opa, (after [finally] trying gin and juice) i think you'll like this!
How are you feeling?
I must mail tonight my part of the preliminary draft of my graduation project to a classmate but my head it's an stressful mess and school stuff is the last thing I'd like to deal with right now >.<
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Emerald_ said: ↑Super!
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You rang? :kiss:
I finally unpacked. It's nice to feel at home again. I think I'm getting sick, though.
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Bad, not sleeping well. I have been taking diazepam on and off since the summer of 2010 but i stopped completely last sunday and I mean I have felt even worse than usual everything is getting on my nerves this week. Also i hate that i look so young its embarrassing. i am really bad at reciprocating(is that even a word) conversation when people try to speak to me I can only give short one word answers. I don't sleep for many houirs either i dont know what to do sorry for sounding like such a baby
i feel lonely:-(
^ lonely and lost
i'm losing hope but i'm hanging on the the little i have left
i'm losing hope but i'm hanging on the the little i have left
Feeling pretty bad today. My stomach is in knots and there's a black cloud hanging.
It doesn't help that my stepfather keeps sending my mother cruel text messages telling her she's ugly, worthless, evil, and that he isn't going to help her with anything.
I don't have anything good to say today. I feel hopelessly negative. I hate my life. I want to make it better but feel I don't deserve a better life for some reason. My head is all screwed up :omg:
It doesn't help that my stepfather keeps sending my mother cruel text messages telling her she's ugly, worthless, evil, and that he isn't going to help her with anything.
I don't have anything good to say today. I feel hopelessly negative. I hate my life. I want to make it better but feel I don't deserve a better life for some reason. My head is all screwed up :omg:
im feeling very simliar to you opa, though on entirely different subjects. -.-
*hug*
your not alone with this. try to hang in there. im trying too.
*hug*
your not alone with this. try to hang in there. im trying too.
My goodness I’m dreading going back to school tomorrow after having a good 2 week holiday which I happily spend chilling in the house as I was anxious to go outside! I just feel nervous when I think of what I go though during school days. Its times like this which I wish I was never born!
sorry to hear, opa. what a jerk.
Weak. Beaten. Like a slave to satisfaction. Like I haven't the strength and resolve to fight down the urges anymore. Like I have to get all armored up and drive twenty miles out of my way (so they won't know who I am), when a stronger man—indeed any kind of man—would stay home and be content. I hate this life and this repulsive thing that I've become. I'm so tired of it all. So tired.
@Opaline- You deserve a better life. Whether you believe it or not, I believe it.
Everyone's feeling down and out aren't they? I don't know what to say that might help ease the pain. I just wanna be able to smile again. Here's to hoping that everyone have a peaceful day tomorrow.
JuiceB said: ↑Everyone's feeling down and out aren't they? I don't know what to say that might help ease the pain. I just wanna be able to smile again. Here's to hoping that everyone have a peaceful day tomorrow.
What's weird is that everyone seems to be in a bad mood that I meet today. Hopefully it's just a one day thing.
I'm thinking it's some sort of galactic anomaly affecting us all. >.>
it's probably the time change putting the last nail in the coffin of the upcoming, now-here, SAD (seasonal affective disorder). :/
dottie said: ↑it's probably the time change putting the last nail in the coffin of the upcoming, now-here, SAD (seasonal affective disorder). :/
Don't be SAD!

We're all feeling pretty crappy, aren't we?
Add me to that list.
Add me to that list.
Eh, I'm okay. 😀 I do have a job interview tomorrow and I haven't thought about it in the slightest. That could be both good and bad.