Glad I went with the majority in the poll, as no. Took a long time to decide.
I was stuck with the answer for a while.
I thought I started as an 'alto' ? High pitched at school. Standard?
Now I feel much more basso in my own head, like a forceful 'big man' in a meeting or by phone which I hate... with age?
I get paranoid about my voice because people go straight for the 'get him out of the door' option immediately and I'm searching for the reason. I'm thinking of the blabbermouth spastic autistic pronunciation of a dyslexic vocal delivery.
I worry about being west-born in the UK - with a distinct Bristol, Gloucester farmer's accent of my parents... slightly Welsh, which might put people off.
I have big problems listening to anyone with a broad accent from Scotland, Manchester, Irish and especially Indian, on the phone. Anything on the phone sets me ranting and I try to specify Leeds, Yorkshire from Scouse.
What I do know: people don't like me when I try carefully to make a positive impression. Hand gestures and smiles which I practice in a mirror. I worry that my discerned, advised eye contact maintenance, I might put them off when I stare coldly at their eyes, relentlessly. It might seem aggressive. I have a deep desire for 'getting what I want'.
Perhaps a more gentle, relaxed attitude, gazing around the corners of a room would help. I sometimes shout in a situation. I remember a recent encounter, after difficult inquisition, asking 'does my mouth work? Can you hear?' Which was clearly agreed. I automatically get seriously nervous and stuttery on the phone or in a meeting when the person holds my fate in their hand and I have no control of it. My defence is natural defiance. The best I ever got was an amazing outcome when my Scottish interviewer said that I'd redeemed myself and I got the job. I fight my corner and make it heard that I can 'do this well' because I've done this before, and I get luck when people listen. In general they just don't. They ignore.
It's their eyes. On first look and handshake, people seem unsettled. I feel that they see an ALIEN.
On a different level. eg. first question is always 'how was your journey?' My response is 'I'm here!' :question: