Its all f****d up.!!!

[xtina_fan81]

im sick of feeling like i dont exist to anyone all my "friends" just get on with their lives and im fed up with being left out of eveything. i try with people and make the effort but i get nothing back, theyre all too wrapped up in themselves. they couldnt give two sh*ts about whether they see me or spend time with me or not and it makes me feel like nothing.i try with people who obvsly dont want me in their life and never talk to me unless i talk to them first. just want to know WHEN im gna find someone whos gonna give back as well as just take. who genuinely wants me in their life. HATE it when people say "we all feel like that sometimes.." NO we dont and they havent because theyve never had these problems with socialising and they DONT GET IT. this hs just been going on so long, IM SICK of trying to get people to pay attention to me. makesme feel stupid but EVERYONE would do the same thing if they were in my position. they dont have to cos they get attention from all their friends and who they want. i shoudnt have to remind people what to do and how to be my friend. there shouldjust be that willingness there and i just want to find somene who has that im fed up with feeling so LONELY ALL THE TIME. im 21 years old and i depend on my parents to do things with me so much cos i wouldnt bother asking anyone else when i know im gonna get excuses and they dont really want to. IM ALWAYS SECOND BEST. imjust an acquaintance to everyone and just another person. theyve all got their groups who they're closest to and im NEVER ONE OF THEM.they have the people they do most things with and im just an EXTRA. WHY dont i deserve more than that?? it SHOULDNt BE LIKE THIS. im just sick of it!!!!

 

[mrb]

lol first calm down ...... second i know life can get you down , third i know life can get pretty harsh sometimes , but dont think the way you feel now is going to be like that for the rest of your life , sa is a battle , a hard one but that doesnt mean you cant overcome it ...... yes you do deserve more than that but the battle is only with yourself .... im 46 this year mate , im nothing like i was when i was 21 , learn to love yourself a little more , learn to be a little more posotive , dont let the negative stuff in your head drag you down .. as i said how you feel now dont mean your going to be like that for the rest of your life mate ..... just keep going , keep trying and dont give up , hey i was pretty ****ed up years ago due to sa , but its 99 per cent better now ... its easy to turn bitter and let it turn inwards and screw you up , harder to fight it , but you can fight it mate , and like me you can beat it its in there find it use it , the power of the mind really can be quite amazing if you want to change your life ..... good luck gazza

 

[Iseesky]

I've been in (and sort still am in) that situation before. It sucks! But, if you try to meet new people (at work, school, at parties...whatever), you WILL eventually bump into someone who cares. Someone who asks you how you are and MEANS IT. Finding a genuine friend is so hard. You'll meet people you think are amazing, and then a few years later you'll find out they've beein decieving you all along. In my opinion, I'd rather be alone than have friends who don't care about you. As you said, you've got your parents. Stick with them until you find others.

 

[EscapeArtist]

Vent away! It's completely ok. I understand where you're coming from, it does ****ing suck! But Drivemycar is right...eventually, if you keep on trying to show your true personality, you WILL meet somebody who really cares about you. Just keep hanging on

 

[zav943]

I've been in (and sort still am in) that situation before. It sucks! But, if you try to meet new people (at work, school, at parties...whatever), you WILL eventually bump into someone who cares. Someone who asks you how you are and MEANS IT. Finding a genuine friend is so hard. You'll meet people you think are amazing, and then a few years later you'll find out they've beein decieving you all along. In my opinion, I'd rather be alone than have friends who don't care about you. As you said, you've got your parents. Stick with them until you find others.

Quoted for the truth...

I made a huge mistake...a year ago, when I had just moved to a new town, I got to know this guy who was very friendly, very VERY helpful and...just looking for a friend.

However, I looked for the flaws in him...he was "too nice"...too religious for my taste...so I blocked him out...and today I beat myself over the head when i remember him. WHY did I not take him in as a friend? I'm an idiot...I've had quite a hard time finding any other friends since him. But the point of this story is: SOMEONE TRIED TO BE MY FRIEND. He didn't care to judge me and sweep me aside...no, he approached me...helped me, emailed me merry xmas, etc...

There ARE good people...they are out there. Keep trying. Every rejection should only make your resolve stronger because the more people you cross off your list, the higher the probability that the next person will be a potential friend. It's just probability.

 

[Fighter86]

Hmm...I have never really belonged in a group, either in school or otherwise so I can't offer much advise as well.