I found myself trying to look decent just to go send the trash to the dump just in case that person was there. Why? I didn't think much about it. That person wasn't even there. I didn't think much about it.
I can't remember how long ago it was but within a week later (possibly the next day even) I saw the trash guy. I just so happen to be walking in the same isle as he was in at the grocery store and he recognized me. I looked at him and realized who he is and said " oh hey!".
My social skills and confidence is improving.
He always ask how was my weekend or something like that even though we never see each other and it's the middle of the week. I was happy to see him for whatever reason. I think he's attractive but it doesn't matter what I think. I'm too messed up and there is no way he isn't married. I didn't look at his fingers. I didn't notice anything there, whether there is or not. Why do I care? He said he likes my hair...
I had a different color before and I cut it to my shoulders.
Now that he said that to me, I'm catching feelings. But what about before that when I wanted to look nice before seeing him, if he was at work?
I went to dump the trash again a few days after seeing him in the store. Again, he wasn't there. Dammit. Why do I miss him?
I'm too lonely. I have no friends. He's so friendly and always want to talk. I need to socialize. I need the attention. I'm sure that's all it is. I need human interaction.