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[BlueDays]

This is getting repetitive but I quit my job... again (gave notice this time though). I'm going to be going to therapy, though. I just can't take anymore - SA was tough before but now it's making my worklife simply unbearable, and if I don't get help now it will never change and what am I going to do, run away from every job five months in?

^You sound like you are beating yourself up about leaving a job that is pushing your mental health to the edge.
That's like someone feeling guilty that they can't ride a bike when they have a broken leg.

You are taking a step in the right direction (trying therapy). Concentrate on getting some ideas that may help for your SA (like letting a broken leg rest while it heals in the plaster) and then you can concentrate on being able to deal with bad work colleagues in any future job, hopefully with an improved mental state. Good luck with this therapy!

^ I love this.

 

[Psychedelicious]

effff work right?

^ I wish I had the courage to quit my god awful part time job right now. Congratulations of being able to do that. I know a job is a job and it's important and all, but ugh these types of customer service jobs are pure hell :/. I believe you said you worked in a coffee shop? I'm just HOPING I get fired from this lingerie store so I don't have to quit, but I desperately need all the money I can get right now. I wish I had the courage to go to therapy too, but it's always felt useless to me, I'm kinda a lose cause in my own mind at this point, heh. 5 months in doesn't sound too bad at me, I usually last a month tops. I've had jobs I've quit after 3 days before.... gah but yeah, it sucks so freaking much. I'd say don't beat yourself up about it at all, it's pretty damn gutsy to be able to start going to therapy.

Sorry I didn't meant to vent too much and make this so long but I HATE my job so freaking much. Every hour I'm there I just want to shoot myself in the head. I literally feel like I'm being tortured there every step of the way. The way the owners run the place is extremely bizarre, I've never encountered a job with such strange rules before. They make you STALK the customers and shove products in their faces at every possible second, which is of course why they have less than a 2 star review online. They also have the most ridiculous rules. You are only allowed to say the word "yes". You have to say yes instead of okay, and if you say yeah instead of yes the the lady who owns the shop yells at you to say YES. It's just weird to me.... You also have to have all of your stuff in a clear ziploc plastic bag, as if you're going to smuggle a bomb in there or something. They were being SO cruel to me the other day I was on the verge of breaking down in a panic and crying in the middle of the store. I was being yelled at and ridiculed. I know I'm not perfect at this by any means but no one deserves to be treated like that.

Sorry that was way too long , but your post just made me relate so much to how much I hate this job I have right now. I don't know how to live with such severe panic and anxiety on a constant basis and maintain something in the customer service field, or ANY field for that matter that has to do with dealing with people. I just.... can't do it. I hope quitting your job and therapy helps you, maybe I could have the courage to that some day too. Right now I just.... don't want this life -_-.

 

[sky_blue]

Not feeling well can't sleep what's new...anyways
I keep having a dream with the same unknown person wonder who it could be?

 

[Aylaa]

I wonder if my neighbours are a bit hard of hearing. If they're not yet, I'm sure they soon will be if they keep playing music this loud.....

 

[Graeme1988]

Family. :kickingmyself:

Am I too much a pessimist ?! I wish I can be as hopeful and optimist as other people are. I am a bundle of contradiction. I agree with most of what they tell me, but I can't let go what I think, feel and fear.

Ah can definitely relate there, Graybeard an' Sping. Especially tae whit you said, Spring. Coz ah'm like that anaw. Wish ah wus mair optimist than pessmist. But ah suppose, fur me, it's doesnae help matter if ma family're always fluctuate between dour, pessimism an' upbeat optimism.

 

[Graeme1988]

I wonder if my neighbours are a bit hard of hearing. If they're not yet, I'm sure they soon will be if they keep playing music this loud.....

Turn bliddy racket doon !

 

[Rawz]

Changing my beliefs about myself and my self-abusive, sabotaging thoughts that are habitual and are used by part of myself as reactions to destroy any motivating, positive, helping thoughts I have is just so friggin hard. But I've got to. I can't really live or accomplish anything the way I am. I have to change or die trying.

 

[Ithior]

My mother still hasn't given my sister a copy of the keys. My sister doesn't live in this country, but when she comes to visit she stays for some weeks. We already had this issue some times before, but my mum still hasn't gotten her the keys. Since I'm the only one home during the day, I have to put on hold certain things because I have to open the door for her and I never know when she'll come back home. I can't do things like showering or sleeping. I wanted to go to sleep right now but apparently I have to stay awake until my sister comes back because she forgot to take my keys. I could have to wait 15 minutes, an hour, two or even 5 hours.

 

[Aylaa]

Turn bliddy racket doon !

:thumbup: I wish I had the guts to go over and say that!
But I'm not even 100% sure where it's coming from, I *think* it's downstairs but I have neighbours on three sides....

 

[springk]

Changing my beliefs about myself and my self-abusive, sabotaging thoughts that are habitual and are used by part of myself as reactions to destroy any motivating, positive, helping thoughts I have is just so friggin hard. But I've got to. I can't really live or accomplish anything the way I am. I have to change or die trying.

