How are you feeling?

I feel totally wrecked. feeling so sensitive about things, even a smallest word bring me down. I'm lost inside, don't know the way to fix this state of mind. Last night i had a spoke with my roommate, and she kept me asking questions about my problems even telling them makes me nervous and depressed about myself. I should have never open myself to anyone else other than my family anymore. I want to go home. I feel so hollow in this place!

I feel stuck in the mire lost with no hope of coming out the other side. I am just so exhausted I want to curl up in a ball and just stay there.

A Many Splendored Thing said: ↑

There's always a chance to fix it. You just have to give yourself a chance.

I agree. No life is ever perfect because perfect doesn't exist. I think you'll figure it out. You seem like a smart person with a good heart. Hang tight. :militarysalute: <-- He has nothing to do with this post. I was trying to find a comforting emoticon, but he sucked me in with his salute.

Nothing like a well-meaning comment from a family member about a dating website tae make ye realise just sh!te yer life has gotten. Or how much of loser I am.

Being telt by ma 18 year auld cousin: "You should join a dating website, get yerself a woman!"

Aye, like that's gonnae happen!

I appreciate the advice an' all. But I, personally, doubt I'll be doing that anytime soon, tae be honest. I was'nae aw that keen on joinin' Facebook. And the thought of a dating website just fill me with dread. :omg::idontknow: I mean, I cannae see a woman even wantin' tae date me, unless they're as mental in the heid as I am! :ironicsmile:

And the odds are kinda against me in that area on account of my physical disability. An' the whole "taboo" subject of disability and sexuality. And, I don't really want tae rant about this topic - since I rarely talk openly about myself or the fact I have cerebral palsy.

But am gonnae anyway... And not tae sound bitter or come across as an effin' knob or nothin', but able-bodied have it a lot easier in many ways when it comes tae dating and sex; more so, than if yer disabled (just sayin'!). I might be wrong, though...?

And then there's my total inability to start and maintain friendships in real life. Mostly due to SA, and to some extent my disability. Then there's always that feelin' with me, that people will, eventually, get bored of me, stop being my friend and leave. Forgot about me, pretty much. I mean, that was the case with every able-bodied friend I made during high school. They didn't stick around long.

So, if I don't have much luck with makin' friends, I don't see havin' much luck on a dating website. I don't know, maybe am being too cynical, eh? Anyway, that's ma wee rant over. Just need tae vent ma feelin' and get that oot ma system.

i'm hosting a group meetup. I'm freaking scared as F lol. But it wont be so bad, as long as there are 2 other peeps, they can just talk to eachother if I end up not being able to.

coyote said: ↑

^i think human beings are awesome

look at all the cool things they've created - out of Legos!

and the women smell really good, too

all in all, they're really only a disappointment if you expect too much from them

and whose fault is that?

They also invented pizza. This alone erases all evil.

I mean, they suck, but it's cool because pizza.

Also Slinkies are pretty neat.

BlackPuma said: ↑

They also invented pizza. This alone erases all evil.

I mean, they suck, but it's cool because pizza.

Also Slinkies are pretty neat.

I can just hear you in an argument with a friend..

"Man, it's okay, because pizza."

Or answering a history question, Why was world war 2 important to mankind?

"... because there was still pizza?"

😛

Like ****. I was doing good but something was said today which has dropped my self confidence significantly. People think it's okay to make a joke of someone and it's not! I just feel so not myself and insecure about my looks, weight, personality. The list goes on and on. I know I shouldn't let someone make me feel this way but I can't help it, I just keep hearing their words over and over again. People suck.

EscapeArtist said: ↑

I can just hear you in an argument with a friend..

"Man, it's okay, because pizza."

Or answering a history question, Why was world war 2 important to mankind?

"... because there was still pizza?"

😛

I'm fairly convinced pizza is the meaning of life.

