^ I'm so sorry, Sri. :sad: You're not worthless and you don't have a wrong personality. I wish I was better with words and could really cheer you up. My inbox is always open though if you ever want to talk.
Thanks Phoenixx. 🙂 I'll be alright, its just everything feels too much sometimes.
Slippin' back intae a deep, dark depression. :🙁: Hearin' that one of ma cousins passed away yesterday, unexpectedly. Kinda makes me wish ah'd taken the time to get to know 'em more... He was just a few years older than me, tae. :sad:
Aw, ah wish ah could say summit to cheer ye up, Srijita. But ah don't if me tellin' ye that ya don't have to be like everyone else, it's okay to have different interests. And just because yer not loud or overly expressive doesnae mean yer born with the wrong personality. Yer not as flawed & worthless as ye might think, yer just - ah might be wrong here... - introverted. Not that there's anything wrong with that...
Is it bad not being like everyone else? If people are tellin' ye that, try not to let them get to ya or pressure ya to change. Just be yerself! Different interests and all... Oh, and yer positive qualities DO matter.
Thank you Graeme, you're a darling. 🙂 Sadly, I live in an environment where if you're not loud or expressive, you're seen as weak. You can be shallow but its alright as long as you're into what everyone likes, the "normal" things. I'm sorry you can relate.
Thank you Graeme, you're a darling. 🙂 Sadly, I live in an environment where if you're not loud or expressive, you're seen as weak. You can be shallow but its alright as long as you're into what everyone likes, the "normal" things. I'm sorry you can relate.
Ah could say the same aboot ma environment. Only difference bein' in ma culture yer considered weird n' anti-social if yer no' loud, expressive or a football fan. But then, am from a culture where talkin' aboot how yer feelin', openly isn't exactly welcomed. Aye, we're friendly but their a lotta angry n' supressed rage in Scottish folk - which ah think comes from constantly huvin' tae bit yer tongue n' shut up and "humour" people aw the time. Well speakin' from ma experience, anyway...
I'm feeling suicidal today, don't know how much of it I can take anymore. Is it such a bad thing, being born with the wrong personality? I can't live my entire life like this, being some invisible person that nobody cares for. I can try but man it sucks, how much can you fake? How can you go on with your life when the world constantly reminds you that you're flawed and worthless, that even you're positive qualites don't matter because they're not exactly what is considered social norms. Is it so bad not being like everyone else? Having different interests? Not being loud or "over" expressive? Is it such weakness that I must suffer my whole life for it?
Sorry you feel that way, Srijita, your are certainly not worthless in my opinion. I reckon it's great to have different interests, it shows your individuality, that is a good thing.
I'm feeling suicidal today, don't know how much of it I can take anymore. Is it such a bad thing, being born with the wrong personality? I can't live my entire life like this, being some invisible person that nobody cares for. I can try but man it sucks, how much can you fake? How can you go on with your life when the world constantly reminds you that you're flawed and worthless, that even you're positive qualites don't matter because they're not exactly what is considered social norms. Is it so bad not being like everyone else? Having different interests? Not being loud or "over" expressive? Is it such weakness that I must suffer my whole life for it?
You say the world constantly reminds you that you're flawed and worthless - what do you mean? Who's saying these things?
I don't think you're flawed. I would wager that nobody on SPW thinks you're flawed!
One of the cats at work went into liver failure Thursday and had to be put down. Her prognosis wasn't good from the beginning, but I had been trying really hard to keep her alive and comfortable. Wishful thinking.
Wow, I had a rough evening. For a good 20-30 minutes, I let my emotions take control of my mind and body. I think horrible thoughts towards my mom and myself. I had to take a step back for a moment and tell myself, "YOu are not your emotions. You are the observer behind them." I'm feeling a lot better now. What happened was not entirely my brother's fault - it would be too easy, way too easy, to blame it all on him. I went into his room without his permission, therefore invading his privacy. I was at fault for that. And my mom, who wasn't hurt or threatened, was also at fault for disrepecting my brother's privacy, even though she knew about his preferences. I'm gonna man up and take responsibility for what I did, the actions and the consequences that follow. My brother is at fault for being an abusive little f*cker, for threatening me and "punishing" me. I feel better now.
Sick of being stuck at home. feelin like a f*ucking shut in. Might be evicted in Jan then I will be a shut in without a home. I am starting to think I am really losing it.
Sick of being stuck at home. feelin like a f*ucking shut in. Might be evicted in Jan then I will be a shut in without a home. I am starting to think I am really losing it.
One of the cats at work went into liver failure Thursday and had to be put down. Her prognosis wasn't good from the beginning, but I had been trying really hard to keep her alive and comfortable. Wishful thinking.
Ah, sorry to hear. You must see a lot of this in your line of work and I imagine it doesn't exactly get any easier.
Wow, I had a rough evening. For a good 20-30 minutes, I let my emotions take control of my mind and body. I think horrible thoughts towards my mom and myself. I had to take a step back for a moment and tell myself, "YOu are not your emotions. You are the observer behind them." I'm feeling a lot better now. What happened was not entirely my brother's fault - it would be too easy, way too easy, to blame it all on him. I went into his room without his permission, therefore invading his privacy. I was at fault for that. And my mom, who wasn't hurt or threatened, was also at fault for disrepecting my brother's privacy, even though she knew about his preferences. I'm gonna man up and take responsibility for what I did, the actions and the consequences that follow. My brother is at fault for being an abusive little f*cker, for threatening me and "punishing" me. I feel better now.
This paragraph sounds like your brother runs the house.
Also the fact that "punishing" is in quotation marks is really suspicious....
It's funny though and I have to laugh and shake my friggin head in utter disbelief-Every time I get my hopes up about things getting better and I can see a future I end up with this reality. I don't know why bother to try. Seems silly.
It's funny though and I have to laugh and shake my friggin head in utter disbelief-Every time I get my hopes up about things getting better and I can see a future I end up with this reality. I don't know why bother to try. Seems silly.
Sick of being stuck at home. feelin like a f*ucking shut in. Might be evicted in Jan then I will be a shut in without a home. I am starting to think I am really losing it.
That's a worry, hope it doesn't happen, April_Snow
it's funny though and i have to laugh and shake my friggin head in utter disbelief-every time i get my hopes up about things getting better and i can see a future i end up with this reality. I don't know why bother to try. Seems silly.
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