It probably will take a long time before it becomes a part of your natural reaction. You also have to give yourself some worth, too - it's harder to defend yourself if you feel you don't deserve defending. I hope you can use the school's mental health services. Talking to someone about these issues face-to-face is a really good idea and it might give you some insight about things. 🙂
I don't know who "Mikwy" is, but I'm doing very well, thank you. :😛:
Today that same coworker seemed to be talking to me like that again, so without even thinking about it I snapped at her to ask her to stop talking to me that way. I probably could have been more calm and direct about it but anxiety revs up my confrontations to all or nothing on my end, which can be disastrous. Better to be calmly assertive than borderline aggressive and emotional. Le sigh. Point is I said something... right?
She responded by downplaying it, saying she wasn't talking to me like I was stupid and she didn't know why I was getting so upset. I felt slightly guilty after and awkward and my anxiety got worse, as is the usual result. But I was glad I spoke up. It took a lot out of me and I have 3 more hours here (currently on break) and my anxiety is still through the roof. But I would have felt worse if I hadn't said anything.
I don't want to go out late on New Year's Eve, I had a really bad time last year. Besides, I'm starting a new schedule today and going out on NYE would change my sleep cycle too much. I don't really see the point in celebrating New Year's anyway, and just taking it as a night out makes me want to go out even less.
The only problem is that everyone will complain, I'm young and thus I'm supposed to go out at night as often as I can and get drunk and laid, especially on NYE.
Today that same coworker seemed to be talking to me like that again, so without even thinking about it I snapped at her to ask her to stop talking to me that way. I probably could have been more calm and direct about it but anxiety revs up my confrontations to all or nothing on my end, which can be disastrous. Better to be calmly assertive than borderline aggressive and emotional. Le sigh. Point is I said something... right?
She responded by downplaying it, saying she wasn't talking to me like I was stupid and she didn't know why I was getting so upset. I felt slightly guilty after and awkward and my anxiety got worse, as is the usual result. But I was glad I spoke up. It took a lot out of me and I have 3 more hours here (currently on break) and my anxiety is still through the roof. But I would have felt worse if I hadn't said anything.
I know this was a long post sorry 😛
You said something and that's all you need. She now knows and you shouldn't feel guilty for standing up for yourself. How did the rest of the shift go?
It felt awkward because of the extremely extroverted coworker I had to work with (has a very very strong personality) but nothing terrible happened so I'm thankful haha.
Fell asleep on the couch in my clothes last night and slept all night like that. Kind of icky but I was soooooo wiped out. I didn't even get woken up by my younger siblings talking and whatnot, and I'm usually a very light sleeper.
Actually all the problems that I thought were from my mum drinking might be from medication. I looked at the side effects of pills she takes (though I'm not sure how often nor when during the day) and one of them matched her symptoms perfectly. Now I have to bring the subject up without her getting mad (because she thinks there's nothing wrong with her) and see if it fits with the hours at which these symptoms come up.
Actually all the problems that I thought were from my mum drinking might be from medication. I looked at the side effects of pills she takes (though I'm not sure how often nor when during the day) and one of them matched her symptoms perfectly. Now I have to bring the subject up without her getting mad (because she thinks there's nothing wrong with her) and see if it fits with the hours at which these symptoms come up.
I managed to not make her mad, but the hours at which she takes them don't seem to coincide with the hours at which the symptoms show up. She said she takes them around lunch (1pm), which wouldn't probably trigger secondary effects after dinner (8pm). Still, she said she takes them later than that sometimes, so I asked her to write down the hour after taking one, to see if it makes sense. If the pills aren't the cause she'll have to go to the doctor, which will be a hard task to accomplish.
I feel rather frustrated that my youngest cousin (she's currently 6) would come up and sit on my lap crying that she's not beautiful and she's fat. What's the world coming to when a child believes this about herself and she sees this. It's awful.
I absolutely love snow and cold weather....but it can be really inconvenient when you want to go out and do stuff.:sad:
I was looking forward to going out and doing something with a couple friends on new years eve but the recent snow and below zero temperature will probably keep me from doing anything.
With the current forecast it'll probably only get worse.
This sucks :crying:
Today that same coworker seemed to be talking to me like that again, so without even thinking about it I snapped at her to ask her to stop talking to me that way. I probably could have been more calm and direct about it but anxiety revs up my confrontations to all or nothing on my end, which can be disastrous. Better to be calmly assertive than borderline aggressive and emotional. Le sigh. Point is I said something... right?
She responded by downplaying it, saying she wasn't talking to me like I was stupid and she didn't know why I was getting so upset. I felt slightly guilty after and awkward and my anxiety got worse, as is the usual result. But I was glad I spoke up. It took a lot out of me and I have 3 more hours here (currently on break) and my anxiety is still through the roof. But I would have felt worse if I hadn't said anything.
I feel rather frustrated that my youngest cousin (she's currently 6) would come up and sit on my lap crying that she's not beautiful and she's fat. What's the world coming to when a child believes this about herself and she sees this. It's awful.
The same world that thinks "fat-shaming" is helping obesity even when studies show it makes it worse. Some people are just wretches, and others are just puppets on strings.
getting fed up with society, full of nasty people projecting their own issues out on to other people making things personal with people when there was no reason to in the first place. it seems like all some social places serve as is a place for others to take all their baggage out on other people, it creates a nasty atmosphere and isn't a place I want to be around in.
It's ****ing below zero here and these mother****ers that live behind me are just leaving their dog outside.
It's been screaming/crying for at least the past hour.
It's ****ing below zero here and these mother****ers that live behind me are just leaving their dog outside.
It's been screaming/crying for at least the past hour.
...I'm about to go kick in some teeth.
That's disgusting. Is there maybe an animal protection number you can call to tip them about these events so that you don't get in trouble yourself?
Last day of 2014 nearly half-way through in Australia. This year has been one of the best of my entire life. It hasn't been perfect, but overall I have achieved more this year than I have in pretty much any other year to date.
I can't wait for 2015. I'm only just getting warmed up.
I hope everyone has a wonderful new year and that 2015 brings you all that you ever wanted. 🙂
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