GraybeardGhost
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End of the line.
Want an online friend? :: I don't friends you can do stuff with face to face is much better, but hey.
Do you do any weight lifting at the gym?
wow, so many doors have slammed shut in my face this year :/
Try to stay positive, though I know this is a massive challenge, and look forward to a new year with Open Doors.
I hate this.
Life is all about energy. We all know that for physical energy we must eat food.
But what about emotional energy? I'm becoming more convinced that we cannot just create emotional energy from within ourselves.
But where does it come from? Unlike food it is intangible.
I believe it comes from other people. Either by them giving it to you or you taking it from them.
Could also come from being part of a collective group of people.
But popular opinion is that you must find this energy within yourself. It's getting harder for me to believe this.
I'm beginning to see the transactional nature of human relationships. The transfers of energy and why high energy people are so attractive which only serves to boost their energy even more.
Just some stuff I've been thinking about.
But I am not sure if all that energy can only be taken or given from outside. I mean if I give then there must be the creation of that energy from within. And so I do believe that , inner emotional energy is something that is necessary. It comes when I contemplate or when I enjoy my being or I dunno whenever I feel connected with myself. Sorry if whatever I wrote is entirely off topic from what you said.
I don't get people that can post works in progress without feeling cripplingly self concious about it. To just put it out there with all it's imperfections and rough edges. Whenever I've done so in the past it just served to gnaw on my confidence.
They must be so brave, I kind of admire that.
I've done this before with game design stuff, but maybe it's different with art art, like you do.
You can see if someone has tried before some part of what you're attempting, and generally the feedback is useful. There's always a lurking minority of people who simply want to put you down in order to feel better about themselves but it's usually pretty obvious what they're doing when they do it.
hmmmm...you raise an interesting point. You have given me something to think about here.
I guess the only counter I can come up with is that my body cannot produce it's own food so why do we expect people to feed themselves emotionally from within?
You know that old saying "you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you"? I'm having serious doubts about that. Mainly because I've never really seen it in action or had it described in a coherent way.
All examples of self love I have seen seem to be covert attempts at gaining external validation(energy transfer).
They never really say what (real)self love is or what it feels like. Yet there are countless songs and books written all about what external love feels like.
hmmm...now I'm gonna do more thinking..
I don't know, many a times the physical world or senses is seen as illusion, something that binds us with suffering because we are too attached to our desires, physical as well as emotional. So removing ourselves from this need to remain attached is seen as a source of well being.
You do have a point, and I am not sure what to say.
As for the self love thing and "you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you"..i don't understand the saying either. Only thing I can say is if you don't value yourself or are hateful about yourself, other people will no value you because they will see you as weak person without much self esteem. They will have sympathy for you, may be not love. Though its not universal thing or anything, just how someone people will see you. There will be others who will love you no matter what I think.
I don't accept others looking down on me-I keep them out of my life.