Tired. Not sure how I feel about my job yet. I mean, it's a total hot mess where I'm working no thanks to COVID, but still. Management could be better. Rather, my manager could be better. I don't know how I feel about her yet either. Her training is either, explain simple things thoroughly but only have me do one simple task and not direct me when I'm done with said task or throw harder jobs at me and not explain a thing, or explain it in a way that can't be understood well because you leave out details. I experienced the latter today. Good thing I have prior experience tracking numbers and such in production settings because having that knowledge saved my ass. She came in at the latter half of the production after leaving for over an hour to help finish after my other coworker left, then nearly made me panic after she screwed up her own count because she missed a few products that I had already finished.
I noticed this with her too, she seems to screw up counts or numbers recorded with production, which I'm assuming is due to just carelessness. Hopefully once I'm all trained I'll be leading productions with my other coworker while she can go back to doing the business side of things. The control freak in me is itching for that.
But until then, I just stand back, do what needs to be done, and keep my mouth shut.
I'm at least liking the physical work. It's nice to move around a lot throughout the day vs sitting or standing at a desk in front of a screen the entire day.
I guess as long as you don't let him poop on the dead 
My depression seems to be getting the better of me. Though, not having my own routine around the house like I used does'nae help. Everything's got to be dictated by my mother and siblings, and I'm not allowed to disagree or else I'm a selfish b@$%@#*. The only time ah seem to have any control over my life or decision is when I'm being creative. But then that's the only time my problems seems to disappear, when I'm playing my electric guitar or keyboard. What a sad feckin' life, eh?
