How are you feeling?

[Marc7]

Feeling like I messed up badly, happy and nervous.

 

[defiance]

It scares me to know I will be alive to see another day. I know what that day has in store for me as it has had the same plan every single day for a very long time. I'm scared....I don't want to endure the pain that tomorrow has in store for me. I am just scared:sad:.

 

[Graeme1988]

I'm feeling a bit better than the past few days, so at least that's summit.

Had a right embarrassin' moment today, at least from my perspective. When out shopping with my sister today, actually left the house, went to my local Tesco store as needed a new shaving razor.

I walk in, passed an aisle where one of shelf-stackers wus standing - this short, slightly chubby, blonde-haired lassie. I smile at her and say hello, then as we're walking to next aisle, my sister starts whispering in ma ear that she wus eyeing me up. mg: :shyness:

I know, I'm not bad looking - just deeply insecure. But for goodness sake, why do my family have tease me everytime some lassie is obviously checking me out. :idontknow: Is it just because I happen to the youngest of the family?

 

[Graeme1988]

Don't know if I should be slight concerned that I've yet to get word as to when my next hospital checkup will be? :question: Not that I'm worried about it per say, just that I've usually got a letter through the post telling me when my appointment is by now.

 

[Graeme1988]

Feeling quite bored today, and ah don't feel like doing much.

So I'm just going to huv a lazy day and listen to some Faith No More albums for the rest of the day.

 

[defiance]

Feeling ready to go. Too much pain I cannot deal with. If I were truly a man, I could deal with these issues but sadly I am only a scared child. I look forward to nighttime because there is a chance I could sleep and not wake up and be done with this. That way I don't have to do the dirty work myself and I still get what I want.

 

[theslowesthand]

Feeling ready to go. Too much pain I cannot deal with. If I were truly a man, I could deal with these issues but sadly I am only a scared child. I look forward to nighttime because there is a chance I could sleep and not wake up and be done with this. That way I don't have to do the dirty work myself and I still get what I want.

Are you having any breaks from your problems? Everyone needs breaks. What about trying guided meditation? That can work for depression also, if that's what you have. I listen to audio's off the web most days. They help me.

 

[Graeme1988]

Like there's no point being alive anymore. :sad: I constantly feel held back, like there's a huge weight upon my shoulders. Like I've gotta live up to expectations be how ma family want me to be. And I've pretty failed them in that regard. :sad: They'd better off without me burdening them to be honest.

 

[Gunther]

I dont feel like going to school let alone college

 

[Kiwong]

I am working on a dream to live in solitude, save for a connection to family. To put behind me, the anger of small town strangers. To travel and explore without the burden of having to return to a town I dislike, to be free of people.

 

[dannyboy65]

I feel like crap. I am stressed out from school, I am also starting to get sick which never happens. I have a terrible headache, my nose is stuffy, my throat hurts, and now I am getting body aches and shivers. I can't afford to miss school especially tomorrow cause I need to go tomorrow to pass and I'm having enough troubles staying awake.

 

[defiance]

Are you having any breaks from your problems? Everyone needs breaks. What about trying guided meditation? That can work for depression also, if that's what you have. I listen to audio's off the web most days. They help me.

Well meditation was something I practiced for a while and unfortunately it didn't give me what I needed. On rare and I do mean rare occasions it helped for a few hours but that hasn't happened for a while. I will more than likely try it again as I have nothing to lose by doing so. Man it's just....when you know how your day is going to play out and you know it won't play out in a good way, you just don't want to see tomorrow arrive. I am open to the idea that a new day can bring with it some great things...but well....I am still waiting for that day to arrive because as it stands the only thing the following day brings is what it had the day before and so on....just sadness, pain, stress and a few other of its friends. I am more than ready for the day where something positive happens that changes my life for the better.

 

[Klara]

Im too socially anxious to even type here, i dont know how you even find the energy to write here,

 

[Graeme1988]

Im too socially anxious to even type here, i dont know how you even find the energy to write here,

Well, it depend on whether you feel like sharing something. Be it, have a moaning about summit that's bothering ye. Or mibbe sharing an experience you've had, recently that was either good or bad.

