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  1. xtina_fan81

    New extreme anxiety inducing situation has cropped up :(

    last year i was living with 4 other girls. 3 of which i got on with fine despite how shy and quiet i was they were really nice to me and treated me as any other. The fourth did not, but the problem is shes stll really good friends with the others and its one of their birthdays next week and this...
  2. xtina_fan81

    why should i be ok with having no friends

    people say to me just think about what you have. i know its my own fault, scrolling through pages and pages of facebook looking at it all and feeling so detatched. but i cant be, it just angers me, its like partly something that can be fixed but as things are right now, its yeah just be ok with...
  3. xtina_fan81

    upset about something thats my own fault

    long story short, i cut contact with these two friends i had because my anxiety was so bad, it was doing my more harm than good every time i met up with them. they're good people, one can be a bit *****y but overall they were fine as friends. so i told them i was doing this, wouldn't be seeing...
  4. xtina_fan81

    why do i treat good people the way i do

    i have a couple of online friends and i just make them feel guilty all the time i have so much bitterness and resentment towards people in general cos of the way ive been treated in the past. im really looking for someone to tell me why i do what i do cos its just beyond me these days. i make...
  5. xtina_fan81

    everyone's different but they can still all talk and be normal

    im just like an alien. i dont know what its like to be like other people, i dont understand what they feel that makes them be able to talk and connect to people, im so far from it. everyone is so different and have various personalities but they can all communicate and have enough confidence to...
  6. xtina_fan81

    ill never be normal again

    i used to be the loudest in a group i had the happiest childhood and only have good memories from primary school then once things started to change and here i am at 22 with this now and i dont even feel like ive grown up from being like 13 because thats when i stopped living. in my mind imeasily...
  7. xtina_fan81

    mixed feelings about moving away

    im moving to university in a couple weeks. and while im excited and been talking to alot of people online who are on my course etc...im just feelin crappy about what im leaving behind, pretty much nothing. im glad im moving on etc but its the same oldstory..everyone else have their existing...
  8. xtina_fan81

    Its all f****d up.!!!

    im sick of feeling like i dont exist to anyone all my "friends" just get on with their lives and im fed up with being left out of eveything. i try with people and make the effort but i get nothing back, theyre all too wrapped up in themselves. they couldnt give two sh*ts about whether they see...
  9. xtina_fan81

    the way i am drunk is like "normal" people sober..

    anyone else realize this? drunk me is relaxed, out-there, can talk to pretty much anyone..but not OTT. just my behavior then ive noticed is like how everyone else is when they havent even had one drink. sometimes i think as well that if i suddenly started acting like they do on a daily...
  10. xtina_fan81

    being able to count howmany words you said in a day

    Does anyone else do this? Maybe not a whole day cause that wld consist of being around my family at some point and I don't have SA around them, but when I meet up with friends or am In a social situation..I think afterwards about how many words I said throughout the whole thing. Or well j think...
  11. xtina_fan81

    Sick of this feeling and being told how I should feel

    People are just winding me the hell up right now. Firstly i'm sick of feeling rejected, I KNOW people treat me different cos I seem different. Yet whenever i've confronted It they say it doer matter to them. OH so that must be why they don't invite and include me like they do with others. I'd...
  12. xtina_fan81

    I f-ing hate me

    i hate what SA has done to me. Its stripped me of everything i can or want to be. Dunno if its harder t have had SA all your life or not, but i havent always had it, i was one of the loudest in my group of friends when i was in primary school, it all changed when i went to secondary (when i was...
  13. xtina_fan81

    The 3rd-person persective?

    I was reading some posts about curing SAD and how it is mainly about defeating the "3rd person" perspective..and i just wondered if anyone who understands that concept could explain it more..or give some examples of situations and what it actually is. Im pretty sure that i do it, but i cant...
  14. xtina_fan81

    i can't start coming out of my shell with people who already see me as "quiet"!

    i can't start coming out of my shell with people who already see me as "quiet"! i find that if i'm with someone i know im going to be spending quite alot of time with...e.g people in a new class or something, i freeze up and cant socialize, and then they class me as the "quiet one".once im...
  15. xtina_fan81

    Is it possible to accept and be happy with our situation??

    So, everyone is telling me that I need to just accept how my life is and think more positively. I'm probably the most subborn person you will ever cone across which I know doesn't help but I'm not at that point where I'm prepared to accept bein rejected ignored and so insignificant to people hat...
  16. xtina_fan81

    comparing yourselfto others/ insane jealousy

    since I have been displaying really intense jealousy of people on facebook recently (you know how i mean), I spoke to one of my online friends about it, and she has actually had similar experiences to me in the past so it has really helped to talk to her about things before. and basically she...
  17. xtina_fan81

    hate when non-sufferers only see one side of life

    last saturday i was supposed to be going out with a couple of friends ( i asked more but only they could make it) and we had arranged it all and then the last minute one of them cant afford what we were going to do because of problems with her car. that alone doesnt bother me, i mean i know...
  18. xtina_fan81

    sick of being a spare part.

    been so f-ing long dealing with the same old thing and im just sick and tired of it. i talk to people, see them occasionally but to them im just an extra. they dont know that i just want to be in on someones life like actively, being involved with everything, talking regularly, NORMAL things...
  19. xtina_fan81

    How would normal people cope....

    if they were suddenly overcome with SA? say, which obvsly wouldnt happen, one day they just woke up with it. I reckon they would crumble. Makes me think how much stronger we probably are compared to them....in some ways..just a sudden thought i had.
  20. xtina_fan81

    I sent a Facebook message to my "friends"..

    about social anxiety because I got so sick of everyones ignorance and especially the few people I considered my "friends" didnt even reply to it. Ive tried to explain it to some people before bcause I came clean telling them I didnt like how they left out and stuff and they just said that they...
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