2.Well, I believe that I'm motivated because there are incentives and I realize the reward, I'm just afraid, lost and unsure of direction, all the while wasting time. I'll probably sound pretentious, but I don't take medication for a variety of reasons. In the past, I've never responded well to medication and I once had a bad experience. Medication altered my personality to the point where I could no longer recognize myself, as if I was perpetually drunk or high. Also, I fear that I would be using the drugs as a crutch, or masking the actual issue. I worry about becoming a guinea pig or forming a dependency on drugs, especially since I aspire to remain as natural as possible -- I won't even eat fast food. Plus, there's the political aspect of it all and that really leaves me with an unfavorable opinion toward these pharmaceutical companies, and I don't want to assist them.