For the past decade or so, I've been lost on how to invite people places or make plans, and I relied on other people to do it for me. While I was in college, it was easy enough to let relationships evolve on their own organically, but now I can't initiate or I feel desperate. I'm not sure if I have no friends because people don't like me or because my self-isolation turns them away. Even if I did have friends, I crave being alone so much I'm not sure how long they would put up with me.