Next tae nothin', ah might as well be f**kin' dead! Eh, emotionally, ah mean...
Well, ah say next tae nothin': Other than rage at constantly being manipulate by certain family members. Aye, that's it. F**kin' rage...! Kinda rage where the word "f**k" is repeated too many times. And yet ah put up with it because ye cannae tell yer whole family tae "F**k the f**k off!" now, can ye? Because that how ah feel the now, like. Eh, ah don't know...
D'ye ever huv one o' those days where ye think: "Right! Am gonnae tell this c*nt (person) what ah really think o' them" There's alot o' supressed verbal rage within me, that's aw ah know. Quite f**kin' terrfyin', really, tae think what ah'd be like if ah was a bit mair honest an' spoke ma mind. Holy f**k, naebody would f**kin' talk tae me, f**kin' avoid me and rightly so!
Is possible to cut an "apparently close" sibling outta yer life? Ah mean, contact wise. We're no talkin' siamese twin here, or nothin' - aw sorry, a wee joke fur ye, there. :sarcastic: Awfully sad, isn't it, eh?! The fact that ah use humour tae try an' cover up alot of ma emotionally/psychological issues? :sad: Am pretty sure ma mum does that as welll...? Oops, gettin' off-topic, there. Because ah really can't f**kin' stand ma oldest sibling. Just the constantly "Do this or else" attitude and beggin' me tae do somethin' pisses me right the f**k off! It's really does. Am on the f**kin' verge o' utterin' those 4 words aloud: "Ah f**kin' hate ye!" - which isnae good, really. When ye think aboot it! It's quite bad, actually. Anyway, just needed tae get that off ma mind. Vent ma emotions an' aw that stuff... :idontknow: :alone: Sorry aboot the language (The swearing, no the Scottish dialect...)