also my first time doing a job fair, as mentioned before. I was so scared I went to the bathroom partly to hide and chill for several minutes before going out. I know I shouldn't be scared of the career vendors, but my brain just couldn't help being irrational.
Also, I kinda feel uncomfortable wearing a pantsuit. I want to project a more empathetic, talkative, friendlier persona but I wasn't able to for some reason. This is going to sound weird, but I feel like wearing a pencil skirt instead of pants. Or is this just me being crazy?
Anyway, I'm proud of myself for for going to the fair and doing my best! The other alternative would be to sit at home and vegetate, which I know I will regret. It was a big learning experience. No actions no results!
I'm sorry.
