Ooh! Kinda like geo tracking except with plants? Cool :thumbup:
How are you feeling?
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Ooh! Kinda like geo tracking except with plants? Cool :thumbup:
Feeling a little crazy now. I was so productive earlier today which I'm very proud of myself for. But now, I'm getting negative thoughts and I think i imagine people getting angry at me for them. THat's nuts right? I mean, I will never say these thoughts out loud to anyone. I don't do imaginary friends or playdates anymore. I need to get out of my mind ASAP and be more productive! Again, I have to remind myself that I need to get a job ASAP, my family needs me, I want to see my friends again, I want to travel the world eventually, I need to pay bills and loans for myself and my family, get my family the care they need, be a good person, etc.
Kiwong
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Yeah, something like that, the records go into the parks database, to help with management. I also take photos for the book I hope to finish one day.
springk
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springk
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I am feeling a lot of emotions , many that are often with me. Like this strange feeling of "thinking all the time". I spend almost all of my time alone. This gives me plenty of time to think and feel. I am in my late twenties. This is a point I guess where many people are sure about their life and what they will do in future. This is the time when most of the people are well settled. I don't know anyone like me who has spent a major portion of life thinking and deciding. I cannot figure out things. Surely I can't do this alone. I thought I may find my answers but I am beginning to feel that it is a difficult almost impossible task.
I would like to talk to any person who would just tell me what to do. I tried talking to few people but I guess I am too complicated for them. I can never open up, there so many things about me I am ashamed of and I keep trying to fight the urge of self pity. I try so hard to be strong. I think that is not a natural quality in me. I don't know what exactly I am saying here but I think I am trying to write whatever is on my mind right now. There are many things that will take a whole lot of space here and is not worth reading. So, the end .This is a bit of how I am feeling.
I would like to talk to any person who would just tell me what to do. I tried talking to few people but I guess I am too complicated for them. I can never open up, there so many things about me I am ashamed of and I keep trying to fight the urge of self pity. I try so hard to be strong. I think that is not a natural quality in me. I don't know what exactly I am saying here but I think I am trying to write whatever is on my mind right now. There are many things that will take a whole lot of space here and is not worth reading. So, the end .This is a bit of how I am feeling.
shyflower
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I have had so many different things racing through my mind this week and with all of the terrible things I have had to deal with too.. I have a summer cold.. I started having bouts of tachycardia.. something I have not had in years. That crazy guy has upset me and so have the ways my so-called friends have acted.. I really have no guilt for forgetting about all of those people.. on the brighter side there are always better people in the world to be around... and better people to talk to.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Sorry yer no' feelin' great at the moment, shy. But I'm glad yer seein' the bright side of gittin' rid uh people who huv treat ye badly or unfairly. Mibbe it's fur the best not bein' around 'em?
Anyway, hope ye feel better soon. :thumbup:
springk
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I have decided to write everyday. It is like a personal diary/journal that I will write everyday preferably at the end of my day. I have attempted it a few times earlier but never continued. I would write few days and abandon it. This time it is going to be different.
I feel more calm when I write things down.
Today was not the kind of day I planned but I will try again tommorrow to organize my daily routine. I am again feeling quite lonely and restless . I have checked out all my daily visited sites
and no one seems online. I think I will walk a bit or close my eyes and try to listen to music perhaps.
The thing that is bothering me most at this point of time is that I don't know what I want to do with my life!
I feel more calm when I write things down.
Today was not the kind of day I planned but I will try again tommorrow to organize my daily routine. I am again feeling quite lonely and restless . I have checked out all my daily visited sites
and no one seems online. I think I will walk a bit or close my eyes and try to listen to music perhaps.The thing that is bothering me most at this point of time is that I don't know what I want to do with my life!
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
I have decided to write everyday. It is like a personal diary/journal that I will write everyday preferably at the end of my day. I have attempted it a few times earlier but never continued. I would write few days and abandon it. This time it is going to be different.
I feel more calm when I write things down.
Today was not the kind of day I planned but I will try again tommorrow to organize my daily routine. I am again feeling quite lonely and restless . I have checked out all my daily visited sites
Guid idea. Writin' can be quite cathartic, sometimes. Ah huv'nae wrote much lately masel'. Kinda feel like ah've got nuthin' tae say half the time. :idontknow: Definitely give the writin' a go.
Aye, ah cun relate there, spring. Ah've kinda been feelin' that way fur quite a while noo. Anyway, hope ye feel better soon, eh? :thumbup:
shyflower
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Even though I have kept myself occupied today.. I am still thinking the worse about things.. I'm afraid something bad is going to happen again.. been on a streak of some very nasty luck with everything. When will my luck change, I am trying to steer it in a better direction but no matter how much I try it doesn't seem to go onto a path of good luck... raying: Please let something get better!
raying: Please let something get better!I don't know if I should go to TM today. I feel very bad and down.
I don't know what I've turned into. I've turned into a monster.
I did some spiritual heart purification today. My heart was hard, but now it has softened a lot. I don't regret it. I revealed my flaws and got punished for it. I fell down. Now, I just need to get back up and move on with my life. No more spacing out, I hope.
I wonder if I should quit my volunteer work. I need to find some successors first. Now that I've found them, I think I could call it quits? or wait until later, after my successors have settled in?
I don't know what I've turned into. I've turned into a monster.
I did some spiritual heart purification today. My heart was hard, but now it has softened a lot. I don't regret it. I revealed my flaws and got punished for it. I fell down. Now, I just need to get back up and move on with my life. No more spacing out, I hope.
I wonder if I should quit my volunteer work. I need to find some successors first. Now that I've found them, I think I could call it quits? or wait until later, after my successors have settled in?
Kiwong
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Yesterday, I went into a podiatrist, my orthotics have disintegrated. I got talking to the receptionist, she was a runner and really friendly. My anxiety kicked in, and I am sure by the end of the conversation she and the other receptionist noticed. Next week I have to go back for an appointment, now I am nervous.
I've bought a silver pair of ray ban glasses, I feel like wearing them all the time, to hide my eyes from the world.
I've bought a silver pair of ray ban glasses, I feel like wearing them all the time, to hide my eyes from the world.
I hope they can fix you. I love my ray bans :beer:
GraybeardGhost
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I don't want to live anymore, not in this body, not in this world. Enough already.
Do you wanna talk?
MikeyC
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I got a new job. :applause:
I'm now a traffic controller, after months of deliberation and procrastination. I basically walked in and gave them my resume, and they hired me on the spot. I have a kit bag full of hi-vis clothes that I'll wear when on the job.
Only trouble is that it's casual, so I'll only get work when they call me. I haven't received my first shift yet but the lady told me it'll be one to two weeks before I get a call, so not to worry.
The good thing is that they'll work around my uni schedule, too.
I think I've hit the jackpot. I'm so excited! (And nervous....)
I'm now a traffic controller, after months of deliberation and procrastination. I basically walked in and gave them my resume, and they hired me on the spot. I have a kit bag full of hi-vis clothes that I'll wear when on the job.
Only trouble is that it's casual, so I'll only get work when they call me. I haven't received my first shift yet but the lady told me it'll be one to two weeks before I get a call, so not to worry.
The good thing is that they'll work around my uni schedule, too.
I think I've hit the jackpot. I'm so excited! (And nervous....)