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dottie

dottie

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struggling. really fighting the urge to drive over to my ex's house. why is it ok for him to turn off and on the relationship?
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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I'm feeling tired, but really good. :) Today went so much better than I expected it to, especially since I woke up this morning in kind of a bad mood and was feeling pretty anxious and self-conscious. My nutritionist complimented me during my appointment today, said I was "very inspiring" for sticking with what I've been doing the last 6 months. The family dinner/gathering tonight went really well too, got no snide comments from anyone and not a single person commented about my weight or how I looked. I finally got to talk to and hang out with my cousin I haven't seen in so long, plus I actually hung around my younger cousin a bit. I haven't done that in years, since for a while she was either too immature or was going through a snobby pre-teen phase and treated everyone like crap. She's finally starting to mature and she's actually really decent, talked to me quite a few times instead of ignoring me like she has in the past. Overall, I had a really awesome day.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Really f**kin' strugglin' tae contain ma anger. Just want tae start f**kin' ragin'. :veryangry:

Sick of being manipulated 'n' used by ma oldest sister. Ah hud enough! :kickingmyself:
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Tired. Wish I could've slept in longer this morning, but my mom woke me up to tell me she was leaving to run a few errands. So I'm up with the house all to myself.... Wish the dog would leave me alone. He's so clingy anymore I can't stand it, and at the same time I feel bad for feeling so annoyed with his clinginess. I think it's an old age/separation anxiety thing.
 
Lea

Lea

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My father is in a hospital. He had some complications about a week ago, when my mother found him on the floor at night when she went to the bathroom. But he said not to call ambulance so she didn´t. Today at night he couldn´t breathe again, but he managed to get dressed and call an ambulance. When they came they found out he had extremely high blood pressure (225/130). I always thought he might die on heart attack or something like that, because both of his parents died in their early 60´s. My father will be 70 next april. He is always extremely angry and abusive. He called from the hospital and said he´s better already. My mother went to visit him.

I have plenty of other worries as well.. and so much to do and no support. I am fearing if my parents die how am I going to cope here alone, and what´s worse I will probably not be able to leave the house, go travellling or working abroad like I did before. I should better not think about it, it´s doing my head in.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Lonely, I've never felt this lonely in a while.
Lea said:
My father is in a hospital. He had some complications about a week ago, when my mother found him on the floor at night when she went to the bathroom. But he said not to call ambulance so she didn´t. Today at night he couldn´t breathe again, but he managed to get dressed and call an ambulance. When they came they found out he had extremely high blood pressure (225/130). I always thought he might die on heart attack or something like that, because both of his parents died in their early 60´s. My father will be 70 next april. He is always extremely angry and abusive. He called from the hospital and said he´s better already. My mother went to visit him.

I have plenty of other worries as well.. and so much to do and no support. I am fearing if my parents die how am I going to cope here alone, and what´s worse I will probably not be able to leave the house, go travellling or working abroad like I did before. I should better not think about it, it´s doing my head in.
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I don't know what to say, just hang in there Lea. ;)
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Lea said:
My father is in a hospital. He had some complications about a week ago, when my mother found him on the floor at night when she went to the bathroom. But he said not to call ambulance so she didn´t. Today at night he couldn´t breathe again, but he managed to get dressed and call an ambulance. When they came they found out he had extremely high blood pressure (225/130). I always thought he might die on heart attack or something like that, because both of his parents died in their early 60´s. My father will be 70 next april. He is always extremely angry and abusive. He called from the hospital and said he´s better already. My mother went to visit him.

I have plenty of other worries as well.. and so much to do and no support. I am fearing if my parents die how am I going to cope here alone, and what´s worse I will probably not be able to leave the house, go travellling or working abroad like I did before. I should better not think about it, it´s doing my head in.
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Crap... that's no good. Sorry tae hear yer goin' through a very difficult time, Lea. :sad: Though, ah worry about that, too - how ah'll cope when ma parent are gone. Anyway, ah don't want tae get aw down n' depressive on ya. Stay strong, darlin' - hang in there. :thumbup:

Srijita52 said:
Lonely, I've never felt this lonely in a while
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Aye, that's pretty much how ah've been feelin' lately, as well. Could really do with a friend right now, or at the very least someone tae talk with or vent ma internal emotions to. Feel like am goin' f**kin' mental, batsh*t crazy. :sad: Tae put blunt, eh... ah just want somebody who'll listen, instead of tellin' me tae shut up n' stop moanin' (in other words, complainin').
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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^Me too or somebody who won't flat out ignore me, its okay though. I know they have a "life" which I don't so yeah. You can vent to me if you want though Graeme.
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Lea said:
My father is in a hospital. He had some complications about a week ago, when my mother found him on the floor at night when she went to the bathroom. But he said not to call ambulance so she didn´t. Today at night he couldn´t breathe again, but he managed to get dressed and call an ambulance. When they came they found out he had extremely high blood pressure (225/130). I always thought he might die on heart attack or something like that, because both of his parents died in their early 60´s. My father will be 70 next april. He is always extremely angry and abusive. He called from the hospital and said he´s better already. My mother went to visit him.

I have plenty of other worries as well.. and so much to do and no support. I am fearing if my parents die how am I going to cope here alone, and what´s worse I will probably not be able to leave the house, go travellling or working abroad like I did before. I should better not think about it, it´s doing my head in.
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^ Wow, Lea. Really sorry to hear about your father. I'm not sure what to say either, as I've had the same thoughts before -- wondering how I could possibly cope alone without my parents. I find it hard to believe my dad is going to be 60 soon. I can't say I already worry about him, with how he works all the time and how he eats. Well, his diet has gotten a teeny bit better in the past couple years, but I still worry about what his cholesterol must be like and the fact he hasn't visited a doctor in years.
 
Lea

Lea

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Thank you all who replied to me! Hopefully it will be OK, at least for the time being. It is easier when he isn´t at home because he´s really toxic, but I wish he was OK anyway. Except of that I am sick of my constant financial problems.
 
J

jaim38

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Today I went to visit a campus and felt very anxious. I just couldn't help it. The beginning was the most nerve-wrecking. When that lady was speaking to me, I was so uncomfortable. I thought I was gonna run away or even worse might happen. I don't know how to describe the sensation, but it was very intense, like my head was about to explode. I couldn't maintain eye contact for long. I thought I would lose control of my muscles. Towards the end my anxiety got better. I was self-conscious about my shirt because I thought it might not look good on me, but I didn't get any comments on that at all, which is good.
 
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