I kid. I'm ENTIRELY convinced.

i don't come across as interesting, nice, kind. nearly everyone i talk to is bored or even goes away. i think i may come across as arrogant sometimes, but i just don't have any social skills, I'm completely inept.

its incredible how a person can evolve in a period of 5-10 years, in both ways. all my old friends are having fun and i remember how back in the day some had issues and I was the one to look up to. now everything is the other way around, i don't even have a Facebook picture, i haven't talked to any Facebook friend except 1 in 2 years.

but I'm going to change things, i decided to fight.

EscapeArtist said: ↑

i'm hosting a group meetup. I'm freaking scared as F lol. But it wont be so bad, as long as there are 2 other peeps, they can just talk to eachother if I end up not being able to.

Good luck, Escape. I'm sure it'll go great.

BlackPuma said: ↑

They also invented pizza. This alone erases all evil.

I mean, they suck, but it's cool because pizza.

Also Slinkies are pretty neat.

Slinkies? Meh. But yeah, pizza is pretty damn good.

I'm actually feeling really terrible. How about that. I've been trying to get rid of it with chocolate, movies, and music, but it's a Band-Aid.

MikeyC said: ↑

I'm actually feeling really terrible. How about that. I've been trying to get rid of it with chocolate, movies, and music, but it's a Band-Aid.

I have the perfect chocolate bar for you at my k-mart store they have the worlds largest hearshy bar at 5 pounds. The thing is enourmouce I actualy literly think it would be death by chocolate. They even have two pound resesee penutbutter cups as well. I could not belive my eyes when I saw that stuff yesterday.

feeling angry, outraged, insecure, frightened...

that i might have to live in a world without ding dongs.

A World Without Twinkies: Hostess Worker Strike Could Lead to Company Liquidation - San Francisco - Restaurants and Dining - SFoodie

...i can't even. 😮

:crying:

truffleshuffle said: ↑

I have the perfect chocolate bar for you at my k-mart store they have the worlds largest hearshy bar at 5 pounds. The thing is enourmouce I actualy literly think it would be death by chocolate. They even have two pound resesee penutbutter cups as well. I could not belive my eyes when I saw that stuff yesterday.

That is...a lot of chocolate. Reese's Pieces are not great, though.

dottie said: ↑

feeling angry, outraged, insecure, frightened...

that i might have to live in a world without ding dongs.

A World Without Twinkies: Hostess Worker Strike Could Lead to Company Liquidation - San Francisco - Restaurants and Dining - SFoodie

...i can't even. 😮

:crying:

Forget climate change - save Ding Dongs! I love those things.

dottie said: ↑

feeling angry, outraged, insecure, frightened...

that i might have to live in a world without ding dongs.

A World Without Twinkies: Hostess Worker Strike Could Lead to Company Liquidation - San Francisco - Restaurants and Dining - SFoodie

...i can't even. 😮

:crying:

Say what? That's just sick and wrong! Time to stage an intervention!!! :no:

feeling very stressed and depressed about work.

i've so much anger, resentment towards my supervisor who sits about 8 ft away. i wish i could make it go away. i loathe her. and i spend so much energy suppressing it all day, every day.

edited: wow, that is so weird. i went to youtube to watch something while i eat my dinner... this video popped up:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_TSoNWZ_yp0&feature=g-all-u

and she immediately starts into this topic. how appropriate.

edited after watching video: all of these are things i have tried practicing. accepting that she doesn't like me, accepting this is who she is, focusing on her good qualities, seeing her as someone who has her own struggles, yadda yadda. still, it is extremely difficult to get over it when i am locked in a room with her all day, every day. this would be much easier to apply if i wasn't in such close proximity.

MikeyC said: ↑

That is...a lot of chocolate. Reese's Pieces are not great, though.

Ya thats way to much chocolate. ALso Im not talking about reese's pieces Im talking about reese's peanutbuter cups who can deny peanutbuter and chocolate yum. ALthough I would never buy a two pound thing of them lol.

truffleshuffle said: ↑

Ya thats way to much chocolate. ALso Im not talking about reese's pieces Im talking about reese's peanutbuter cups who can deny peanutbuter and chocolate yum. ALthough I would never buy a two pound thing of them lol.

Oh, those peanut butter cups are seriously awful. Maybe it's an American delicacy but I can't stand those.