How are you feeling?

Opaline said: ↑

Everything I ate today made me nauseous. And no I'm not pregnant 😛

stop denying our lovechild

people exhaust me.

exhausted.

dottie said: ↑

stop denying our lovechild

This ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^made me choke on my water xD :applause:

dottie said: ↑

stop denying our lovechild

Dottie you and Opa have some 'splainin' to do.

dottie said: ↑

stop denying our lovechild

Things just got...interesting...

A bit narky

Sad. There are so many humans on earth. SO many. Why am I on this earth? What is the purpose anyway. Everyday is the same battle to survive, Everyday i feel worthless.

JuiceB said: ↑

Dottie you and Opa have some 'splainin' to do.

I, uhhh, I don't know what you guys are talking about! >.>

Michael Jackson - Billie Jean - YouTube

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feeling depressive, hard to push self out door... like a failure socially as far as holding my own.

self talk: no one is perfect. you cannot please everyone. not everyone is going to like you and that is ok.

haven't had a day off in 7 days... oh that's why... tomorrow day off! yay!

Just wish this madness could end. How do you go on when no one else is there to support you and when every single person has turned against you? I just wish I could smile and truly temporarily forget all the hardships in life.

Sigh...i just feel so bleh right now....numb and uncaring about everything that matters. I should develop this behavior more often. -_-

Ah just wish ma family would stop forcing their expectations and ideas of how ah should be. Being taken seriously fur once would be nice, mind you. That's the problem being the youngest - yer talk to like yer still a f**kin' child! :kickingmyself:

Oh! And stop tellin' me tae reciprocate feelings for someone ah don't know, like or care aboot, fur that matter. See, ye cannae force someone tae like ye - ah've always found that tae pathetic. Probably, yin o' the reasons why am still single?

Ah know that makes me sound like total n' utter unlikeable c*nt!

Am perfectly fine wi' folk not likin' me. Ah accept that at a young age. Tae be far, though, ah don't really like maself that much. Ah know, ah know... a depressin' thought but ma self-esteem is pretty low, which doesnae really dae the ol' confidence any favours.

Sorry, just needed tae vent ma less happy emotions. :sad:

Just came back from first day at uni, I was nervous as usual. At the introduction I sat next to a nice girl I met last week, I would have ignored her and sit somewhere else but I didn't do that, too bad she's not in my class. They told my class that in two weeks we have to make groups to start working together, that got me worried already :crying:

Overwhelmed. My mom really needs to stop imposing jobs and outings on me so much. A friend of the family, someone I barely know, needed a babysitter for the upcoming school year and my mom gave her my phone number to call me. She didn't even ask if I wanted the job, she only told me about it. I only met this woman once, she is a nice person, and from what I remember her kids seem really quiet and well behaved, which also is nice. That's not the problem though. I just feel like this all being thrust into my face. It's not like I haven't babysat before in the past, but it was only family then. I'm not that good with kids at all and I feel like if I do get it I'm going to somehow be a horrible boring person and the kids are going to hate me which in turn will make her hate me. :sad:

All this anxiety has been building for a while because my mom won't back off. She's constantly mentioning to people how much I don't leave the house and how I need to get out more. She asks me to go places on my own, but of course I usually decline. She's constantly saying how I need to get a life, that I should be looking for jobs every single day (Seriously woman?! Job hunting for one day is stressful enough!), and that I should go find other stuff to do and find people to hang with. Jebas, it's like being a god damn introvert is a sin. Yeah I'm kind of stuck in a rut still, and my anxiety still prevents me from going to a lot of places on my own, but to be honest I'm not even as lonely as what she thinks I am. I don't have as many friends as I'd like, but it really is not even bothering me all that much. I really just wish she'd back off. :sad:

I am exhausted to the last bit, although I wish I could stay a few days in bed.

Phoenixx said: ↑

Overwhelmed. My mom really needs to stop imposing jobs and outings on me so much. A friend of the family, someone I barely know, needed a babysitter for the upcoming school year and my mom gave her my phone number to call me. She didn't even ask if I wanted the job, she only told me about it. I only met this woman once, she is a nice person, and from what I remember her kids seem really quiet and well behaved, which also is nice. That's not the problem though. I just feel like this all being thrust into my face. It's not like I haven't babysat before in the past, but it was only family then. I'm not that good with kids at all and I feel like if I do get it I'm going to somehow be a horrible boring person and the kids are going to hate me which in turn will make her hate me. :sad:

All this anxiety has been building for a while because my mom won't back off. She's constantly mentioning to people how much I don't leave the house and how I need to get out more. She asks me to go places on my own, but of course I usually decline. She's constantly saying how I need to get a life, that I should be looking for jobs every single day (Seriously woman?! Job hunting for one day is stressful enough!), and that I should go find other stuff to do and find people to hang with. Jebas, it's like being a god damn introvert is a sin. Yeah I'm kind of stuck in a rut still, and my anxiety still prevents me from going to a lot of places on my own, but to be honest I'm not even as lonely as what she thinks I am. I don't have as many friends as I'd like, but it really is not even bothering me all that much. I really just wish she'd back off. :sad:

Sorry your ma is stressing you out, just remember she cares about you wants the best for you and all that stuff

Didn't sleep well, my thoughts were flying so fast I couldn't catch them all.

I'm a little nervous, a little excited, and a little thrown off and even depressed by the fact that I have class tomorrow. It's great I'm going back to school, don't get me wrong. But it just doesn't feel right. I feel like I should be done with it by now. And technically I should be done with undergrad, traditionally speaking. Of course, many people then go onto grad school and I'm not doing that later, so I can sort of put myself in that mental mindset, maybe - pretend I'm in grad school - to help myself out. I just feel too old to be pursuing my undergraduate degree 😛 And yes I realize how crazy that sounds to people who are older than I am, haha. Still. It's like still being in high school when you're 20. It's just... odd. And I find it depressing. *le sigh* I suppose one can always find the bad in things, I should just be grateful I'm going at all!

Opaline said: ↑

I, uhhh, I don't know what you guys are talking about! >.>

Isnt that convenient 🤭

Graeme1988 said: ↑

That's the problem being the youngest - yer talk to like yer still a f**kin' child! :kickingmyself:

I know how you feel, im still treated like an irresponsible teenager, despite the fact that i have come a long way since those days and i've changed a lot.. :kickingmyself: