Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

[Merel]

For the past decade or so, I've been lost on how to invite people places or make plans, and I relied on other people to do it for me. While I was in college, it was easy enough to let relationships evolve on their own organically, but now I can't initiate or I feel desperate. I'm not sure if I have no friends because people don't like me or because my self-isolation turns them away. Even if I did have friends, I crave being alone so much I'm not sure how long they would put up with me.

 

[Kiwong]

Sometimes I think the internet is a great thing, I am more in contact with family and other friends than I have ever been, through reaching out on facebook, blogs and forums, I have felt less alone.

 

[Graeme1988]

I see other people having conversations, being social and getting along great and think how I never really experience that much. and it kind of emphasizes (to me) how I am not fitting in. if it happens, its very fleeting and seems more of a fluke that I somehow inspired a conversation. this isn't that much of a big deal, I don't mind that I am different but its a strange situation I find myself in. it feels like I am always an observer of so******ing and never really a partaker, like there is always an invisible barrier there,which means for whatever reason I can't join in, I don't know how often other people get this. a feeling that everything is off limits.

Ah've hud that feelin' for most of ma life. Ah've kinda got used tae it, and accepted masel' how ah um.

 

[singing-love]

Couldn't have asked for a better ending for Christmas then having my six year old cousin crawl into my bed and have me sing songs to her until she fell asleep. Beautiful.

 

[sky_blue]

Feeling a little annoyed at the moment I wish I could get a good job for Christmas this year..

 

[S_Spartan]

Ain't gonna lie. I'm relieved that this holiday is almost over. These days Christmas is depressing on so many levels for me.
In other news, I got nothing left to give the world, I am but a husk blowing in the wind!

 

[Ithior]

Ain't gonna lie. I'm relieved that this holiday is almost over.

Me too, but probably not for the same reasons. The holidays means I'm out of the house most of the time, which I don't like. I like being alone in the comfort of my room, preferably with not many people in the rest of the house. Since last Thursday the only day where I didn't have to go out for over 4 hours was Tuesday and now today.

 

[Opaline]

There's a possibility I may be moving to Utah with my sister and her boyfriend this summer. I suppose it may seem weird for me to live with my sister and her BOYFRIEND, but they don't mind and I don't really care what anyone thinks of it - I'm desperate to get out of my family's home and out of New England (tired of the weather and the cost!). Plus living with my sister in our own apartment would be really fun. Her boyfriend is a great guy and the three of us would get along well from what I can tell. The place would always be clean and cozy and full of good homemade food and laughter

Kind of crazy but my other sister is also possibly joining in with her friend as a roommate, so it may end up being five of us out there together. A challenge, but we're all cool people At least I wouldn't be living with a bunch of people I don't know, that's far more awkward and challenging. I hope it works out.

 

[AGR]

Recently someone introduced me in a really funny way,like this:
This is AGR he can catch a lot of fish( I have gotten into angling recently as a hobby),but he cant catch any girls!

I burst out laughing,I should be angry or something,but it was really funny and amusing.

 

[Ithior]

Apparently portuguese people are poorer now than they were 40 years ago, back when this was a dictatorship. According to my dad the only bad thing back then was the lack of political freedom, but with the way politics is nowadays I don't know if that was such a bad thing.

 

[Mey]

I feel good, sleepy and a little bored.
Reading your comments...

 

[Mey]

Now I'm thinking what did the earth look like one hundred and twenty thousand years ago!...

 

[MikeyC]

Now I'm thinking what did the earth look like one hundred and twenty thousand years ago!...

Interesting thoughts. It would've looked far different to what it does today, that's for sure. Less humans, no cities, different flora and fauna.

I sometimes wonder what the Earth was exactly like 65 million years ago. I would love to go into a time machine and go back, just to have a look.

 

[Opaline]

I'm holding back tears on the train. Work today felt traumatic in many ways. I was so ready to psyche myself up to ask one of my coworkers not to speak to me a certain way, but my fear of the possible gossip backlash stopped me and I feel degraded and like a doormat. That was only one incident.

It doesn't solve anything but just posting it here somehow makes me feel a tiny bit comforted.

 

[MikeyC]

I'm holding back tears on the train. Work today felt traumatic in many ways. I was so ready to psyche myself up to ask one of my coworkers not to speak to me a certain way, but my fear of the possible gossip backlash stopped me and I feel degraded and like a doormat. That was only one incident.

It doesn't solve anything but just posting it here somehow makes me feel a tiny bit comforted.

You did good. It's hard to break that threshold and confront someone, but once you do it once, it'll get easier again, and they may even apologise for their actions. Go home and look after yourself for the evening.

 

[JuiceB]

Hugging a bottle of Ciroc, my only friend.

 

[Opaline]

You did good. It's hard to break that threshold and confront someone, but once you do it once, it'll get easier again, and they may even apologise for their actions. Go home and look after yourself for the evening.

Thanks. I didn't actually confront her though. I have confronted people before and I've never found it to get any easier. I'm planning on making an appointment this Monday to go to my school's mental health services, so hopefully I can get started on actually beginning to treat my social anxiety.

I hope you're well Mikwy.

 

[squidgee]

Interesting thoughts. It would've looked far different to what it does today, that's for sure. Less humans, no cities, different flora and fauna.

I sometimes wonder what the Earth was exactly like 65 million years ago. I would love to go into a time machine and go back, just to have a look.

For some reason, I've always imagined going back to say the 1800s and showing off all the cool technology we have nowadays just to see people's reactions back then.

 

[MikeyC]

Thanks. I didn't actually confront her though. I have confronted people before and I've never found it to get any easier. I'm planning on making an appointment this Monday to go to my school's mental health services, so hopefully I can get started on actually beginning to treat my social anxiety.

I hope you're well Mikwy.

It probably will take a long time before it becomes a part of your natural reaction. You also have to give yourself some worth, too - it's harder to defend yourself if you feel you don't deserve defending. I hope you can use the school's mental health services. Talking to someone about these issues face-to-face is a really good idea and it might give you some insight about things.

I don't know who "Mikwy" is, but I'm doing very well, thank you. ::

For some reason, I've always imagined going back to say the 1800s and showing off all the cool technology we have nowadays just to see people's reactions back then.

That would be very cool! Movies don't really show much about that, to be honest, and that wouldn't be a proper representation, anyway.

I'd show them death metal. They'd love it.

 

[MollyBeGood]

I did it!

I'm sponsoring a 10-year-old boy in Zambia. Payments start on the 28th and will continue every month until I stop them.

I'm happy to be making a positive difference in someone's life who doesn't have the basic amenities that I take for granted as an Australian.

Aww that's awesome!!!

Can you adopt me?