LadyWench
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Not too well. I'm prone to nosebleeds and have had a few in the past that sent me to the ER because they wouldn't stop and I simply could NOT stop panicking, which made it worse. A vicious cycle. Well, I woke up early yesterday morning with an unexpected nosebleed that terrified me to my core. My husband woke up with me and was trying to calm me down and was being nice and helpful. Well, I went to change the original tissue I was using for a new one, and once I pulled it out from my nose (I was standing over the toilet), blood just started coming out and even splattered on the toilet seat. I immediately freaked out and things just got worse from there. I asked my husband to call the emergency number, but he just got mad and said "let's see if we can get it to stop first!". I know he can be more objective in situations like this, but I was absolutely petrified. I don't mind seeing other people's blood, but my own scares me. I am a major hypochondriac with severe panic disorder and OCD. So, naturally, I cannot look at my own health/body in a rational manner. I grabbed the phone and dialed the number. An ambulance was on its way. I was so scared. My husband was just angry at this point and even said "you can go f*ck yourself, I'm leaving". I couldn't be arsed to deal with his temper tantrum, so I went outside to wait for the ambulance to show up.
They got there and put me in the ambulance to check my vitals. As I suspected, my heart rate and BP were pretty high from my severe anxiety. They took me to the ER and from there, they took care of me. It was already stopping by the time we got to the hospital, of course. I felt like an idiot, but was still really scared and needed reassurance that I was going to be okay. I haven't had a nosebleed since, but I'm obsessively worrying that it will happen again. The doctor gave me some cotton, Vaseline and a nasal spray that's supposed to help constrict the vessels in the nasal cavity to hopefully prevent bleeding. He mentioned having my nose cauterized, but I was too scared and didn't know enough about the procedure to have it done right then and there. I'm an irritating patient, especially when I'm scared, as I ask LOADS of questions and want to know the details of everything. The ER was busy and I know they couldn't just take their sweet time with me. I figured I'd see if the clinic I go to could possibly cauterize it for me if I felt brave enough to get it done. I'm going to call them on Monday and find out.
Anyway, unnecessarily lengthy post, but I figured I'd vent and type it all out. If you read any of this, thanks. I'm just bitching to myself, really. I'm actually having a bit of anxiety at the moment, fearing the same thing will happen to me today. I'm making sure to use the nasal spray and am keeping my nose well-lubricated with the Vaseline.
Oh, I should also add that I actually have a good partner. We've been friends for years and got married in 2012. He has depression, bipolar disorder and has anger issues, all relating to a bad past. Once I was at the hospital, he called me nearly every ten minutes to see how I was doing and wanted to make sure I was okay. He felt badly for how he treated me and said it wasn't on purpose. He even wanted to cut himself for his behaviour because he felt badly, but I'm glad I was able to deter him from that (he's been a cutter off and on for YEARS). So, just in case anyone was worried about that portion of the post, everything is fine in that department. He just doesn't know how to react to my irrational outbursts and fears sometimes.
They got there and put me in the ambulance to check my vitals. As I suspected, my heart rate and BP were pretty high from my severe anxiety. They took me to the ER and from there, they took care of me. It was already stopping by the time we got to the hospital, of course. I felt like an idiot, but was still really scared and needed reassurance that I was going to be okay. I haven't had a nosebleed since, but I'm obsessively worrying that it will happen again. The doctor gave me some cotton, Vaseline and a nasal spray that's supposed to help constrict the vessels in the nasal cavity to hopefully prevent bleeding. He mentioned having my nose cauterized, but I was too scared and didn't know enough about the procedure to have it done right then and there. I'm an irritating patient, especially when I'm scared, as I ask LOADS of questions and want to know the details of everything. The ER was busy and I know they couldn't just take their sweet time with me. I figured I'd see if the clinic I go to could possibly cauterize it for me if I felt brave enough to get it done. I'm going to call them on Monday and find out.
Anyway, unnecessarily lengthy post, but I figured I'd vent and type it all out. If you read any of this, thanks. I'm just bitching to myself, really. I'm actually having a bit of anxiety at the moment, fearing the same thing will happen to me today. I'm making sure to use the nasal spray and am keeping my nose well-lubricated with the Vaseline.
Oh, I should also add that I actually have a good partner. We've been friends for years and got married in 2012. He has depression, bipolar disorder and has anger issues, all relating to a bad past. Once I was at the hospital, he called me nearly every ten minutes to see how I was doing and wanted to make sure I was okay. He felt badly for how he treated me and said it wasn't on purpose. He even wanted to cut himself for his behaviour because he felt badly, but I'm glad I was able to deter him from that (he's been a cutter off and on for YEARS). So, just in case anyone was worried about that portion of the post, everything is fine in that department. He just doesn't know how to react to my irrational outbursts and fears sometimes.
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