work.
this is just an update on my work. earlier in the year i posted how horrible my workplace was. my supervisor created a hostile environment making it clear she did not like me, did not want me working there, and did not want to be arsed to train me. this sentiment was delivered in dirty glares, flipped hair, talking in hushed tones in the corner with other coworkers, whispering nasty things under her breath that only i could hear, eyerolling, etc... it was passive-aggressive... no, it was passive-vicious. i would come home shaking and crying every night. but i stuck through it because being jobless is not really an option.
the update is that things have much improved. my supervisor can still be a nasty c-word (and i hate using that word) but now she cannot disrespect me anymore because i know my stuff, have proved myself to be indispensable, and, in fact, make her look good in the eyes of the higher-ups and other departments. **** gets done, quickly and accurately.
honestly, my supervisor can be nice, too, and there are moments where i almost like her. i do, in some ways. but i know who she is and how she treats people who she thinks are beneath her. for this, she cannot be trusted. so i remain cordial but keep my distance.
but overall i am feeling more confident at work. there is a stability and peace of mind. this comes from knowing that other people know that i know my stuff. it's been a huge relief.