I feel is very difficult to do that, very negative thought is so powerful that it takes lot of strength to stand up against it and accept positive thoughts. I hope you are successful in what you are trying to do Rawz.

 

[Hoppy]

I could have to wait 15 minutes, an hour, two or even 5 hours.

That is why mobile phones were invented. Go out and do whatever you want

And if she complain:

"A lack of planning on your part doesn't mean an emergency on my part."

 

[Ithior]

That is why mobile phones were invented. Go out and do whatever you want

And if she complain:

"A lack of planning on your part doesn't mean an emergency on my part."

I kinda did that a few times, but this time I was going to sleep so she would have to wait outside, which is kinda dangerous at night. I texted her saying that I was going to bed and she came home right away. Anyway, she finally went to get her own keys this afternoon so that won't be an issue any more.

 

[PerseverareJasmine]

One of those nights for me where there's too many thoughts running through my head and I can't fall asleep because of it.

 

[Opaline]

I've changed my mind about The Walking Dead. I'm on season 3. It's not a perfectly executed show by any means but in many ways it's still good. I'm really into it right now and am pretty invested in most of the characters. I don't know why some people complain they can't care about the characters - when certain people died I was definitely bothered.

 

[Ithior]

I've changed my mind about The Walking Dead. I'm on season 3. It's not a perfectly executed show by any means but in many ways it's still good. I'm really into it right now and am pretty invested in most of the characters. I don't know why some people complain they can't care about the characters - when certain people died I was definitely bothered.

When you reach season 5 you'll see how repetitive it is.

 

[anomicdeer]

So the person that gabe birth to me brough back the latest person she bad a ridiculous relationship with back and now I smell disgusting cigarette smoke that's going through the vents.

 

[MollyBeGood]

I really am nothing. I can't even get a simple job because they want someone with a driver's license.

I really am nothing.

Maybe try to just get a state ID instead. It works in replacement of a DL for things like flying on an airplane. Unless your job requires you to drive that should be enough.

Sorry you are having such bad luck. Another route would be to volunteer somewhere then from there see if they might hire you. I did this at a library once and got a great job there just from doing that for a spell.

It's one of the worst times in history to find work.:thumbdown:

 

[MollyBeGood]

Re: effff work right?

^ I wish I had the courage to quit my god awful part time job right now. Congratulations of being able to do that. I know a job is a job and it's important and all, but ugh these types of customer service jobs are pure hell :/. I believe you said you worked in a coffee shop? I'm just HOPING I get fired from this lingerie store so I don't have to quit, but I desperately need all the money I can get right now. I wish I had the courage to go to therapy too, but it's always felt useless to me, I'm kinda a lose cause in my own mind at this point, heh. 5 months in doesn't sound too bad at me, I usually last a month tops. I've had jobs I've quit after 3 days before.... gah but yeah, it sucks so freaking much. I'd say don't beat yourself up about it at all, it's pretty damn gutsy to be able to start going to therapy.

Sorry I didn't meant to vent too much and make this so long but I HATE my job so freaking much. Every hour I'm there I just want to shoot myself in the head. I literally feel like I'm being tortured there every step of the way. The way the owners run the place is extremely bizarre, I've never encountered a job with such strange rules before. They make you STALK the customers and shove products in their faces at every possible second, which is of course why they have less than a 2 star review online. They also have the most ridiculous rules. You are only allowed to say the word "yes". You have to say yes instead of okay, and if you say yeah instead of yes the the lady who owns the shop yells at you to say YES. It's just weird to me.... You also have to have all of your stuff in a clear ziploc plastic bag, as if you're going to smuggle a bomb in there or something. They were being SO cruel to me the other day I was on the verge of breaking down in a panic and crying in the middle of the store. I was being yelled at and ridiculed. I know I'm not perfect at this by any means but no one deserves to be treated like that.

Sorry that was way too long , but your post just made me relate so much to how much I hate this job I have right now. I don't know how to live with such severe panic and anxiety on a constant basis and maintain something in the customer service field, or ANY field for that matter that has to do with dealing with people. I just.... can't do it. I hope quitting your job and therapy helps you, maybe I could have the courage to that some day too. Right now I just.... don't want this life -_-.

That sounds horrible! I had a boss that was the same with my grammar-I could not say "Yeah" had to say "Yes" too. Also a retail job. What a silly Nazi. People are always looking for ways to control their employees. They get into a power position and they use it for all it's worth. I put her in her place the first day on the job (told her she needed to go home and take her meds) and she actually seemed to respect me more for it. I was surprised she didn't fire me haha I am sure that is what I wanted...though I too needed the job so badly.

 

[BlackPuma]

Prolonged self-pity is a incredibly destructive thing. If there's one thing that I see is constant amongst people that are unhappy, that have plenty of means not to be, it's copious amounts of self-pity. Whenever I see it I'm so inclined to just never complain again. Self indulgence is just not worth the cost.

 

[Odo]

I have been in the library for over an hour and someone has been listening to the same 30seconds of an absolutely godawful hiphop song over and over the whole time. I have no idea if he is the artist working on it, if he simply likes the song way too much, or if he's insane. There seem to be silences between listens, so I don't know.