But don't feel socially anxious to post here, I know easier said than done. :thumbup: Some here might be able to relate to how yer feeling?

No pressure, like, just saying it's not as daunting as it seems.

 

[Marc7]

Like there's no point being alive anymore. :sad: I constantly feel held back, like there's a huge weight upon my shoulders. Like I've gotta live up to expectations be how ma family want me to be. And I've pretty failed them in that regard. :sad: They'd better off without me burdening them to be honest.

I'm sorry but did you read my post regarding this and why I feel this way?

Also I tried to contact you through chat and pm. Idk if you got it or not.

 

[Hot_Tamale]

Im too socially anxious to even type here, i dont know how you even find the energy to write here,

I suggest starting small, set a goal for yourself to type one more sentence than last week or something. Its so difficult to jump from just writing sentences to writing paragraphs, that's not the right pressure to put on yourself.

 

[Graeme1988]

I'm sorry but did you read my post regarding this and why I feel this way?

If it was a reply one of my posts, it'll be on the previous page. But I'll go back n' read it.

Been feeling quite low, lately. No energery to do much, if anything. Just feeling knackered.

Yet I've got many things to look forward to, certainly, but my enthusiasm isn't there like it once was. Even the thought of rediscovery my love of playing a musicial instrument has me kinda doubting myself. But that might be due to the fact my depression made me quit learning the guitar? :idontknow:

Also, feeling like a failure to my family generally speaking, since I haven't exactly made anything of myself or do anything to give them a sense of pride in me, y'know? :sad:

 

[Graeme1988]

Also I tried to contact you through chat and pm. Idk if you got it or not.

When? Recently you mean? Chat tends to be a bit hit and miss at my end, due to my internet connection not being that great. And, as for PMs, my inbox is full so I might not haven't got your message if you sent it recently.

 

[Marc7]

If it was a reply one of my posts, it'll be on the previous page. But I'll go back n' read it.

Been feeling quite low, lately. No energery to do much, if anything. Just feeling knackered.

Yet I've got many things to look forward to, certainly, but my enthusiasm isn't there like it once was. Even the thought of rediscovery my love of playing a musicial instrument has me kinda doubting myself. But that might be due to the fact my depression made me quit learning the guitar? :idontknow:

Also, feeling like a failure to my family generally speaking, since I haven't exactly made anything of myself or do anything to give them a sense of pride in me, y'know? :sad:

I feel unmotivated to do anything for a few years now.

Maybe you should give a try again. Maybe play a few notes.

I feel the same way like I'm a failure to my family because of not making anything of myself like the rest of my family including extended.

But please don't kill yourself!! I think you're a good person to have conversations with.

When? Recently you mean? Chat tends to be a bit hit and miss at my end, due to my internet connection not being that great. And, as for PMs, my inbox is full so I might not haven't got your message if you sent it recently.

Well the chat message was in October and the private message was in July. But the visitor message which I also sent was in September in case your wondering.

 

[theslowesthand]

Well meditation was something I practiced for a while and unfortunately it didn't give me what I needed. On rare and I do mean rare occasions it helped for a few hours but that hasn't happened for a while. I will more than likely try it again as I have nothing to lose by doing so. Man it's just....when you know how your day is going to play out and you know it won't play out in a good way, you just don't want to see tomorrow arrive. I am open to the idea that a new day can bring with it some great things...but well....I am still waiting for that day to arrive because as it stands the only thing the following day brings is what it had the day before and so on....just sadness, pain, stress and a few other of its friends. I am more than ready for the day where something positive happens that changes my life for the better

Or not even meditation, but anything that gets your mind off your problems for a while, ie sth relaxing.
Generally speaking, if nothing changes then nothing changes. Ie you need to at least "sow the seed" of sth new, for any positive stuff to happen. Else if you're just waiting for positive things to happen at random, you could be in for a long wait.