I'm so ****ing pissed of,why the hell some people are so retarded and hypocritical,and he is even much older than me ,he is around 45 years old but he is so ****ing retarded.
What an idiot! I'm sorry. I hope you don't let him get to you too much.
: I understand when people tell me that being young isn't so bad, that I'll be thankful for it when I'm older. Yeah, that's then. What about now? No one takes you seriously if you're trying to get out there in life, but don't "look the part," if you get what I mean. Why can't people just accept that? Why can't people just stop judging for two seconds, stop stating the obvious, and just talk to me and treat me normally?:
I'm sorry, Phoenixx. Don't worry about what anyone says. As long as you're happy in college, that's all that needs to matter. I know it's difficult to ignore others, but you're doing it for you, not them.Depressed. There were more people at that thing than I thought there would be, and we ended up staying longer than I thought we would, but only because my mom got to talking. I shouldn't be surprised, she melds with people so well, I really wish I inherited that. Instead I just sat pathetically on the side watching everyone talk to each other. My mom introduced me to a couple people, but that's about it. I couldn't say more than a few words the whole time, being there just made me feel sick.
The few people who did talk to me only had comments based on my looks. "Aren't you a little young to be in college?", "You certainly don't look like you're going to college." There was one girl there, she was 14, who immediately came up to me (she's really outgoing) and asked a bit enthusiastically, "How old are you?" I told her my age and all she had to reply was, "Oh." and she ran off.
It's these stupid comments that make me hate myself even more than I do. :
Why can't I just accept myself? :
^ That's it though. It doesn't matter where I am, I'm not happy with myself as a person and how I look.
Then you and I have something more in common. I'm sorry you feel that way. How do you think you can overcome that?
^ Moving out of here would be a great step. I obviously can't overcome anything while I'm here living with my family and this location being so inconvenient.
I see what you mean. Again, I feel like I'm in a similar boat to you.
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Don't want to go to work.
It started off okay, but I'm starting to feel like I've been ousted from the social circle for the most part. A couple coworkers talk to me occasionally, but they aren't playful and talkative with me like they are with each other.
Yesterday I had another incident where a coworker got mad at me, again for something I didn't do on purpose - no one was clear with me what the closing procedure was, and I didn't sweep/mop the floor right away (which apparently should be done first because it takes up a lot of time), which made my coworker angry and she started doing it - slamming chairs on tables loudly, sweeping the floor quickly with an attitude. I wasn't sure how to respond but I just kept calm and asked her if she wanted me to mop, and she said, "Yup." I don't get it. I didn't purposely shirk responsibility, but sometimes no one is clear on what is going on and I get confused easily.
Also - and this is something probably mostly in my own mind, but that doesn't make it any less distressing - the fact that I look so young, especially with my hair back in a hat and unflattering clothes, just makes me feel even more stupid/inadequate. I can't tell if it's in my head or not, but I swear many of my coworkers look at me like I'm pathetic, they sense the social awkwardness and don't want to associate with it, but use it to their advantage when they want to push me around.
I don't think I can take much more of that, if it continues I will have no choice but to quit :
I don't know what to do from here. I feel so miserable. Want to stay under my covers and never get up ever again...