bleh
So I'm starting out some part time minimum wage retail job tomorrow. I literally walked in yesterday after seeing a help wanted sign, filled out an application and went in for an hour of "training" today. There was no interview or anything, thank god for that. I don't have the job yet and I'm never optimistic so I don't know what will become of this, but I'm incredibly nervous. I'm starting out by just working 3 hours tomorrow to see how I do. At the very least I'll make a few dollars I guess. I just remember that I /hate/ customer service, and that I SUCK at talking to customers and am a complete awkward weirdo. Obviously those aren't exactly the ideal qualities of working in this type of industry. I need to learn how to efficiently act fake and friendly. I know it's going to suck, but it'd only be part time and at least give me something to do and a little extra money while I'm in this stupid 'transition' period or whatever.
Maybe this shitty minimum wage job could be some good motivation to go back to school to get a four year degree instead of just my two year one. I just haven't figured out WHAT to go back for yet. I'll also be starting yoga teacher training beginning some time next year so hopefully that'll give me something to do to as at least a side job in the future. This nothingness is just NOT working for me anymore. I need a car, I need a job, I need a life. I don't want to be this loser forever, I'm sick of it. I'm still super super nervous though. I hope I can get this job so I can make a little extra money, but the demon of anxiety seems to always overpower all for me.