I don't see why you won't be a proper man if you're not into sports. How can an interest define a person? I'm sorry, the people who say this are being really stupid.AGH!! F***, f***, f***ety f***! Why... am I constantly being made to feel like I'm a total f***in' freak, just because I'm NOT into sports? Is that so wrong?! Huh?!Sorry, I'm not a "proper" man. Aw, I had a feeling this day gonna be s***! :
AGH!! F***, f***, f***ety f***! Why... am I constantly being made to feel like I'm a total f***in' freak, just because I'm NOT into sports? Is that so wrong?! Huh?!
: I hope you'll be okay.... Try take all of the energy you have from being upset to energy that may help you at your meet.
AGH!! F***, f***, f***ety f***! Why... am I constantly being made to feel like I'm a total f***in' freak, just because I'm NOT into sports? Is that so wrong?! Huh?!
AGH!! F***, f***, f***ety f***! Why... am I constantly being made to feel like I'm a total f***in' freak, just because I'm NOT into sports? Is that so wrong?! Huh?!
Oh, my, those are some intense sleepwalking moments! I can't think that any of mine have been so crazy. The one I do remember was when I was young, maybe 10, and I woke up on the grass outside.
Yours create better stories, though.
That's stupid, that sports are supposed to make a man. You're not a freak at all because of your preference. Ignore them...
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Good luck. I hope you can kill it. (Not literally)
Never been one for going out, getting drunk, and waking up the following morning hungover. But, yeah, I feel the same way, Kia.: Thank you. Glad to know I'm not the only one. Oh, thank f*** for that! Anyway, thanks for the replies everyone.
:: I feel really bad most of the time as it is, it would be nice if I could feel I belonged at work, and was treated with respect, but I feel like I'm in high school again. I can't take it. The familiar feeling of being somewhat of an outcast and looked down upon is too much to bear.
I was confused about my parents' availability, because I had originally texted my dad asking him to watch my son tomorrow, but received a text saying that was not possible because of babysitting my niece and nephew at the same time (in another city). It turns out, it was my mom texting from my dad's phone.
AGH!! F***, f***, f***ety f***! Why... am I constantly being made to feel like I'm a total f***in' freak, just because I'm NOT into sports? Is that so wrong?! Huh?!
^ I hear ya. I'm quite the sleeper too. I usually can't function too well with 5 hours of sleep, I always need 8+ hours. Usually 10 hours does wonders for me, but very rarely do I get that much.I'm not a tea drinker, but I've cut down on the caffeine quite a bit. That part about room/body temperature is interesting. My room is in the basement and two of the walls are concrete, so you'd think it would be fairly cool in here. But it's not. I have to have a fan on when I sleep because I need white noise, and I always have it pointed in my direction. I'd rather be cold than hot. But lately I've had to put the fan smack dab in front of my face. I think the change in temperature is definitely effecting my sleep. This is why I hate summer!
I read for over an hour tonight and that made me tired. So I went with the flow and went to bed at 8pm. That bedtime doesn't exactly put me in with the cool kids, but I'll try anything at this point. I seem to have my mother's sleeping habits. My dad can get 5 or 6 hours of sleep and function perfectly. My mom and I can't. She usually goes to sleep around 8 or 9 (sometimes even earlier), gets up during the middle of the night for an hour or so to smoke and watch TV, goes back to bed, and wakes at 5 or 6. That seems to be the cycle that I am inheriting. I woke up at 12:30am today and I'll probably be up for a couple of hours before trying to go back to bed.
Alright. Enough about me.
^ Thankfully that was the first and last time I had to put up with him. I don't want to take that course again, so I'll make sure I get my license within a year.
^ Thank you.Its good that you don't have to deal with him again. Good luck with your course.
Tried going back to sleep and it was too hot. I yanked open the window and within an hour I was too cold. I was pretty much up every hour. Even when I went to bed, my anxiety from that course kept me up.
I know how you feel, good luck with the get together. I'm also sorry about your cousin.^ Thank you.
I'm feeling tired and slightly nervous. I didn't sleep well at all last night. Went to bed at 1am, but kept falling in and out of sleep for 2 hours before I was woken up by my dog. She wanted out, as well as our old dog, so I let them out. Wasn't a half hour later they wanted back in.
In about an hour now I have to go to a family get-together thing. Didn't mention this the other day, but a first cousin died a few days ago. I wasn't close to her, and didn't exactly know her, but I met her a few times. There isn't a funeral, as she never wanted one, so the family is just doing this get-together thing at a relative's house nearby. It's small, as that side of the family wasn't too big, but there's still going to be all these people there I don't know. I had a choice, but my mom wanted me to go. I will, just to pay my respects. I really think she just wanted me to get out more though and see people. I guess I don't blame her, I cut myself off from too many people sometimes and am too stand-offish. It's not that I don't care, it's just being afraid to get too close to anyone and just being nervous.
I'm glad your dad agreed to babysit.Feeling a little better than I have been the past few days. My dad agreed to babysit my son tomorrow, so, at the very least, I can start school.
I know the feeling very well, I'm sorry.:
Don't want to go to work.
It started off okay, but I'm starting to feel like I've been ousted from the social circle for the most part. A couple coworkers talk to me occasionally, but they aren't playful and talkative with me like they are with each other.
Yesterday I had another incident where a coworker got mad at me, again for something I didn't do on purpose - no one was clear with me what the closing procedure was, and I didn't sweep/mop the floor right away (which apparently should be done first because it takes up a lot of time), which made my coworker angry and she started doing it - slamming chairs on tables loudly, sweeping the floor quickly with an attitude. I wasn't sure how to respond but I just kept calm and asked her if she wanted me to mop, and she said, "Yup." I don't get it. I didn't purposely shirk responsibility, but sometimes no one is clear on what is going on and I get confused easily.
Also - and this is something probably mostly in my own mind, but that doesn't make it any less distressing - the fact that I look so young, especially with my hair back in a hat and unflattering clothes, just makes me feel even more stupid/inadequate. I can't tell if it's in my head or not, but I swear many of my coworkers look at me like I'm pathetic, they sense the social awkwardness and don't want to associate with it, but use it to their advantage when they want to push me around.
I don't think I can take much more of that, if it continues I will have no choice but to quit :
I don't know what to do from here. I feel so miserable. Want to stay under my covers and never get up ever again...
I understand. I don't know what to say, I'm sorry you're going through all these.
Sick. Cough and sniffles all around
Apart from eating stale cereal for lunch, I feel fabulous and blessed